SR's unnecessary insanity

[SilverRevlis]

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I was wondering, in what ways are you a sociopath?

 

I was grey goosed when I wrote this. tl;dr I act like more of an arrogant cocksucker than usual and try and make myself seem cool. I'm done being drunk online.

[glitchthe3rd]

By his reasoning, me being a self-proclaimed sociopath makes it true.

[SilverRevlis]

I guess I gotta do that update thing.

I haven't done too much forcing these past few days, due to some issue I am dealing with. Alice is already way to active to disappear on me now, and we still communicate throughout the day, but I really need some time to work. She also has taken to sparring with me when I go into one of my fits of depression inducing boredom, so that's fun. It's also a great way of testing sentience. I might put that into guides. Probably will be too lazy though. Also, she seems to like playing video games in wonderland. She got mad at me because she was playing at 8 a.m. and I wouldn't let her play so early.

I have also come up with several ideas for servitors that I need to implement once Alice is imposed. However, with the fact that I have family issues as well as the fact that I need to finish writing a song for my mothers christmas present, I am rather busy, so I don't think I'll be able to do much proper forcing until January.

Until the next time I care about updating,

SR

 

Now time for the mail bag ladies and gentlemen!

 

You are serious about all of these? Damn, in that case I'm a pretty hardcore sociopath too. I think putting labels like 'sociopath' on things are just a way to justify being a dickwad. :/

 

Pretty much.

And most people have sociopathic tendencies. I'm not a psychologist though, so don't take my word for it. I had to go to a shrink to find out.

By his reasoning, me being a self-proclaimed sociopath makes it true.

 

I'm not self proclaimed, I denied it for the longest time. It took me two years of therapy to admit it, and once I did that I was able to stop acting on those impulses. The human mind is easy to control. I admitted I was fucked up, then I decided to not be fucked up, and I got rid of the negative traits and used the rest to better myself. And you probably are. About 86%( I think ) of the population has sociopaths tendencies, to quote my shrink.

[waffles]

You seem to be openly flaunting your label of 'sociopath' as if it's something to be proud of. You come across as arrogant and clueless when describing yourself. You seem to think that others are going to be impressed by these claims, that having stolen a lot of stuff at a young age and shooting an autistic children will somehow raise you in the eyes of others. You'll probably deny half of this by saying that you acknowledge sociopathic tendencies as bad, and that you really aren't trying to flaunt it or your tendencies lead you to flaunt it, but really the 'bad' things about sociopathy are, in your eyes, good, and something to be secretly admired.

It begs the question of why you flaunt it when you claim not to care about the feelings of others. By your own words, you shouldn't care about what people on this forum think about you, and yet here you are, bragging about your criminal activities and so on. Could you answer this directly, or am I wrong somewhere else?

[SilverRevlis]

You seem to be openly flaunting your label of 'sociopath' as if it's something to be proud of. You come across as arrogant and clueless when describing yourself. You seem to think that others are going to be impressed by these claims, that having stolen a lot of stuff at a young age and shooting an autistic children will somehow raise you in the eyes of others. You'll probably deny half of this by saying that you acknowledge sociopathic tendencies as bad, and that you really aren't trying to flaunt it or your tendencies lead you to flaunt it, but really the 'bad' things about sociopathy are, in your eyes, good, and something to be secretly admired.

It begs the question of why you flaunt it when you claim not to care about the feelings of others. By your own words, you shouldn't care about what people on this forum think about you, and yet here you are, bragging about your criminal activities and so on. Could you answer this directly, or am I wrong somewhere else?

 

Arrogant, yes. Remarkably so. Clueless, not at all. I never thought once that people would be impressed by these claims. Also, I do see the bad things about it as good, but for different reasons. Mostly because my childhood was filled with my mother bringing shitty people into the lives of my brothers and I, people who were probably sociopathic as well, and I had to teach myself how to outsmart and manipulate whoever I could just to get through my life. So, I do see them as good, I see them as useful tools. I don't use most of them anymore since I started trying to get rid of the more destructive impulses, but I still have that little devil on my shoulder that tells me to do it. Also, I don't care about what the internet thinks, as for why I was bragging, I get even more cocky than usual when I'm drunk. That's why in the list I described myself in a way that makes it seem like I am proud of it, then in the next post I explain how I had admitted I was fucked up and was trying to not be fucked up. I was at one point proud of it, but you mature, you realize that just because you can do something, doesn't mean you should. Basically, I do think that sociopathic tendencies are good, if used correctly. Especially callousness, feeling nothing has helped me tremendously. While I'm not proud of anything I've done, I'm not ashamed either. I use the knowledge to my advantage, so as to not make a mistake twice.

[SilverRevlis]

So, first of the year. I forgot that happened. Anyways, so I have three tulpa now. Alice, Lillinette, and Pattricia. The reason I usually make girls is for two reasons, one being that if I have to spend hours upon hours of visualization on something, I feel as though it should at least be aesthetically pleasing. Two being that I have too many male friends. I'll go more into detail when I'm less tired, or when I've actually eaten something other than a handful of doritos and a tic tac.

[glitchthe3rd]

^ My reasons for making female tulpae in a nutshell.

[SilverRevlis]

So, fuck. That's a good start to a new entry, right?

Anyways, I'm rather ruffled right now. Rather ruffled, I think I just wrote a song. So, before I get into the tulpa stuff, quick personal update I suppose. I have no money for strings and picks, so that sucks all of the phallus. I'm going to be entering collage next year, so I have to study all of the math. That's not a joke. I'm buying workbooks for math grades 1-12 because I am shit at mathematics. Also, I'm finally learning how to drive. I wish that that could be a good thing, but the dmv is a fucking joke. Anyway, on to the mind people. I suppose I should tell the tale of how Lillinette and Patty came into play. It started off several years ago with me watching the soul eater and thinking that the gun girls were cool, so I made up characters similar to them in the respect that they could be guns and they each had one of those vagina things. I scarped the idea after a week. Fuck ADD. Anyways, once Alice became blatantly sentient, I started making 'quests' for us to do. Basically just shit to kill. I made a robot factory. That was fun. Anyway, I made two guns that I could shoot stuff with, and outta nowhere the names Lillinette and Patricia were inscribed on the barrel of the gun. So I rolled with it. Then I thought to myself, "Fuck it, I don't have enough voices in my head." so I gave them forms. Then shit just continued. Alice got jealous, then she wasn't. Then the twins became more sentient. Basically, Lillinette is the stereotypical rock'n'roll chick, whereas Patty is like this cute little book worm. Patty usual hangs out in a clearing in the forest nearby the Dark Room. Lillinette hangs out an a cliff. She has the same opinion of it I do; It's a good place for a smoke. Speaking off, I taught myself how to recreate the effects of nicotine on command. It's not as strong as my reds, but it works. Anyways, recently Alice kissed me. Now, I've seen these things start to happen before, but I put it off to parroting, because how would you feel if your dad made you for sex? Pretty shitty. So I never let stuff like that happen, but I told her if it's not parroting, she can tell me. Well, just a few nights ago, we were walking around the forest, and out of nowhere, she turns me towards her and kisses me. I could see a small strand of blue energy, which, to note, is the colour of her soul, connecting the two of us at the center of the chest. And last night I was playing music in the Dark Room and Lillinette comes in, so I sit down with her and use the record player I keep in there to play some old music for her to hear, and she falls asleep on me. This happens pretty often with girls around me. They use me like a damn bed. Anyways, that's it. I'm going to go back to not doing anything now.

 

Sod off

SR

[glitchthe3rd]

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[SilverRevlis]

Glitch, there shall be no dick giving until I can acquire both scented candles and market fresh strawberries. Possibly whipped cream, though I think a French tickler would be better that that, don't you? Fuck it, I'll just wait until I can buy one of those Trojan vibrator condoms. Pleasure and protection.