Riy's Progress Report

[Guest Riy]

I'm incredibly new to the Tulpa concept.

 

I've recently started meditation sessions in an attempt to help discover (shape?) a Tulpa for myself. I feel like this is worthwhile and will help me with my current lifestyle immensely as I'm not really equipped to maintain relationships or friendships due to job restraints. I won't write my entire life story, but I will mention that I'm never in one place for very long and I spend more time outside of my house rather than in it.

 

Now, I've never meditated before (at least not seriously) until now.

I also usually do not dream vividly which is why my latest session has left a lasting impression on me.

 

Thankfully I live alone. I have an uninterrupted place for me to meditate. I've been trying to reduce intrusive thoughts and it's becoming easier. Now, roughly halfway into the session, though it may have been further, I had a very clear vision that I was in a forest.

 

This forest was on fire, or at least it had been. But I could see the flames had run it's course, only a few smouldering ashes lit the fallen trunks around me. I was on an incline which makes me think I might have been on a mountainside, or something similar.

I walked through the soot and ash, I remember distinctly I was wearing my heavy work boots as well as my normal work attire.

As I trudged I turned my head down the slope.

 

Off to my right, down the incline I was standing on, I saw a single leaf and stem poking from burnt flakes.

It was not very far away and it had a hole singed through it's exposed leaf where an ember had fallen on it.

 

It did not glow or have an aura, but it caught my eye nonetheless. As I started to make my way down to it the vision changed and intrusive thoughts broke my concentration.

Shortly after, the beeping of my watch indicating the end of the time I allotted myself for the session.

 

I have no idea if this is significant or relevant, only that it's the first time since I started that I had a clear experience like this.

I will have another session in the morning to see if I can investigate further.

[Guest Riy]

Now, as I've said before. The purpose of the meditation sessions is to help me discover a form for my Tulpa. Since I'm so new to the process and concept I was told that meditation will help 'push this along' so to speak, allowing my subconscious to help with the process.

 

Thankfully I was able to shove away intrusive thoughts and distractions quickly during my next session.

I found myself in very much the same scenario as before (much to my surprise) though now I was kneeling in front of the budding plant. There was a lot of smog and dust surrounding me and I couldn't see any more than a few feet in front of me.

But I had seen this from a distance.

 

I dug a hand into the soot underneath it. The roots were small and rose with the rest of the mass as I brought it from the earth with one hand. It had a bright lime color. I touched it's single leaf to inspect it.

Rather than the leaf being pushed over, it instead folded over my fingertip in a very weak grip.

The burnt hole in it's surface took up nearly half it's entire size.

 

The beeping of my watch brought me back to reality. I'll admit that I had extreme skepticism at first about all this but after that session I knew I was on to something.

 

I knew Tulpas could take on all sorts of different shapes and forms, though I'm sure people's Tulpas mostly resemble humans, or humanesque forms.

Is it that unheard of to have a plant Tulpa?

[Guest Riy]

It's at this point I realized that my meditation sessions were a success and that I now had a form / shape that I could work with.

I am generally very patient and I'm not one to rush. For my next step I worked on creating a "thought place" for me to work in. I can try to help you visualize it if you can imagine a large empty room, in my case my room was an endless black void.

In this place, this room, I worked with this form. I kept it in the soil I had found it in and it seemed to be recovering. The hole in its leaf seemed smaller and it stood a bit straighter.

It responds to my presence, I noticed that very early on. It turns or sways depending on where I stand and will draw itself closer to my hand if I touch it.

For many sessions I simply talked to it with my mind voice. I told it about my life, my work, my circumstance.

By my third day of playing in this "thought place" it had started to grow vines, and there was much more soil beneath it than I had placed originally.

 

I was very interested at this point. The stem barely rose up to my kneecap and the leaf was at eye level if I kneeled down. I would let it coil it's vines and chutes around my hand and arm. It never twisted or tightened painfully, just explored.

 

I was very pleased at everything that was happening. I can honestly say I was amazed.

[Gabriel]

That's a really interesting tulpa, you have there; Quite unique, if I may say so; she makes me think of Rose from The Little Prince.

Plants are sensitive, fragile and totally dependent on their environment. I'm curious to see when you get to visualize it with your mind's eye, or if you plan to just keep it in your wonderland.

Nice progress with your meditation skills, too; I wish I had more time alone to reach this sort of level easier.

Keep up with the good work, and let us know how it goes. :)

-R.

[Guest Riy]

That's a really interesting tulpa, you have there; Quite unique, if I may say so; she makes me think of Rose from The Little Prince.

Plants are sensitive, fragile and totally dependent on their environment. I'm curious to see when you get to visualize it with your mind's eye, or if you plan to just keep it in your wonderland.

Nice progress with your meditation skills, too; I wish I had more time alone to reach this sort of level easier.

Keep up with the good work, and let us know how it goes. :)

 

Thanks Gabriel, when I first started out I had a no-rush mindset about this. I have nothing but free time on my hands after work shifts and I wanted to keep a calm, steady attitude about it all.

Or to put it another way, I wanted to coax out a form rather than paint the form. This took a bit more effort, as I had to first delve fairly deep into meditation and it's practice, but I feel this will be more effective and worth it in the long run.

 

Cheers man, thanks for the post!

[Guest Riy]

I'll backdate this entry so a sense of time can be maintained

 

Oct 2013

My thought-place and plant form are roughly a month old now. I do not imagine any sort of environment in this setting. It is a black infinite void with only the plant and soil being present.

It's grown. Each session there's more soil around it. The stem has expanded and now looks like a proper trunk and branches are starting to extend.

It appears healthy, I mean it's growing, but the bark and vines have scorch marks on them and the leaves are a mixture of green, brown, and black.

Nonetheless it still reacts to when I visit, I no longer have to touch it in order to get a reaction. It's about the same size as me now so I can stand while I narrate to it, it sways as if in a breeze when it hears my mind voice so I know I'm on the right track

[Guest Riy]

November 2013

 

And that brings us to where I am now.

I am having more frequent sessions now, in no small part due to my excitement over the progress being made. In only a few days it's form has grown from a sapling into a full blown tree.

I have no idea where the roots are going, I can see them through the soil but there is no substance to the void I see it in, there's nothing below the "floor" but nonetheless it's gripped into it.

It's trunk is black or a deep brown and it twists, it doesn't grow in a straight line but rather a curve or spiral, the branches are almost like brambles, but thick and strong.

 

Every surface has gouges and scorch marks but there's plenty of new leaves and vines twisting over it. It's healthy.

 

Experimenting now. It's large enough to climb. Thankfully it seems content enough to even help me in the process, dropping vines to reach for my arms and moving branches so I can step up them.

 

My narratives to it are starting to be exhausted.

I've basically told it my life's story over the course of these sessions. It makes no sound, but that's okay, I never expect anything of it and it makes no motions telling me it wants anything.

 

My initial skepticism over tulpas has disappeared. While outside my thought-place I find myself thinking over my experiences with this so far.

I'm normally not an upbeat person. I'm introverted and withdrawn. I'm not good at talking with people and I have difficulty expressing myself.

 

But this makes me feel, if not happy, then content.

 

More updates to follow

[Guest Riy]

In order to help get a general idea of the size and shape so far, as well as proportions.

 

I have tried my hand at drawing.

 

I suck at drawing.

[Guest Riy]

2013/11/06

(I've learned today that I've been exclusively actively forcing since I started working with this tulpa. Starting today I will be transitioning to a more passive-forcing.)

 

It grabbed me the moment I entered the thought-space. It's been doing that lately, never roughly though. It's just a swooping smooth motion where it wraps vines around an arm and a branch around my waist. It placed me on a branch halfway up.

 

I made to lean against the trunk to narrate, there were markings in the bark.

 

Zala

 

I have no idea how it got there. I didn't actively carve it. But there it was, slightly slanted and staring me in the face.

After running my fingers over it, the letters appear to delve very deep, possibly to it's center.

I enter the thought-space only with what I had on me at the time, and I never carry a knife. So it either carved it itself, or it split it's trunk to make the word.

 

Google didn't know what to make of it. I had to actually go to a second page of the search to find an old baby-name website that said it's derivative of "Slovene" (whatever language that is, I've never heard of it).

 

It means "Beautiful".

 

I joked that at least it wasn't "Treebeard", then I realized it had no knowledge of what I was referencing, which led to me watching LoTR and passively-forcing.

 

I'm not sure where it's face is, or how it "knows" that I'm there with it. Though now I suppose I should stop calling it "It" since it just made a word using it's own skin.

Zala

An interesting word. I like it. There's a bit of an ironic plucking there I think. I didn't know trees could have a sense of humor. I didn't know that I had a sense of humor like that.

[Coshledak]

What a lovely name! And a beautiful way to come about it. I haven't read much about plant-type tulpa before (sorry, that makes Zala sound like a pokemon), this is the first I've heard of it. But it's nice that Zala's being so...encouraging. Adi, before he shifted, used to hold my hand when I got into our Mindscape. I think he knew it made it easier for me to hold him even if I haven't worked on imposing him into real space. In the Mindscape it just feels better.

 

I'm really curious to read more about your development, and good luck with the passive forcing! I try to do it now and then, but it's challenging.