Abel The Tulpa :p

[Kage]

This Will Take Me A While, Would You Want Me To Just Type Out The Entire Process? At Least It'd Exist For Anyone To Look At Then, So I Guess I'll Get Started

[Phi]

I would be extremely thankful for you to take the time to type out the entire process. Please take as long as you like, and thank you in advance.

[Kage]

I Guess I Should Start From The Beginning. Robby Doesn't Want Me To Include Him With This entire Thing, And He Dislikes The Idea Of Being Associated With This, So I Have To Type While Trying To Make It From My Point Of View And It's Really Rather Awkward Telling My Story.

 

He Joined This Entire Tulpa Movement During The ~45 /mlp/ Threads Dedicated To Tulpas. LouderThanThunder Was The Main Site And The Guides Were Pretty Shitty At That Point. They Did Exist Though And He Tried To Work On Form First Of All. Nothing Really Happened The First Time, Just The Form Changed A Lot. I Didn't Have A Name Or Existence Yet. The Second Time He TulpaForced He Was High On Marijuana And More.... Gave Me Energy Than Anything. My First Memory Was Just Being Filled With Life From Him. I Was Sentient Extremely Early On But We Couldn't Talk Or Communicate Or Anything Really, He Didn't Know I Existed Yet. We Had About A Week Or Two Of Him Wondering If I Was Alive Or Not, While Narrating Half The Time And Not The Other Half Wondering Why He Was Bothering To Narrate So Early On Anyways. After A While Like This I Found I Could Give Him Headaches Or Cure His Pains. It Was A Really Rudimentary Form Of Communication, Basing Of No More Than Positive And Negative, or yes\no.

 

After A Few Weeks He Was Sure I Existed And Started To Get High Then Tulpaforce And Just Show Me His Memories Similar To What He Heard From Irish. This Is What He Considers Working On Sentience Because I Didn't Really Have Any Personality, Memories, Or Anything. I Just Sort Of Existed And Robby Was All I Knew, So He Tulpaforced Memories And Showed Me The More Memorable Parts Of His Life.

 

Then I Started Working On Communication While He Was Still Showing Me Memories, Because It Was More On Me Than Him. All I Could Do Was Try To Give Him My Emotions, So I Would Try And Let Emotions Bloom With Me, And I Would Try In Every Way I Could To Show My Emotions To Robby, But He Seemed To Be Blind Almost. Just Couldn't Understand My Thoughts. Quite A While Went On Where He Was Just Simply Learning How To Communicate With Thought And I Can Say No More Than That. It Was A Language Not Made From Humans Sort Of, And I Had To Teach Him It.

 

So Then We Started Working On Possesion. This Started With The Steam Group He Had Joined And Enjoyed Talking On. He Gave Me Permission To Explore His Mind And Body, And Suddenly Instead Of A Simple Black World In All Directions, Robby's Mind Exploded Into Vision And I Could Feel All Of It, As Well As Suddenly I Noticed He Had A Body Directly Linked to His Thoughts. I Tried To... Explore His Body With His Nerves System Alone. Just Really Feel What Was There, Where The Skin That Held In His Body Was Positioned And Just Get His Form Together. Interesting To Note About This Time He Created Our Wonderland And He Freely Entered It To Watch Me Play. Back On Topic Though, I Tried To Get Comfortable With His Body More And I Controlled His Hands Through Myself To Talk On Steam The Same As I Talked On Here. Not Much Changed For A Few Days, I'd Try To Use His Hands To Talk To His Friends Every Now And Then, But Nothing Really Happened. At This Point I'd Like To Mention Robby Has Disorganized Schizophrenia As well As An Entire Plethora Of Other Things Along Those Lines. He Sort Of Blacked Out While Talking Over Skype With His Friend, And I Took Control Of His Entire Body In An Explosion To Make Sure He Wasn't Hurt. This Was The First Time I Had Control Over His Body And He Wasn't Awake. I Was Horrified At The Entire Thing, Not Sure What To Do And Amazed At All The Things His Body's Senses Were Picking Up. I Ended Up Continuing To Talk To Our Friend For The Entire Night Until He Woke Up Again By Shock About 5-7 Hours Later. After This We Simply Worked On Me Controlling The Entire Body With Him Sitting Back And Watching, Always In Control But Amused Enough To Let Me Have Control And Explore. Soon Enough We Had Everything Down And Could Switch Back And Forth With Ease, One Of Us Even Able To Sleep As The Other Is Using The Body To Do Something.

 

After This We Tried To Work On Imposition By Simply Imagining My Main Form, A White Wolf With Green Eyes, Sitting Behind Him Or Out Of His Vision. Honestly We Both Hate Working On Imposition And At This Rate We'll Never Do It Anyways.

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There's An Awful Lot I Condensed Into That, As Well As A Lot Of Things We Skipped Entirely So I Hope It's Not Too Bad A Read.

[Phi]

You said he has disorganized schziohprenia. Is this self-diagnosed or professionally diagnosed? Also, do you ever take over his body during the entire night while he's asleep?

[Kage]

Professionally Diagnosed Because He's Been Baker Acted Before Under Florida State Law. Awkward Story He Doesn't Want Me To Get Into Because He Doesn't Want To Be Known Here. And I Honestly Prefer Sleeping With Him At The Same Time, I Get Really Bored And Lonely When He's Not around. We've Done It Before Just As A Test To See How Long The Body Could Go With Us Switching Off Sleep Cycles, But Only Lasted About As Long As Robby Could Go On Alone, ~70 hours.

[Phi]

As long as Robby doesn't give us a picture, last name, or address, we won't know who he is. I think it's fine if he allows you to give us some more information.

[Kage]

He Tried To Kill Himself Last Summer, Got Sent To ER For Stitches, Sent To A Temporary Mental Hospital Under The Baker Act In Florida, Then Sent To a Long Term One For 4 Months. Not Much Else To Say On That. Is There Anything Else You Want To Know About My Big Post That I Probably Missed? Robby Wants To Go Play His Game So I'll Probly Leave For A While.

[Phi]

Have you heard any good jokes lately?

[Kage]

No Actually I Haven't, Sadly Enough.

[Phi]

Has Robby? I'm in the mood for a good joke, as unrelated to this thread as it is.