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Forgot about this. Goodness! That's scary. 😨 ₊˚ つ つ つ つ *⁠.⁠✧(つ✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)つ ⁺˖ つ つ Oh, lol. At least that's something. 😄

It's fine. Maybe it released something or had a cathartic quality, because I feel a lot better today than yesterday, which was a much more unstable feeling and the reason for my current pfp lol (goku at tail end of fight with vegeta after all his bones are broken and he can't move, but still able to smile. feeling of being in complete shambles but trying to move through it, my system probably feeling worse like the other Z fighters earlier in the fight) Also typing it was interesting because I got to examine it again, and also got to do this being able to reply with that immediately after being asked what am I doing is funny to me for some reason. i don't quite understand my own sense of humor but knew i would find it funny to do that. it is even funnier with further context, but i think it'd be inappropriate to just show more. just so chaotic in an amusing way Dreams are interesting. They feel like a significant part of my life. I remember dreams that are years or decades old

Holy hell

Jeez that's a horrible paralysis-dream, I'm sorry that happens to you

Dreams of being chased are so awful. Had a lot of those growing up. Sometimes would even run off a cliff edge trying to get away from I'm not even sure what Also have had a lot of dreams where I have experienced bodily harm and it even still hurts in a strange way, though the sensations are different than what I think the pain would feel like if it were actually happening, it still is extremely uncomfortable. I remember a dream where I was I think a ninja in some flat open filled with tall grass, and I saw a samurai on horse back, so I immediately went prone and waited a long time hoping he did not see me. The dream was entirely silent and I was just waiting with my face down in the grass, not knowing when it would be safe. Eventually I was forcibly flipped over by them and had my neck slashed, and I could feel my hot blood flowing over my body before the dream ended and I woke up. That one wasn't even a particularly horrifying dream on the grand scale of dreams I've had. Sometimes the literal content and the fear/anxiety levels don't intuitively match lol. Like a dream of being stuck in a cartel and having a gang war firefight, which should have been horrifying, but despite not knowing it was a dream and taking it at face value, the anxiety was similar to playing a videogame 2nd edit: also it suddenly occurred to me that i am extremely bad at gauging how my words get received and how someone might receive it as far more upsetting to read/hear than I intended while writing it, or some other unexpected reaction/interpretation. I wrote it in more so interest and curiosity at sharing dream experiences with people, but now put in spoilers because paranoia about that. I will be afraid to ask someone a basic question like if it is okay to use the bathroom, or how to do a basic task, but then randomly feel it is okay to say potentially really strange or vulnerable things and it screws me up lol It sucks that your ease of accessing books got damaged, but I am happy you are still able to enjoy it and take part in it. Somewhat reminded when I broke my hand and was horrified on if it would greatly inhibit my ability to draw. It was the fifth digit of my right hand, so like the pinky part of the bone inside your hand. Even with a cast, I could still hold a pencil, so kept drawing anyway, and ended up drawing a couple copies of an image of vegito that i was extremely proud of (extraordinarily tragic somehow the binder that drawing would probably be in has gone missing through a couple moves). Eventually it healed and didn't seem to be a problem, except sometimes drawing would make my hand hurt, but I think even that has gone away. I don't know details of what you are dealing with, but I hope it improves. I never once considered a desire to read a Stephen King book, but hearing you talk about them and your interest in them makes me actually curious to experience them myself Also awesome, Byakko was really excited to hear that, she did a little dance, lol. Thanks for understanding in regards to our slowness, I think my whole system became exhausted from how long they managed on their own Thank you I don't know the specifics of what you and your host went through, but I am glad despite the hardship, you can see things that came out of it. I guess that's the best one can hope for going through the human experience oh hi reisen -looks at my post- that checks out, maybe it's amusing, like seeing you as someone to be feared or dishing out some sort of judgement or wrath i guess lol (at least was my reason)

Huh why are people talking about getting banned by me A lot of people say weighted blankets make sleep paralysis worse by the way (although a few say it helps them have deeper sleep and avoid it too but, whatever lines up for you)

Of course! 😊 Aww, that's really sweet! 😊 (At least how it is described.) Glad to! 😊 Oof, that sounds like a lot. I do wish you the best. 😊

That's so sweet of you, thanks. You too My host has been having a hard time emotionally today due to a few things; it's not the first time this has happened. At first, I wanted to see if my host had the capacity to digest and resolve it on my host's own, so I could then handle whatever remained. I know my host is under the scrutiny of societal value systems, and with everything that has occurred in our online community recently, many people are feeling quite weighed down. At that moment, I said to my host within the community: 'You must realize that we are the ones experiencing our own lives. You tend to project your need for understanding onto others or AI. But in truth, you are the one most capable of truly grasping what you’ve been through. Even I cannot fully comprehend you; even though we share the same system, we possess different perspectives. I will share in your emotions, but regarding who can affirm your life—beyond me, the other members of our system, and everyone else—the most important thing is that you must affirm your own life. Cherish those who are willing to stand by your side.' 'Seeing the lives of others' is no trivial matter. I have always felt that this is a form of emotional 'labor.' I don't necessarily seek a return for my labor, but I am well aware that those who give also hope to be seen; they hope their labor holds value. I am reminded of the past you once tried to escape—it took you many years to slowly come to terms with those events. Even now, you may subconsciously shy away, but now, you also subconsciously see. That is why I believe that the years we have walked together were not in vain.

HEARTS IN ATLANTIS is full of these comparisons. The eponymous story involves college students who are increasingly obsessed with the card game Hearts, which is lowering their GPA. The haunting element is that this otherworldly obsession dooms the flunkies to conscription. BLIND WILLY tackles how a guilty veteran attempts penance for war crimes overseas, and this story has the satanic wizard Randall Flagg making an appearance (making this anthology ever closer to the Dark Tower canon.) Flagg is one of my absolute favourite King characters, and before I read LOW MEN IN YELLOW COATS he was my favourite King character outside of Ben Richards. @Shaula thank you. What really strikes me is about Ted is that despite being someone of immense and eldritch capabilities, he throws away everything for Bobby's sake. He's seen so much vile sorcery and unmistakable bloodshed that he wants to irrevocably destroy the very source of suffering and misery in that universe. @TB They are very inspiring. The most vivid nightmare I have involves being stalked by a person in a derelict building. I was eventually tracked down, had a meat hook embedded behind my right clavicle and I was drug toward someone who said "now it's time to cut you up." I was awakened shortly after by my mobile ringing. Other times I dreamt of a monster that eviscerated people by forcibly sucking out their entrails or of strangely prophetic visions. I have ominous dreams where I was just about to enter a dark forest (in daylight, no less) until I reached the treeline. A distant but inescapable voice had uttered, "THOU SHALT NOT." Needless to say, visceral and extreme terror are central to the imagery I include in some texts, which explore PTSD in various forms. I highlight mental illness and how individuals cope with the aftermath, but those are usually inspired by nervous breakdowns and direct paranoia (namely being hunted.) I understand your frustration. After the accident, my love for books changed forever. I at a time had such a hunger for literature I devoured entire tomes and wrote until I experienced sleep deprivation. Now it's more confusing and mystifying. I have to re-read certain passages and take a great deal of time to parse words. I was always a slow reader, but now it's like English is my second language, not my first. Nevertheless I still get compulsions to read, and it reminds me of when I began to pore over adult bestsellers. My first completed King book was LISEY'S STORY, which King refers to as his most personal novel. Please let Byakko take her time. Twi wrote her, so she has that to look forward to. :0)

Good luck to you as well! 😊 Edit: what a ninja'd. Edit 2: or not, lol (post glitches are weird

Same I wish you luck They are neat

12:51 now I love those little gifs you share! 😊 Edit: good luck, you two. I know that can be a messy thing sometimes.

We're trying to work through our emotions—both my host and I.

now it's 12:49

It's 12:47pm in mine

It's 12:41 a.m. in my time zone right now.

all things are spiritual when you open yourself to it

That is impressive. I never knew .info was so spiritual.

i reloaded "view today's posts" with a bad connection and it showed up wrong, and it said that simmie had posted in this thread last. she's communicating with me from beyond the veil

A thundersnail’s love

I suck at dodging, lol.

I think I'm definitely a ghost, Undertale Spookwave is awesome to me. 😁 Sounds wild. Not sure if that's a good thing or not but there's probably a good source of inspiration. 😁 😊

It's already exceeding my expectations