Like Dysfunctional Clockwork

[BeanieBrigade]

Dear God, I forgot about how annoying the tulpa-aches are. Urgggghhhhhh...... If you don't mind, I'm just going to go and hit my head on this wall for a while...

[BeanieBrigade]

So, I try to keep my narration and passive forcing very conversation-like. I pause and wait for responses after asking something, or if I've commented on something I wait a few seconds to see if he wants to say something. A few responses here and there, but nothing he's said has really stood out, and I can't remember any memorable ones.

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I just made a little song to the tune of Do You Want To Build A Snowman?

 

-Lurker?-

-Do you wanna make a tulpa?-

-You'd better get some OJ-

-Some company that's just for you-

-Maybe it's a waifu-

-One that will never go away!-

-You'll be the best of buddies-

-Forevermore-

-You and your tulpa, cooooool-

-Do you wanna make a tulpa?-

-It can be anything you wanna-

-Okay, then...-

 

-Do you wanna make a tulpa?-

-One to talk to while you walk-

-A pony, human, wolfy too-

-Yes, you'd be talking to a person in your mind!-

-"I'm not insane"-

 

-I'm sure you get a little lonely-

-As we all do-

-Just wishing for something, someone!-

 

-lurker, please.-

-I know you want to-

-Come on, it's tempting, is it not?-

-Just stay with it,-

-It ain't hard to do,-

-We're all right here for you-

-Just do iiiiit!-

 

-You'll have a friend there-

-In your lonely world-

-How could you dare say no?-

-Are you-

-Gonna make a tulpa?-

[BeanieBrigade]

So, along with A Clockwork Orange, I know have a book that I can read to him at school. Two books, really. The first, Ranger's Apprentice, is just one I'm rereading because my Social Studies class is learning about the Middle Ages, and then a friend is lending me a book called Divergent, which is one I've heard of but know little about. So, Yay for narrating in school!

In other news, I now have about 15 minutes each day where I can force, albeit this time includes having to tune out a bunch of loud people, but I can just sit in my coat, pull my hood down, and force on my bus ride home.

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S, you know you aren't a witch, right?

[BeanieBrigade]

So, forcing in church. Good idea or not? My mom's forcing my brothers and I to all go to church, but would it be a lost cause because of the amount of times I have to get up and sit down and sing and all that?

[Guest Anonymous]

 

Fuck your tulpa in church, it helps

 

 

That's a really good practice for... a few reasons that may or may not be controversial. Coming from a Christian

male, oh god kill it with fire

it's for starters a really good place. Personally, anything besides the actual church message is pretty unimportant to me, so that's a good hour and a half of sitting and being completely bored. And like any other time when you're bored, you have no excuse not to force your tulpa. i.e, Talking to them, explaining to them about your church (though they'll probably learn more later), your opinions on it all, etc. And of course, forcing them in an empty seat. Like any other time you are bored as all get out, if you've got an empty space by you, it's a perfect place to start trying to impose your tulpa.

 

The second thing is the controversial bit. If you want them to share the same beliefs as you, then go on ahead. For the same controversial reasons of bringing a kid to church, as a child, if they're exposed to a certain church for most of their young life, they're all the more likely to be attached to that specific religion. I believe the same goes for a tulpa. So if you want them to have the same, or at least consider the same religion as you, involve them in your studies of that religion, and more actively in the church.

 

That said, I do also believe that an atheistic tulpa and a religious host... or in some cases an atheistic host and a religious tulpa, can get along just fine. I also believe that because of the attachment to the mind, where the host goes, the tulpa will go. But that's just a spiritual belief that's more or less irrelevant.

 

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Tl;dr: Yes it's a good idea. You don't have to shove the religion down their throat though. Let them believe on their own... hell, let it be a topic of discussion.

[BeanieBrigade]

I hate all the standing up and sitting down I have to do. I keep getting distracted by the readers. Somehow narrating is harder than just thinking...

[BeanieBrigade]

Last night Aria sent me what I believe to be a dream sign. I dreamt about tulpas, and throughout it I kept talking to a mute, invisible girl named Aria. Halfway through the dream, her name changed to Alice. At the end, someone started listing off random tuppers, known ones from this website, and the person forgot Aria/Alice. I stifled a laugh, pretending that the mute girl Aria was mad at the person even though I couldn't sense her at all.

 

That person who forgot her, dear friends, was me. Aria is so mad and betrayed by me, but she's willing to forgive me. My creating S has given her the power to send a feeble signal that she's still alive. Once S is able to speak without my attention on him, I'll focus on Aria. Though, I suppose her name is now Alice.

 

~Beanie

 

In other news, I've created a way to 'map out' a tulpa's morals and fears. If anyone has read Divergent, then you know about the fearscape and the test to determine your faction. If you put your tulpa into that situation and have him/her act accordingly to their personality, it should give reasons behind their personality and fears. Yay for Dystopian Fiction!

[BeanieBrigade]

No one was in my house today for three hours, so I read all of Part 2 of A Clockwork Orange out loud to S. It's becoming a lot easier already to narrate and passive force and talk to him as though he's a friend and less like an idiot who happened to be born yesterday. I talked to him a lot more today.

[Yori]

Hi hi hi there, everyone! My name's Beanie. I like beanies. And ferrets. And a clockwork orange, but let's not get into that. So, my tulpa will be a ferret named S...

 

S is a regularly sized ferret with sciency goggles atop his head. He is a theorist, scientist, and strategist. He enjoys games that require a lot of strategy, and he's constantly curious about everything. S has albino fur, but mysterious green, blue, rainbowy colors here and there, from science projects not going as planned. His goggle rims are lime green and a plain blue. His eyes are more goldeny-orange than red. His blood isn't goldeny orange though, his eyes just aren't see-through like most albino ferrets. His paws are stained too many colors to count. His tail is rather short.

 

S is funny. But he isn't funny in the way you think. He makes jokes that you have to think about for a moment. And if you aren't intelligent, you won't understand it at all. S is kind of the person who, if something inspires him, he becomes so obsessed that he'd keep you up until 5 in the morning researching and experimenting. And he's nosy. He has to be in the know, and if he hears a reference come up he doesn't understand, he will demand that you don't sleep until he figures it out. And boy is he impatient! In a car, you will hear him complaining about cramps, needing to pee, wanting to test something out, etc. He also thinks... outside the box. Random theories about the weirdest things is his specialty. But he also thinks up things that sound so logical... until science proves it wrong. When S explains his theories, it's almost too easy to imagine that song from inception is playing. The one that goes 'beeeeeuuuuuuuuuuu dundundundundundun' kind of. Just search pinkie pie inception, and look for the one where she's on the mirror... yeah... S can be rather critical sometimes, like the grammar natzis. Especially if I miss something. And S is... rather... special... he has insane moments at times...

 

Any ideas for a Wonderland where a ferret would live?

 

Wowww, great description... I automatically imagined wherever he would be making experiments, as for the wonderland.

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On 1/27 your first imposition attempt, was it in a dimly light/dark room? Hmm maybe that helped

[BeanieBrigade]

I. AM. BACK. I get busy, I apologize for being gone. I haven't really done anything with S, but a few days ago, I decided to play skip-bo with him. For some reason, he really seems active when we play. He talks, reacts, and it's almost like having a friend play skip-bo with me over a skype call. Of course, I had to move his cards for him, but he is just hilarious. He seems to curse a lot, but he's just being hilarious.

Last night, when I was talking to him, he communicated via mental images and just the sense that he was in the room. It was just the cutest thing ;w;