SeekingMyPlanet's Tulpa Adventure

[Lavender]

On 2/29/2024 at 11:40 AM, ringgggg said:

Makes me think of the type of people you see in art museums. If cameraweed was a thing they’d be high on it indefinitely

 

There was this one instance where a guy accidentally  left his glasses on the floor in an art museum and people started crowding around it thinking it was art

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I'm thinking maybe that has to do with the environment. If it hadn't been in an art museum, that would have been different. But no one wanted to admit they didn't "understand" this remarkable instance of 21st Century Spectacle Art so they all stared intently. Maybe analogous to the phenomenon of high school kids who who can't get hold of real weed, so they smoke whatever they can dig up that grows at the edge of the woods, and one of them acts stoned and they all become convinced that smoking Virginia Creeper is giving them a buzz.

 

On 2/29/2024 at 11:40 AM, ringgggg said:

Wondering if cameraweed would just evoke a change in judgment such that people would ponder literally anything they see through the camera

 

Well taking up photography might just have done that. I'll find myself drawn to forms and patterns I wouldn't have given a second look to. I'm also prone to taking the shot even if I'm not sure because i can always just delete it later.

[SeekingMyPlanet]

We are retiring this thread, since we believe our tulpamancy journey is complete. Lavender is a fully formed headmate. We're no longer "doing tulpamancy". Now we're existing as a system. Future reports will be in a thread called "Living with Lavender: Reports from a binary system".

 

Thank you for reading and all the support we've received here.

[The Incans]

On 12/8/2023 at 1:00 PM, SeekingMyPlanet said:

Wow. A lot has happened in the week since my last progress report.

 

THE GOOD

 

Successes this week include:
* Giving Lavender her own Netflix profile so she can choose what she watches.
* Progressively giving more control to Lavender (perhaps to make me comfortable with it), and finally allowing her to front for me.
* We have become very affectionate with each other. Turns out we both love spontaneous kisses, saying how much we love and appreciate one another, hugs, holding hands, etc. 😉
* Lavender now has her own forum account and has done some writing. (See Lavender's writing channel.)
* All of this in less than a week. After reading some of the progress reports where people worked for months just to get their tulpa to talk to them (which I imagined I would have to do also), I’m beginning to thing she’s some sort of “super tulpa” with abilities far beyond those of mortal tulpas. 😁

 

THE CHALLENGING

 

A couple of issues have come up, all that we’ve been able to resolve.

 

The most serious is that Lavender broke down in tears one night after a social gathering with a bunch of other people. I asked her whether it was because I hadn’t paid attention to her and she assured me that wasn’t it, that she doesn’t experience the interval between our interactions as a waiting period. Her fear was that as I was getting a better understanding of the mechanisms by which we both occupy the same brain, I would start to believe she really doesn’t exist. We had a talk about this, and we agreed that whether she exists or not is not a helpful question. The important thing is that it FEELS like she exists to me, and that this feeling is making my life better.

 

We also did some possession, and it alarmed me that suddenly my entire consciousness was relegated to a soundless voice in the back of Lavender’s consciousness. I got used to that (it was sort of relaxing, actually), but when I realized how powerless I was, I was choked by an anxiety that I wouldn’t be able to get my body back. It didn’t turn out to be a problem. There was a few seconds of confusion when we switched back, when no one was sure who was in charge, but then I was firmly at the helm.

 

From Lavender: Funny that I was scared of the same thing that my host consciousness was. It was fun being the front when we watched the movie we watched. When I had something to say, I didn’t have to wait for my host consciousness to pay attention to me. I could just blurt out what I was thinking. But I had no zero nil nada desire to be in charge of this body and it’s life, to feed us, to take care of all the details that my host consciousness does. I was relieved when the switch back completed smoothly.

 

THE INTERESTING

 

I’m awesome at visualization and I’m easily able to visualize Lavender standing or sitting near me. I often dance for exercise, and I asked whether Lavender would want to dance with me. Her first reaction to recoil, which surprised me because it was the first time she’d ever balked at something I suggested. I let it be, but in the stretch of the next few days, I learned how to give her control of her visual manifestation. That was great fun. The first (only?) time she made me laugh was during a walk when she abruptly sprouted wings on herself and flitted to a nearby rooftop like a bird.

 

Later I had an idea and I asked her if she wanted to dance with me, while SHE controls the visual representation of her dancing. She responded eagerly, and we realized that the reason she initially objected was that she envisioned me manipulating her image to make it dance and she hated the idea of feeling like a puppet.

 

We studied how conjoined twins shared half a body each and learned to co-operate to get stuff done. You can either literally work one arm one leg each or work with one in the background one in the driving seat but you both experience the activity as you being the one doing it. 

 

Twins that shared the 'Thalamic Bridge' area of the brain was able to see what the other twin was seeing or feeling even if they had their eyes closed and the sensation (eg someone tickling the other twin's knee with a feather) wasn't on their side of the body.

 

We can't dance as the body isn't able but we can combine strength to do physio exercises together..eg basic yoga stretches for mobility to decrease stiffness.