Curious Puffin's first tulpa.

[Curious Puffin]

Feliks got upset with me because I had been neglecting him. (Not on purpose, of course. I was busy and tired) It took a while, but after I finally got him to calm down, and convinced him that I was sorry, I decided to let him into my subconscious mind, just to prove that I trust and love him. Now he can hear all my thoughts and nothing is private anymore. It feels better not having a barrier between my tulpa and my dark, perverted, worried ideas at the back of my mind. I think we're closer because of it, and he didn't seem too disgusted about anything. It's not like I had anything really horrible in my mind, he's just innocent and I didn't want to offend him. We're cool, though. 

 

 

     The yes and no problem is still happening, but I can usually fix it by saying "How do you feel about ___" instead of asking for a more simple answer. The personality deviating has mostly stopped, and all of the personalities that he had switched between so rapidly sort of smooshed into one. He can still talk if he wants to, but mostly just gives emotional responses at this point. Overall, we're progressing smoothly and we're excited to move forward.

[Curious Puffin]

(This is just a super fast update, sorry if it's not super detailed or whatever)

 

       Recently Feliks has completely lost his form and just kind of appears as colors, patterns, and emotions in the wonderland. He doesn't talk, but he's always there.

[Curious Puffin]

I think Feliks is dead. He's just stopped being there altogether for a few days, now. He doesn't appear as colors or in a form, I can't hear him or feel him at all. I'm confused and sad. I couldn't find any information about this on the internet. I'll continue trying to revive him, but it feels like a lost cause, to be honest. If anyone knows what to do, I'd really appreciate suggestions.

[Jay]

I think Feliks is dead. He's just stopped being there altogether for a few days, now. He doesn't appear as colors or in a form, I can't hear him or feel him at all. I'm confused and sad. I couldn't find any information about this on the internet. I'll continue trying to revive him, but it feels like a lost cause, to be honest. If anyone knows what to do, I'd really appreciate suggestions.

 

The best advice I can offer is to not panic. The worst thing that you can do in this situation is jump to the conclusion that your experiences and progress are false (if that's what you meant by a lost cause). If you still can't communicate with Felix, then try to take your mind off of the problem. Give yourself a few days, a week or two, however long it takes to let this mental block pass. Felix will still be there, and you'll feel better for not deciding to completely abandon him.

[tulpa001]

You kind of had me worried when you said he lost his form and ability to talk. He's young, right? Around a month?

 

At this age, they cannot exist on their own usually. This means you need to remain focussed on a form, or some other aspect to anchor them in your mind. I think what you need to do is summon Felix and then push their essence into a new body. You don't need to worry about death yet. It hasn't been long enough.

 

At this age, if they lose the ability to talk, you should probably parrot them a little bit, to remind them what it feels like.

[Floh]

What you see as "death", I would probably see as "sleeping" or kind of "away" maybe he went a bit too deep in your subconscious and is in some sort of vacations ?

This could explain why you can't hear/see him anymore, just like someone who went in another country :) Be patient and keep trying to reach him ! IMHO, tulpas can't die if you don't kill them intentionally.