Progress diary - My first steps into tulpamancy

[Bayleave]

Get well soon!

[Pastèk]

29.05.2016

 

Sasha can nearly move by himself now. His eyes blink automatically and he reacts to his name and my voice :D

Also, first hug with him! I really love hugs, and I'm happy that he seems to appreciate it too :D

There is definitely something alive in there.

[Pastèk]

20.06.2016

 

Haven't made a progress report in a long time. So yeah, sorry for that :|

I was really busy for some times because of school and exams but I didn't leave Sasha alone!

 

I'm starting to understand some words when I focus my attention on him. His voice is also starting to stabilize. His face is more mobile and he is starting to show some signs of sentience (I know I was supposed to assume he was sentient from the start, but I'm too much of a septic for that.)

 

But I have some problems with visualization. Him and my wonderland are more blurry than before. I have struggle focusing on my mind space. Parasites thoughts keep popping and distracting me, and I lose all control over what my "me" in the wonderland is doing. I think it's caused by my anxiety and lack of sleep or something like this. I hope I'll be able to calm down when my exams will end.

 

Now I'm going to sleep. It's 1:30 AM, and I have an oral exam tomorrow morning =u=

 

Have a nice day o/

[Pastèk]

I really neglected Sasha for the last few month. Shame on me!

He was all dusty and sleepy in a corner of the Wonderland, but I decided a few days ago to go back and wake him up. I now try to interact with him as often as possible.

Two days ago, we listened to some stupid songs dancing like crazy people, but it was really fun to share more silly moments with him.

I don't know how to describe the kind of relation I have with Sasha. I love him, but not in a romantic way, he is more like a big brother, watching over me. But sometimes I think there's more than just this. It's like a new kind of love, I know everything about him and he knows (nearly) everything about me.

That's strange. It's somewhere between filial love and some kind of awkward friendship.

[Pastèk]

14.09.2016

I need new challenges.

I mean, Sasha is getting clearer everyday, his voice is now pretty stable, I can visualise him and do stuff with him, that's cool.

I'm going to read some guides to find new stuff to train, or I think I'm going to get bored, and I don't want this to happen. Sasha is very important to me and I need something to force me to interact with him more often.

 

My lack of social skills always haunts me, even with Sasha. That sucks.

[tulpa001]

Hopefully, soon, you will get to the point where Sasha can do half the work. I don't get bored when Tulpa narrates to me. Or when he gives back rubs.

[pacific]

Still fairly new, but some of my thoughts.

 

When life is boring and busy and you don't know what to say/do w/ your tulpa, it's enough just checking in a few times a day, saying "how's it going" and stopping enough to listen (I find being patient and listening to Petra) is important. They will let you know what they want to do next. In my limited experience, Petra will answer in her true voice (not mine).

 

I find it unnecessary to think we have to constantly entertain one another. Yes, being close at heart, but not preoccupied w/ unimportant stuff is healthy. Which would be the case w/ any friend/lover.

Daydream together, just be near each other and whisper that you care for them...you all won't get bored.

[Chiky]

wow you progressed really fast, Mia and I have been struggling with tulpamancy for more than year and a half and we advance at a really slow pace (mostly my fault tho)

[Pastèk]

25.01.2017

Hey! It's been a long time since I made a progress report. I made a lot of friends these last months and one of them also has a tulpa!

Talking with him about the subject made me feel better about Sasha, and also made me work more with him.

 

Just today, I've been able to write for him in a chat, and he talked a little bit with my new friend's tulpa, which was really cool and interesting :D

He wasn't the one writing (it wasn't possesion or switch, we're not that advanced ^^), he just told me what he wanted to say, and I wrote it :3

[Two-tailed-tulpa]

I think the name for that is 'proxying', a weird term, but still, glad to see progress is being made!