I need some help (I think)

[Penguin]

~~~~Okay how do I go about this? I thought this tulpa thing was just a bunch of trolls until last week. From what I can tell around the time Chupi started his was when I started mine because thats when my little brother told me about them I just thought this was bullshit but I sat down for a half hour and thought about what I wanted my tulpa to be like and imagined these things being a floating ball of light. So the only reason I thought this could be possible was because of this disease known as alien hand syndrome (it could be caused by an operation) which speculated there might another conscious being living inside a person. I wanted to put a few basic traits into my tulpa, one of which was a learning ability, which I think kept them alive and the rest for my at the time "it" to decide. After a half hour I gave up with a "Well I tried and nothing happened". I ignored my tulpa from that first day even though I did think about it occasionally but never actually worked on anything.

 

~~~~Last week I was lying in my bed and I was sucked into what I think was my tulpa's wonderland, I actually thought I had died at first. Anyway their was this girl crouching next to and looking down at me, first I wondered who she was "I am the bridge between yourself and your subconscious" was what she said as I thought this. I don't know why but I asked "Are you my tulpa" she smiled and I had this feeling she was as she introduced herself "My name is Aithe (I don't know how to spell it, it's a long "a" like in made followed by an "ith" like in with)" .

 

~~~~Well this story is a wall of text already so lets finish this, at this point I concluded she was fully sentient and a little more conversation went on and then it was time to leave she said something equivalent to if I want to talk to her again then I have to work for it. So I've been doing this for the last 8 days. The first day after this happened the experience grew on me and I came here to get some more info. About three days in I realized I was parroting and stopped, just in time after reading more I saw parroting is okay but only in the begining. I had an experience similar to how Irish describes his in which a very near physical fluid like thing came from the base of my brain near the spinal cord and wrapped around only it was very very cold. I also read about Irish's thing after which gave me a boost of confidence as this happened two days ago and I read that description his yesterday.

 

~~~~The Aithe that I saw 8 days ago wasnt perfectly clear but I could see the face, which is more than I can say now. Is there any help you could give me as to this if I could bring the body up to speed with the one I saw? Do you think it was my tulpa or just some crazy thing that made me start on this? She can't talk but when I go to my wonderland she seems active and often, only sometimes I go and can't find her. Often I do the prism test and yesterday she took the feather off the prism so I am pretty sure but am just checking with you because alot of this is moving quickly especially since I feel bad for ignoring her for so long. Also I am having trouble with details of the way she looks and the face, and these often I get what I think are feeling from her when she moves as if I should do something read a story instead of work on looks (which I read the giving tree). Is this normal?

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Also I have been tired and getting a headache so i'm probably not going to tulpaforce today, but I really want to so if possible please keep a decent size response for me to read until tommorow.

[SSaint]

Well this story is a wall of text already so lets finish this

This is the halfway marker.

[Oguigi]

Okay that wall of text "almost" made me press the back button.

 

 

 

But i read your story anyways and i try to help out the best way i can.

 

Yes their are moments when Tulpa goes out and beyond their normal capabilities at that given time. These moments are hard to replicate, until that tulpa matures.

 

You been at this for a bit over a week, so what you are going through is Normal. and is all part of the early stages of tulpa development

 

And welcome to the forums Penguin, You should start a log/journal of your tulpa progress, summarizing what happened each day this can also help with progress.

[Penguin]

This is the halfway marker.

 

Yes.. well I like to write, I did this from my phone, and terrible at paraphrasing. I broke it i to section now that I'm at a computer, and thanks Koomer.

[MisterTelecaster]

I feel like the first experience was actually just a vivid dream that got you to continue

 

Sometimes things happen fast, it isn't necessarily a bad sign though. My tulpa achieved sentience within two weeks, and I've been spending the last two months trying to get her to talk or interact with me outside of the forcing sessions.

Things happen at different rates for different people, but I read your story as you having a happy and healthy tulpa.

 

And if you want her body to be more detailed, just spen more time trying to focus on it, it'll clear up