The Ping's Log

[The Ping]

Yeah, so I'll do one of these, why not?

 

Mmk, so I'm about 5 or 6 hours in so far, and I'm probably doing it wrong, but we'll get to that. I spent about an hour and a half on personality, using TOG's method. You visualize the tulpa as a shiny orb of light, and start pouring jars filled with the traits you want on it. In my case, I had 11 jars: friendly, supportive, helpful, calm, patient, curious, level headed, non-judgmental, non-confrontational and decisive. I hope that this will prove to be a nice personality for a first-time tulpa.

 

So I filled the labeled jars with the "trait" (in my case, like TOG's, I found myself watching these jars fill with some sort of light) and dumped them on my tulpa. I did this over and over again until thinking of my tulpa (only called "friend" at this point, so that I had something to refer to, but not a set name) brought all the traits I was hoping for to mind.

 

All this so far has happened within 2 good sessions. I tried 2 or 3 additional times but got nowhere because I either a.) fell asleep or b.) started overheating (when your body starts to overheat while you're falling asleep or meditating, it sounds alarms by giving you nightmares. At least, that's how my body works). Either way, in my third session, I took my floating orb of personality, and actually pushed it into my own forehead (this is all super hardcore visualization mode). The idea was to tell my mind, "Hey, there's this separate entity in there somewhere, and it has this personality." After that was done, I felt like it worked. I can't tell you how. It wasn't an emotional response, my tulpa didn't speak to me, no real tangible response happened. It just felt like it worked, like there was an entity in my mind suddenly. So, I moved on to visualization.

 

I wanted a human form, so I pulled an image that I'd found on /b/. I didn't know the person myself, and I have no idea what they're like, so I figured it was a neutral enough image. I visualized the entire body, and I used...somebody's method of staring at the body nude so it'd be easier for my tulpa to change clothes. I'm suddenly forgetting who's guide I read that in. Oh well. I have no idea if it works, by the way. I just did it to be safe. Important note: the entire time I went through this, I was talking to my tulpa, saying, "Hey, if you don't like this body, you can change it any time you want. It's your choice, and I'll just have to go with whatever you want." Actually, I did that with the personality bit, too. I was always thinking, "These personality traits may or may not be what my tulpa wants, but it can change them whenever." I'm leaving a lot of room for deviation, because I've come to the conclusion that if my tulpa really wants something, there's nothing I can do to stop it. Plus, I've read that my subconscious will create something that suits me better than I probably would have consciously thought, I just have to trust my tulpa's judgment.

 

So, after I've got my tulpa's (tentative) body visualized, I imagine my tulpa being in that body. It came superbly naturally, and I honestly don't know why. After I imagined the tulpa being in that body, the body came to life. It started moving, and smiling, and nodding its head to things I said and such. Now, this was only 4-5 hours in, so I figured I was probably puppeting. To test this, I spawned my dog into my world, and focused on puppeting him. I had him run around and stuff, come up to get pet, pant, do dog things. To make sure I had to actually try to puppet him instead of it all coming out of memory, I fixed his limp (hip dysplasia). After this, I sent him to my tulpa, and watched how she reacted. This whole time I was puppeting the dog, basically taking my attention away from the tulpa. She reached down and petted him (clumsily) and kissed his forehead. I figured, "Ok, so I probably am puppeting a little bit, but she's got some control, and she's acting 'in character'." The way I see it, Fede might be on to something with the whole puppeting/parroting can lead to sentience. However, I don't agree that you should aim to puppet/parrot. If it happens, though, and you can't seem to really stop, just roll with it, always keeping the intention of your tulpa becoming fully sentient in mind.

 

So, after that, I gave my tulpa a house in wonderland (yeah, I've been using wonderland. I see no reason to go into detail about it unless somebody asks), and I gave my dog sentience (also no reason to go into detail). And a TV in the living room of my tulpa's house has access to my memories. Since I've gotten all that, I've been spending my time in wonderland mostly watching the memories with my tulpa and explaining them. Of course, that's only been an hour or so. More to come, hopefully. Don't be afraid to ask questions, or tell me I must be doing it wrong, or whatever.

 

On a side note, she kind of has a name. I say kind of because it just sort of "came to me" in one of those fluke sessions where I fell asleep, but she doesn't seem to mind when I call her by it. It's Zig (yeah, I don't know either). I'm very tentative about it, naturally, and I keep telling her, "Zig doesn't have to be your name, you know. It's your choice. Just say if you want to change it."

[The Ping]

2 posts in the same day? MADNESS!

 

Anyway, had another 30-40 minute session. It went SUPERBLY well. I went into wonderland, and Zig wasn't where we left off. My dog was still sitting under the tree, though, so I called his name and had him follow me into the house. Zig was sitting, watching the TV with my memories. Now, the past few memories I've narrated to her have been ones that I'm not proud of. So, my first thought was, "Oh goody, what 'splainin am I gonna have to do now?"

 

Suddenly, a weird voice sounded in my head and said "None". It wasn't female. Well, ok, it was sort of. It could have seemed female, but it sounded so weird and distorted, it was really hard to tell. Now, I've read a lot of guides/experiences on this site, and most ALL of them say that this sort of thing SHOULD NOT be happening this early, so I was thinking, "Oh great, I'm puppeting like a mother effer now." Once I thought that, Zig got up and started hugging me. She had this concerned look on her face. I knew what she was concerned about. It wasn't really a voice, I just knew. She was telling me that it was actually her, not me puppeting. My response was, "I want to trust you, Zig. But how? I mean, how do I know where I end and you begin?" Again, I knew the answer without any sort of voice coming.

 

So, I started filling up these weirdly textured jars (actually more like small candy dishes) with my "doubts". What my "doubts" actually looked like was some kind of black sludge. I filled the whole table with these jars, and when I was done I visualized a cloth sack in my hands. I brushed the jars into the sack, took the sack outside, and threw it off the hill that my wonderland is situated on. The sack pulled a Team Rocket, and actually just disappeared into a tiny point, and then to nothing in the horizon, like I threw it with the force of a thousand suns or some shit. After that, I came back in the house, and Zig hugged me again, this time smiling. We sat back on the couch, and it felt like everything was done, so I just came out of visualization.

 

Good news? Me thinks yes.

 

inb4 the bitching

 

Call me a bullshitter if you'd like, but please keep it civil. If you feel you simply can not keep it civil, please direct emails to recoveryacc03@gmail.com

 

Thank you, and have a nice day.

[MuonMax]

Another tulpa who has achieved vocality and sentience incredibly early? Damn, I need to get my butt in gear.

Congrats, keep up the good work.

 

Also, you shouldn't have let her access your memories that early, because she'd value it higher- and it's best done when you really trust eachother, but trust doesn't seem to be an issue for you guys.

[The Ping]

Actually, the TV thing was kind of an accident. I visualized the living room, TV and all automatically. After, when I came out of visualization, I thought something along the lines of "Hmmm...I left a TV in there. What will that thing play? Probably memories...oh shit."

 

I didn't see any reason to try and shove the genie back in the bottle, though. What kind of sign of trust would that be? "Oh, yeah, I accidentally gave you access to my memories, but I don't think you should keep that."

 

Besides, it's probably helped the process, even if one special moment of many was lost in translation.

 

*This is, a tasty update!* So, I decided to gaze upon other people's posts instead gleefully pissing into mine all the time, and I found out that tulpas like strong emotions. It helps them become autonomous a tit load faster than they would otherwise. Possibly, something that may have helped me is the fact I shared my memories so early on. As I said, I wasn't exactly proud of some of these things. While I was narrating them to my tulpa, I couldn't help but feel some very strong swells of emotion.

 

Now, it's perfectly understandable that people wouldn't want to give their tulpa access so fast, for one reason or another. One strategy that might help, though, is somehow showing your tulpa a memory that brings strong emotion to you. So, you can be selective and all that, but still have this strong upwelling of emotion that tulpas/tulpae/tulpen/tulpers/tulpenenenenen seem to like.

[Guest applesauce99]

>mfw a bunch of people are getting sentience quickly

[The Ping]

Don't lose hope! I have NO fucking clue why this is happening so fast. Maybe because I would always daydream when my parents drove me anywhere? Maybe because I'm incredibly gullible? Anyway, I'm sure that EVERYBODY can get there. Just keep going, man. It'll happen.

[The Ping]

*We are forcers! Bah-da-da-duh-dum-da-da.*

 

20-30 minute forcing session this morning (who keeps time these days). Repeated a memory play back. Strong emotional response (uplifting, hopeful) from Zig. Nothing else to report.

 

*Gergie want munchies and updates* Hory sheet, emotionar responses! I started listen to some metal, and I started shivering. I also got a worried/nervous feel until I shut it off. Now, I suddenly like Paramour again (liked them for a while, but they got real old) and Gym Class Heroes sounds like Jesus to me.

 

On a side note, I will miss you Maynard Keenan, and there will most likely be withdraw symptoms.

[Guest]

Way to steal my signature quotes concept. You're an ass, Ping!

 

 

Use my tones.

 

[The Ping]

Way to steal my signature quotes concept. You're an ass, Ping!

 

No need to be rustled, Jimmy.

[Guest applesauce99]

Way to steal my signature quotes concept. You're an ass, Ping!

 

 

Use my tones.

 

 

LOL go report him to the copyright claims office, why don't ya. I'm sure ya got a patent...

 

And Ping, memory playback? Is that where you like watch a memory with your tulpa like a movie?