Confused over Vocality (and deviation)

[FlufflePuff]

Before you read this wall of text, please don't regard me as just another teen with a pony tulpa please.

 

I've been forming my Tulpa, Collie, for about 2 weeks. I think I am beginning to hear her, she is giving short, one-word responses and such. However, I do not feel that these responses come from someone else, it feels as if they are coming from my own mind. I am sure I'm not parroting, because I'm not thinking of the responses. Also, Collie has deviated very suddenly and very drastically. When she was non vocal, she was a blue pony with blue/white hair (basically Minuette/Colgate). However, when she started speaking to me, I cannot help but visualize her as Pinkie Pie now. Do you guys have any advice?

[Kraph]

So I assume you are no teen ? Because I'm going to test you as another guy with a pony Tulpa, which I fully respect, having myself a thing with ponies (but still no pony tulpa).

 

You feel like the voice comes from your mind, and that's absolutely normal because it does. Keep working and you will begin to «hallucinate» it. Practice makes perfect, as always.

 

About her physical form, you'll have top get over it, some tulpae just choose by herselves what they want to look like. You may discuss with her about this, but I highly advice not to force her to take her first appearance back.

 

Tl;dr keep up, I support you.

[FlufflePuff]

So I assume you are no teen ?

 

Actually, I am ^_^ but, I didn't want anyone getting annoyed. Well, I'm not sure if her voice is self-deceit or actually her voice.

[Lacquer]

Do you guys have any advice?

Don't make a pony tulpa.

Accept deviation that you don't think is just an intrusive thought (since you are describing it as constant, it shouldn't be this).

Know that first responses should feel alien, but may not in your case. Just keep going on as if they were, and keep striving for that alien feeling.

 

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Practice English.

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That is not a wall of text.

 

Wholeheartedly agree. To OP, learn that wall of texts are encouraged here, and that a wall of text is much larger than that.

 

lol.

 

Fuck.

[FlufflePuff]

Don't make a pony tulpa.

 

That's the exact response I didn't want. Her new form is still a pony, and I don't have a problem with her deviation at all, it's just that it happened so suddenly.

[Lacquer]

It was a joke. I hate bronies. The rest of what I said is valid, though.

[FlufflePuff]

I hate bronies.

 

I hate people who hate bronies, because there is no reason to dislike a person because they're a brony. Sure, what we do is counter-culture and "weird", but we're generally a nice community. (except on 4chan we kinda suck there.)

[Tulip]

I have the same problem you have and I've learned to just go with it. I haven't been controlling the thoughts, even if they don't feel as alien as I'd like them to be, but if yours come as out of nowhere as you say with very little control on your part don't force those thoughts to stop.

 

My first attempt at a Tulpa a year ago went through the same form changes without my influence.

 

Good luck on your pony Tulpa, hopefully she becomes more distinctly vocal soon.

[TheGianaJinx]

 

I hate people who hate bronies, because there is no reason to dislike a person because they're a brony. Sure, what we do is counter-culture and "weird", but we're generally a nice community. (except on 4chan we kinda suck there.)

 

Fight, fight, fight.