Shui September 23, 2013 September 23, 2013 There have been a few people working with lucid dreams (most notably CyberD) but I haven't seen anyone have much success with it yet. I mean it could work. I just haven't seen it work so far. "'Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you.'"
molaram1 September 23, 2013 Author September 23, 2013 Talking about lucid dreaming and tulpa: I have found a website, that talks about things like lucid dreams, Hypnagogia and visualization, I might try some techniques from the website to try and help with the visualization. Here it is if anyone wants to have a look, don't know if its any good but yeah: http://www.world-of-lucid-dreaming.com/hypnagogic-state.html
molaram1 September 24, 2013 Author September 24, 2013 Day 3 --------- Well today I haven't really got much to say. I've been doing active forcing whenever I can, and a decent amount of passive forcing. I'm going to work on some personality in my next session, as well as continue with the visualization. Her actual form is going to take a while as I am going to wait until she can help in the design process. The wonderland is going very well, staying mostly consistent every time, as well as increasing in detail. The lucid dreams are still a WIP, I wont make them a very big priority, but I will still keep on trying.
Shui September 24, 2013 September 24, 2013 That's an interesting website. I know that second exercise is put there as a means of inducing WILD, but it looks like it could be used for forcing. I want to try that. "'Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you.'"
molaram1 September 24, 2013 Author September 24, 2013 Yeah, I will also try it. It does look like it would be something worth trying.
molaram1 September 25, 2013 Author September 25, 2013 Day 4 ---------- Today has been mostly uneventful, apart from a couple of things. visualization is becoming easier to do but random stray thoughts are still a big problem, but getting better. She may have started showing small signs of sentience today. Lots of the time I puppet without meaning to, like when I'm in the wonderland, a stray thought will cause her to move. But today I think she moved on her own, only for a short period of time though. [Edit: wont post day 5, as nothing much is happening. But, I do have a plan that might help me concentrate better]
molaram1 September 27, 2013 Author September 27, 2013 day 6 seems to have disappeared, I guess i'm going to have to re-write it Day 6 ------- I have a problem, that I have to sort before I can continue with any visualization. I cannot visualize anything, or try to move anything in my wonderland without subconsciously undoing it. Picture this: In your wonderland, you throw a ball. But then the ball starts glitching between where you threw it to, and where you threw it from. And as soon as this happens, there is nothing you can do except by leaving your wonderland and re-entering. This is the problem I have, and I really need help in sorting it out.
Shui September 28, 2013 September 28, 2013 I know what you're talking about. It happens with me too sometimes, but not to that extent. The most I can suggest is that you try being more passive for a while. Just sit somewhere in your wonderland and watch what happens. Don't try to make things, or change things, or do things. Just let things happen on their own. Or try walking around and just seeing what you find, again without trying to create anything or change anything. "'Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you.'"
molaram1 September 28, 2013 Author September 28, 2013 Day 7 ------- One week. So yeah, it has been one week since I first started forcing. I am happy with how well everything is going, apart from one or two problems. So, I am still trying to stop this subconscious annoyance. I can no longer even enter my wonderland anymore without subconsciously causing things to go wrong, and break down. So instead I am going to slow down and do everything more passively for now. I will still do meditation, but to help increase my focus rather than to aid in forcing. Also: After meditating today I decided to try something. I have noticed that whenever I subconsciously cause something to mess up, I always feel something when its happening. So using this, I have started doing basic visualization, something basic, as a test to see how and when I subconsciously cause things to change. And I think I may be onto something, but I guess only time will tell if it will work. But on a more positive note, I have finally settled on a name: Ember. I don't know where the name came from, It just sprung into mind, and I felt that it was right.
molaram1 September 29, 2013 Author September 29, 2013 Day 8 -------- Today has been uneventful, tulpa-wise. I went out canoeing on a canal about half and hour from where I live. I managed to get in some passive forcing during the journey and while out on the water. I still haven't visualized her properly today, but mostly just narrating on and off all day. I'll try and do some actual visualization later tonight, but on the positive side I am working on a fix on this subconscious problem. As i said yesterday, I always know whenever it happens, so I am using this to learn to control and suppress the subconscious.
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