Soldier's Tulpa Sandbox

[TehEpicMan]

well thankypu for ypur kind words and this has inspired me to create my own tulpa named Kate!

 

and i must get polygon love 2 because i suck at freehand drawing.

[Soldier_of_Faith]

well thankypu for ypur kind words and this has inspired me to create my own tulpa named Kate!

 

and i must get polygon love 2 because i suck at freehand drawing.

 

You're very welcome.

 

You might want to look into a game called 3D Custom Girl as well as Polygon Love 2. Be careful though, they are both technically Erotic video games, so they're definitely not something to try modeling out your Tulpa when around the family. Thankfully like I said before, there are clean versions where you can only model and change the clothes of the character. If you need more info, Google is your best friend.

[TehEpicMan]

well thankyou for everything again! i will look ibto these programs you have shown me. and its cool they have clean versions because my family is almost always around.

[Soldier_of_Faith]

I have not posted in a long while, but that does not mean that I have not been working diligently. Let's see here, where to start?

 

-Lisette now has 1 personality, that incorporates Dere-,Tsun-, Kuu- and a few other personality types depending on the situation, so that's very good and has been helpful in our creation process over the past few months.

 

-I've gotten to the point where I can easily imagine her walking besides me or behind me in public, as well as imagine her in class with me as well. When I close my eyes though, instead of just imagining her with me or faintly feeling her presence, I can see her with about 70% completion. Face, expressions, hair, clothes, basic movements, movement of hair/clothes, etc. can be seen pretty well but at times are blurry.

 

-For movements and expressions, I had started out by teaching her how to do those things by puppeting her, but now she's learned to do basic actions by herself such as walking or showing different moods on her face.

 

-She's made a small wardrobe for herself consisting of some general clothes, school clothes, accessories, and bed/night time clothes. They vary from each other, but most are modest and appropriate (Except for some of her night time and accessories which are meant for more... special occasions).

 

-Depending on the situation, she can send some signals to me via emotion or feeling. She prefers feeling really, her most common method is making an area of my body itch or feel warmer to the touch (Mostly my hands or back)

 

-Our wonderland is still somewhat lacking in creativity and is small, but it works. Really we only use it when we sleep at night, but we have a large, Victorian-era master bedroom that would be found in a mansion. We've got a large king sized bed dressed with the finest sheets and softest pillows that we can imagine. Works pretty well when we try to fall asleep

 

-Perhaps most important of all is that we're able to communicate freely with one another. She can now speak to me using her mind voice, although technically it isn't really auditory. The best way to describe it, is that she speaks to me in a way that I don't hear or register a voice, but it's more like words being written into my mind that I understand clearly. I was a bit skeptical if it really was her or just me parroting, but I've accepted it as her. I believe that it cannot be me, due to how quick the responses are, not letting me have enough time to generate premade responses. Of course she's somewhat direct and doesn't start many conversations without me initializing them, but I beleive with a little bit of work we can get her a mind voice/voice and improve her vocabulary/speech patterns.

 

-Lately she's taken to calling me "Aniki" (Older Brother in Japanese), since we've been watching the first season of OreImo together. Of course she's not saying it in her own voice yet, but it still feels kinda good and special as well.

 

-I've already started to get ideas in my head for a 2nd tulpa, but I'm not going to pursue them too far. I asked Lisette and she wouldn't mind having a sister or at least a very good friend, but wants to bond with me for a while longer before I consider making a second one. Of course I wouldn't refuse a request like that. If anything she'd be a slightly older and mature version of Kuroneko (OreImo) and Danlian (Dantalian no Shoka). After all, I've got a huge soft spot for aristocratic/princess-type girls dressed in lolita style clothing.

 

That seems to be it for now. Feedback and comments are encouraged and appreciated as usual.

[Soldier_of_Faith]

3/26/2013 Update

 

Lisette accompanies me to school everyday and sits behind or in front of me most of the time in class (Thankfully those seats are usually vacant). In the mornings she usually gets herself ready and dressed by the time I finish breakfast and put on my own clothes. At school though, she isn't too talkative, but seems to pay attention to the lessons more than I do and is more involved. She reads and writes along with the rest of the class which is surprisingly cool. She also changes for gym as well and has her own uniform which is kinda cute, but I'm more impressed by her ability to create and wear various outfits. Afternoons we go home together and relax, but if I have work or am going out somewhere, she usually goes to track practice and we meet back up later at home.

 

Speaking of work, she understands that it's important and that I need to work in order to earn money, but she still doesn't like it because it cuts into the little time that we have during the day to interact with each other besides showers, going to bed, or small conversations here or there. A lot of time I'll receive some insulting or angry text messages from her on my mind phone while I'm at work. It's kinda funny how well she can do that.

 

Now I wouldn't call her a definite 100% tsundere, but it's definitely there. She tends to switch around her personality as well as her looks on occasion, more so her personality more than anything else. They often are linked to one another as well. Her Tsundere or normal moods usually make her hair a longer, brown-ish color with slight curls or even straight, while her more "feely" moods to be Hime-cut blonde. In all, I'd call it: Tsun 30% of the time at most, while the rest are just mixes.

 

Regarding the whole "Aniki" thing, I think it's just a stage as of now, but I have no problem if she wants to continue with it. I even thing it's just used as an affectionate/familiar term since we share similar qualities and even looks (to an extent), which leads us to feel a semi brother-sister bond to each other. Of course Lisette is very mature (most of the time) and is only supposed to be a year younger than me if not less, so using Aniki feels a lot better than Onii-chan or something similar to that. She also doesn't use it in an endearing way really, it's more of a formal way of saying "bro" (not "dude-bro" of course but like "big bro") which makes it feel good because it's not forced affection or anything, it's just a title with hidden feelings. Honestly though, I attribute part of it to OreImo since we ran through it, are reading the Light novels together now, and are getting ready for season 2 (GET HYPED).

 

I guess that's it for now then, we both did get phone upgrades over this weekend though, so we've been playing around with them and trying to personalize them if we can. Besides that though, life continues as normal.

[Soldier_of_Faith]

4/1/13

 

Finally off of work after 3 long days and I know that someone else is even happier about that than me. Lisette's also happy that it's starting to warm up outside as well, spring should be a fun time for the both of us.

 

Nothing too big to report as of now, but I noticed (and adore) how she shares my sense of cynicism. I mean, neither of us are mean spirited people, but everyone has one person or group of people that you secretly dislike. So, when we're bored in class we sometimes comment about my friends (In a good and praiseworthy way of course) and make remarks at people who we're not so found of. It makes for some good conversation and gets he in a happy mood which then makes me happy. She's a bit of a... I don't want to say trouble maker, but a bit of a tease as well as wanting things her way at times, not to mention headstrong in a narcissistic way. It's fine though since I don't mind, if anything it makes her even cuter and unique in my eyes.

[Soldier_of_Faith]

4/2/13

 

Narrating or finding time to narrate during the day can be hard since I'm busy, but Lisette and I worked together on some work I had today for Biology. I'd read a line or passage several times out loud, to which she would then repeat for me as I wrote in order to get everything done faster. It worked pretty well, and she remembered everything I said while also being quick. Now all we need to do is work on her actual voice, so that she can use that rather than her mind voice.

[Soldier_of_Faith]

4/7/12

 

Just got back for work and for the first time Lisette decided to accompany me rather than stay in wonderland or do whatever it is when she's not with me. She had arrived with a sundress, but became bored at a certain point and copied what I was wearing (Jeans, sneakers, long sleeve V-neck, and a company t-shirt over that). She looked pretty darn good with my "uniform" on, especially when the colors seemed to really bring out the shine in her blonde hair (she switched her hair color for a change). She "worked" with me, but all she really did was sit on the counter, swinging her legs and watched people come and go from the store. She would comment on a few people on occasion or try to start a conversation, but it was hard when the store would get busy. Now that we're home we get to relax, she's a bit tired but she'll be fine.

 

An interesting thing I've noticed however, she definitely has some complex and developed emotions besides just feeling lonely, happy, or sad. Lately she's been quite the cynical person like me, which again I adore about her especially when he gets feisty (when a girl so small and fragile looking like her gets so flustered and hot-headed it's nothing but cute). When we see someone that neither of us like (thankfully she likes my friends and family), she voices her opinion openly, which is good to get of my frustrations without the truth leaking out. Another emotion she's been showing slightly is jealousy, but only in small bouts. She doesn't seem to like it when I speak to certain girls, unless she deems them "worthy" so to speak. It doesn't effect her negatively however, she just becomes defensive and suspicious.

 

Besides these two events, everything seems to be normal. Lisette did however somewhat approve of making a 2nd tulpa, more than likely a sister to her as well, but with some conditions. I'm sure we'll discuss it more when the time comes closer.

[Soldier_of_Faith]

4/9/2013

 

It's nice outside for the first time in a long while, the temperatures peaking at a little over 80 degrees with no humidity. Seeing how wonderful of a day it was, Lisette and I went out for a small stroll around the neighborhood. She's quite good at wearing clothes appropriate for the situation. Today she was wearing a white sundress with a blue sleeves and a pleated skirt, along with some summer sandals, small shoulder pocketbook, and a sun hat. She was quite happy that it was starting to really feel like Spring outside and really looked forward to experiencing warm weather for the first time. Her delicate and petite body was also a bit more pronounced in her dress, along with a more upbeat personality while we were out, which was great to see.

[Soldier_of_Faith]

4/13/13

 

No new developments really, but I'm taking the time to post about some concerns. I don't have any real problems with Tulpa creation, as most of it will just come together in due time, but rather it's problems with Tulpa nurturing. I'm not really neglecting Lisette of attention or abusing her in anyway, I just feel like I could do a lot more in order to help her develop easier.

 

When I read through progress reports of other people, I'm amazed by how much progress they make. And before anyone reminds me that comparing my progress to someone else's is bad; I know that. I'm not saying "My isn't my Tulpa like [Host name here]" or "Why can't I be that good?" I'm thinking more "Wow, look at what [Host name here] can do. I need to spend more time with my Tulpa so that we can build up to that". So after browsing around a little bit, I think what we're lacking is plain old love and affection.

 

Yes I love my Tulpa (In an undefined but meaningful way) and give her the attention she needs, but I feel like I'm lacking the affection aspect. It's not necessarily mechanical or empty love, but more like need based with some empathy thrown in. I've never been good with showing or receiving affection, but hopefully with some practice I'll be able to show it without trouble. Reading about how other hosts show affection by hugging, kissing, cuddling, etc. with their Tulpa makes me feel a little uncomfortable but I'll try to give it a shot.

 

On another point, I've also read about how some users have multiple tulpas, so I think it's about time to work on my second one very, very soon. I think that Lisette is stable enough to help me handle another Tulpa at this point and I think it'd be good for her to interact with someone besides me as well.

 

That's it for today then, but I'd definitely appreciate and be very thankful for any tips on how to make Lisette feel special.