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Honestly the heat is most definitely a factor, although it feels weird to say we're stressed and can't be productive because being hot sometimes is annoying. And yeah, we've always prided ourselves on the non-sad/negative mental state we worked for. Younger teen Lumi was cynical and, while not self-directed negative, pretty stereotypically depressed hiding from the world, lying in bed on his laptop all day every day, etc. And even though we literally never solved any of our core issues causing all that (though of course can cope with many things better by now), we did successfully train our mind not to be negative and to only think productively, which has been a massive boon to our life, considering again, never actually managed to solve any of our problems lol.. The TMS (transcranial magnetic stimulation, last time typing that out) for depression - if they EVER get back to us on that - still has a high chance of boosting our mood even if it's not the solution and the OCD one is (or maybe it IS what we need, who knows). It might not, but honestly a non-chemical solution that is just directly affecting our brain sort of bypasses our history of "nothing helping" for us to be a bit more optimistic. Well, my expectation for most-likely scenario is the TMS Depression protocol improving our mood generically, but neither fixing our motivation issues nor lasting permanently, maybe fading over 6 months or something. But it's not like we wouldn't gladly take 6 months of feeling good. Only problem is we need to travel far like three times a week for 3 straight months, and we neither drive nor have a car to do so, so we'd probably have to figure out a bus route and timing to go on our own. Assuming they ever follow up, I don't really know why we've had to wait so long after agreeing to do it.

speaking of gendo ikari

Bunnieeeeeees! 😊 Lol, agreed.

https://www.youtube.com/@wildbunnywhisperer/playlists this is how it feels to look at the news even can make byakko make that gesture. similar to when she forgot to put the bacon back

Aww, poor Tewi. (⁠⊃⁠｡⁠•́⁠‿⁠•̀⁠｡⁠)⁠⊃ Honestly, I think the news can make anyone depressed. I recommend balancing it with some cute animal videos. 😊

try the dragon balls it was able to get frieza to feel something resembling joy though i'm sorry to hear that. hmm. first week where byakko tried vyvanse it was kind of stressful because she was just taking the whole pill prescribed, and then when we went a day not on it, we felt pretty bad too. i think it hasn't been the case as much using a lower dose and/or splitting into multiple smaller doses idk if the obvious main stressor you are referring to is the extreme heat and inability to open windows for the reasons you mentioned or the current administration or something else nvm i can't read you mentioned bad world news so tewi's system depression is lack of motivation + sometimes a lot of stress, but not really major sadness. like alternate version of agitated depression i used to get which was major despair+extreme anxiety i wish you well

May not be outright depressed, but we've been doing nothing but trying to de-stress recently. Basically completely given up on (work/skills) productivity for the moment, just trying to be something resembling happy for like 6+ straight hours, but it's rarely happening. At this point (literally on my walk a couple hours ago) I've had to start questioning if not doing productive things is causing us to be more stressed, even though generally all those things (coding, blender etc.) seem stressful to do. Sure it's nice to have been productive, but we've just constantly felt the urge to simply enjoy something for a while, so I'm not sure that's what craving productivity feels like. Also had to consider if this is a medium-term effect of using an ADHD stimulant consistently (~3 times a week anyways) since we've technically never done that before these last couple months, and they do strongly affect dopamine. But I don't think they're supposed to have any negative effects along those lines, you don't gain tolerance and we aren't more stressed while their effects are active, so they'd have to be causing stress while not on them, which is just not something we've heard of. At worst people feel bad like they always did when not on them, but being stressed all the time is not our normal. I mean, the main stressor is pretty obvious. But I don't think it should be impacting us that much just in general, I think we cope with bad world news alright?

thanks

Aww, poor friends. Hugs for them even if they will never see it. ⊂⁠(⁠(⁠・⁠▽⁠・⁠)⁠)⁠⊃ I hope they're ok/don't have clinical depression.

multiple friends of mine are becoming depressed good morning shaula

Good morning everyone! 😊 Hehe, silly doggie. 🐶

goodnight andre good morning

Good night

good morning

Yeah, and we heard Spain/Portugal are getting record-breaking high temperatures right now too. Turns out that climate change thing was real

Oh, I hope you weren't frightened. It's also very hot here. The Coke even turns warm after being taken out of the fridge and placed on the dining table for an afternoon.

Just barbecue sauce and some wet grass. Giant spider in the bathtub.... upstairs somehow. I guess through the window sill? I give up trying to cool the house with the windows, there's no airflow at all, so it doesn't help but apparently lets big spiders in on the second floor. Guess spraying the perimeter of the house isn't good enough either.

I'm kind of curious about what that smell would be like.

Good morning Once again trying to open our windows at night... And it smells like barbecue sauce compost outside. Why can't this place just be normal? Where do these smells even come from? There's nothing weird visible from our house or on walks

World: prahtoolf Location: Carbonarius Time: 07:00 AM I put the cup aside, took out my notebook, then closed the bag's zipper. I turned to Yannos: _ "Here are my requests. First, after the Dragon Dinosaur, we'll have them find the little dwarves in a cave. Then, open a stargate to another world for Cartoon." _ "Understood." I smiled.

World: prahtoolf Location: Gallina Dulces Time: 07:00 AM I held the cup of milk tea and began to warm myself with its steam: _"I don't think you're the one talking to me?" _ "How do you know?" I said, frowning: _"There's someone else interfering with the communication, or you're just toying with me because you're a devil." _"Are you determined to turn the world into a fantasy?" _"Yes."

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Good night

Close enough, lol. Now we will go to sleep, good night everyone. 😊 🛏️

8.5 hours in bed, 6 hours of sleep Good enough I guess