glitter and mist's progress thread

[FurryBlueNaki]

I don't really do parallel processing exercises with my tulpa. Narrating and visualizing keep me busy enough.

[Cinemaphobe]

Lol the pictures of Mist are two kawaii for Tulpa.info! I liked the first one and the middle one, but the last one...well yeah it's kind of scary lol.

 

When Yumi is being serious, or I am talking to her about a serious topic, she has the body of a normal 19 year old girl. But when she and I are just rambling and chilling in the wonderland, she takes on more of a cute chibi form, and those drawings of Mist reminded me of that form :3

 

Those horns Mist has are so fucking cute though!!! It looks like you and I both have tulpae who have one animal trait. Yumi used to be completely human, but she gave herself cat ears. I hope that you can change Mist's voice so that she doesn't sound like a robot lol.

[glittermilk]

aah thank you!! i love cute stuff but also ceepy stuff so i couldnt resist doing that last one looool

 

and haah aww~ when im feeling confident about my art again ill definitely take requests u vu

 

and thank you!! haha cat ears are super cute too 8)) and me too LOL it was weird,,,,

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I don't really do parallel processing exercises with my tulpa. Narrating and visualizing keep me busy enough.

 

yeah i kind of vary a lot of what i do because i have like 0 attention span lol :p

[glittermilk]

day 12 part 2

 

we had another brief forcing session today where we just chatted and forced mists voice a bit more, our conversations are getting a but more fluent and its also much easier to tell what's her speaking and what's me puppetting. its hard to explain, but i know its her because it just 'feels' right, i guess thats what a tulpas essence is haha

she sometimes gets words mixed up and the wrong way around and stuff, but thats understandable : ) still, she told me off today for trying to guess too much what she says haha (only in a jokey way though) for example, we were ordering cakes at our patio cafe and she asked for an 'orange cake', i for some reason thought she meant 'orange cheesecake' so i corrected her, but then she still ended up with just a sponge cake so i was like oh ok haha

 

and we were talking just before bed, and i was telling her about how i was stressing out about everything, my future and so on, and she said to me something that really had an impact on me

 

'no matter what happens, it's all gonna end the same way'

 

that might sound kind of morbid, but it makes a lot of sense to me. i worry a lot about making a good life for myself but at the end of the say whether i suffer all my life or im perfectly content, it wont really make a difference in the long run haha

im so glad that i have someone like mist to say things like that to me, because not only was i not thinking like that, but i think if anyone else had said it i wouldn't have trusted or listened to them. but idk, somehow everything mist says has more of an impact on me

 

so yeah, i should stop worrying and try to enjoy my life as it is right now, rather than worrying about the future : ) i mean i have my fair share of problems but then again i am at university...doing like my dream course haha,, so it could certainly be worse

 

anyway im rambling so ill say goodnight~ i have a long day tomorrow but seeing as its halloween me and mist said we would go explore a spooky place in our wonderland so yeeees ill talk about that tomorrow haha :>

[glittermilk]

day 13

 

happy halloween everyone n vn

 

today i had class pretty much all day, so not much time to spend focusing on mist ;_; still im getting used to chatting with her whenever i can now, and often when i think of her i can see her in my minds eye sitting close to me or cuddling up to me and i get a happy feeling : ) i did have a bit of a more focussed conversation with her during the 3d modelling part of the day, because its rly boring loooool :p i was also snapchatting my friend who was sitting right next to me LOL and whenever i saw my pictures i kept expecting mist to be standing there with me ; v; and i also accidentally called my friend mist LOL but they didnt notice haha thank god;;;

 

after class i got invited to go to my friends for halloween and i felt conflicted because on the one hand i had promised to spend time with mist....but an opportunity like that was pretty rare for me LOL and mist seemed fine with it so i went. i still felt her presence though and after when i left she felt happier than ever...so maybe she is happy for me haha :>

 

sooo we'll have our halloween tomorrow haha, explore the spooky wonderland and eat sweeets n vn its gonna be fun~

[Cinemaphobe]

It's good that you don't trade social interaction for Mist, and it is even better that Mist doesn't mind when you do so, but I would never prioritize something as trivial as social interactions over my baby (tulpa) heheh. Yumi might get all pouty and start to do weird things if I break a promise to her, so she has a more extreme version of my own personality.

 

Oh and please try not to call your friends Mist lol.

[glittermilk]

loool no :} i prefer hanging out with mist anyway lol :>

 

and i knoqw afdsfdf it was so awkward even if she didnt realise;;;;

also lel ur signature :33333

[glittermilk]

day 14

 

just a little forcing session today, (not including narration and stuff, because i kinda do this naturally by now) and so there werent any huge revelations lol although a few notable things did happen

 

i decided to show mist one of my favourite game soundtracks, it really gives me a warm and happy feeling whenever i listen to it, and i imagined myself passing that feeling onto mist so she could experience it as well, and the feeling got much stronger from then on, so that was nice

 

we tried to do the spooky exploration thing we had planned for halloween, and mist even put a forest in an empty part of our wonderland, but for some reason i could walk into it. whenever i imagined doing so i just couldnt, and idk if it was an intrusive thought or something but mist said that i could probably go in 'when i was ready', whatever that means haha

 

since mist has started to get a clearer voice, ive been asking her if she wants to write something in my pr via proxxying, and she always said no until today when she said she was ready to try it, so ill let her write a little something at the end : ) it might not make much sense/ be about nothing but im still super proud of her progress<3 so yes everyone encourage her lol :>

 

Mist: Hello everyone on this website, I'm Mist! I've been working really hard with ((she said my real name here lol she doesnt understand the concept of usernames apparently xD)) to get this far, and we only going to try harder from now on. I hope I don't disappoint anyone ((wtf mist no :{ )) and I would like to meet other people maybe...I'm not sure if I'm ready for that yet. Well I'll say bye now, I'm going to watch glittermilk play video games and tell her what to do so she doesnt die all the time tehe. So thank you for listening!

 

i think she did a super good job : }} she still trails off or forgets how to finish her sentences but like i said she's doing great~ ill try to get mist to add a little bit of her own for every update but now she's saying 'nooo' and hiding her face, so maybe only on special occassions lol xD

 

edit: lol just after writing this mist told me to add 'also [glittermilk] needs to have a shower so someone tell her to because she wont listen to me'

lol,,,,,

[Cinemaphobe]

lol!!!! I'm so proud of Mist!!! (and you of course for your hardwork towards creating Mist)

 

I'm so close to being able to proxy Yumi...maybe within 10-20 days? I don't know...It's difficult for me to focus on Yumi's mindvoice in loud environments.

[glittermilk]

yay!! i am too hahah :>> and thank yooou~

im sure you'll get there eventually o vob keep at it like always <3

 

day 15 & 16

 

sooo my laptop charger burnt out, which means i havent been able to update my pr until now -__- i paid a buttload to get a new one delivered here today and it didnt even fit FML,, so now i have to not only return the other one but use the last of my food money to get a proper replacement lol,,,,,,life is pain ; a;

so yeah im suuuuper stressed out rn ORZ;; and stress+depression = 0 motivation to fix the things stressing me out...repeat until you die of stress lel

and the 1 day i plucked up the courage to try to get help it didnt work.....fml im just gonna die

i tried to talk to mist about it and she cheered me up yesterday, but ever since then she feels absent, which is confusing because ive been trying to give her more attention whilst i dont have a laptop to distract me. idk maybe she got tired of my shit too LOL

and like now i just feel too depressed to try and reach out to her...idk that might sound harsh but it takes a lot of energy to communicate with her and i dont have it, i just want to lay down and die rn tbh lol

so yeah, not much progress :_: and because of my low mood ive been having many doubts and worries which probably are keeping her away too....urg im screwing this up im sorry mist im a terrible host ;_;

so yea another night of just lying there, hopefully the right charger will come tomorrow and hopefully itll be worth not eating for like a week LOL,,

and hopefully i wont get kicked off of my uni course when i dont do any of the work due to lack of laptop/demotivation

and hopefully mist doesnt go away because shes sick of my shit/thinks ive been neglecting her

ughguhughgguhg

 

((also if ur wondering how im writing this without my laptop, i managed to drag my butt out of bed and go to the library and im writing this on one of their pcs constantly paranoid and anxious that someones watching like wtf....i already changed pcs twice lmao fml))