Are these possession side-effects normal at the very first sessions?

[garland]

Hum... since last weekend i haven't practised typing, yesterday i tried it again and this time i noticed a small improvement, she is finally able to "bend" the fingers to reach other keys but no "hand dragging" yet she seems to have a lot of trouble with that as well as lifting and lowering the hand/arm vertically. But at least today i got her finally to press the keys without keeping pressing them for several seconds so there's no doubt now, this REALLY seems like a tulpa learning how to do this slowly!

 

Of course that so far my tulpa seems to type keys at absolute random even when i ask to type simple words (and the fingers move quite slowly and it's limited to the keys i have put the fingers on, but sometimes she bends the fingers to reach nearby keys) if i am not looking DIRECTLY at them (she only press the correct keys if i am directly looking at them, she doesn't appear to be able to memorize the position of the keys), i wonder this is normal since after all it's still a young tulpa and i suspect she isn't able to access my memories/short term memory yet and not capable of paralell processing, but of course, this will come with practise so for now i am confident in this!

 

Note that the movement are STILL involutary i am not actually moving my fingers. Also i noted that if i try to "influence" the answer, it seems my tulpa is able to resist this most of the times, altough sometimes it really appears my expectation influences the asnwers.

 

I sat there, asked her to try typing, and after like two minutes she dragged my hand around the keyboard and answered simple questions I asked her.

 

Yeah but before she was able to "drag your hand around" you HAD to do specific training for typing the keys right ? Also you have to be looking at the keys so that she knows where to type? Or even to be able to drag the hand... At least in my case i have to be practising every single type of movement with the hands BUT at least i see improvements quite fast in just a matter of a few days (i was fearing this would take weeks).

[garland]

Amazing today i tried again asking my subconcious to move my fingers again, to see if i was still being "fooled" by it, and to my HUGE surprise, nothing happened! It's the first time this happens, i clearly remember all the other times my body moved with possession when i asked to my subconcious move it (and after i told my tulpa to not move them) they moved (involutarly) and now that seems to be finally gone, and as soon as i tell my tulpa to move them in just 1 second they move! Could this be proof that now it's REALLY my tulpa moving the fingers indeed? Anyone has idea if the subconcious can still fool me now ? Despite that now i am trusting more than ever that it's really her, so this is just to be completly sure because i find this quite strange.

 

By the way i also did a funny experiment, i told my tulpa now, for 1 time only to move my fingers even if i adressed the subconcious directly and still nothing happened! Afterwards i adressed her and they moved almost instantly again ! Odd...

[Horatio]

Amazing today i tried again asking my subconcious to move my fingers again, to see if i was still being "fooled" by it, and to my HUGE surprise, nothing happened! It's the first time this happens, i clearly remember all the other times my body moved with possession when i asked to my subconcious move it (and after i told my tulpa to not move them) they moved (involutarly) and now that seems to be finally gone, and as soon as i tell my tulpa to move them in just 1 second they move! Could this be proof that now it's REALLY my tulpa moving the fingers indeed? Anyone has idea if the subconcious can still fool me now ? Despite that now i am trusting more than ever that it's really her, so this is just to be completly sure because i find this quite strange.

 

By the way i also did a funny experiment, i told my tulpa now, for 1 time only to move my fingers even if i adressed the subconcious directly and still nothing happened! Afterwards i adressed her and they moved almost instantly again ! Odd...

 

I wouldn't say that your subconcious and the tulpa are necessarily all that different. The tulpa can be thought of as a segregated part of your subconsious mind. I'm not even sure you can tell your subconcious things as you were doing, but whatever works.

 

Also, it's possible that your tulpa was playing around and acting as your subconcious, or it's confused about the difference between the subconcious and her. It sounds like you're on the correct path, though. Nice job! :)