glitter and mist's progress thread

[Cinemaphobe]

day 4 part 2

 

 

it was a little difficult to focus too, i think coffee definitely helps and i think we're starting to associate the taste of coffee with forcing anyway so yeah

still, it was a pretty productive session!!

 

 

That's funny, because I always drink an entire pot of coffee before I tulpaforce^^. I personally view coffee as a sacred liquid that should only be ingested for studying and tulpaforcing (or both at the same time), so I associate the smell, and taste of coffee with Yumi lol.

 

we started with some visualisation stuff, firstly just the normal touching method and then the anatomy visualising method. i decided to manually go in and add all her major organs, as soon as i added the brain she started blinking, which i realised she hadnt really done before haha :p adding bones made her movements much more fluid as well. i chose to add her heart last, thinking that it would sort of kickstart the rest of her body, i made a point of adding like a sudden force of energy to her heart to get it started, and when i did i felt like an overwhelming feeling of emotion haha, i think she was super happy with that :>> even though really that should only be something you need to do once, i think ill repeat it in later sessions, just to remind up both that shes alive and help with visualisation, it worked out pretty well!!

 

I'm definitely going to give this method a try! Oh and your idea of giving your tulpa a special day of the week is also a method that I am going to try :). But I'm going to give my tulpa extreme attention during full moons because meditating and tulpaforcing beneath a full moon is the most peaceful and relaxing thing ever, as long as there aren't any damn mosquitoes outside.

 

Good luck on your tulpa journey!

[glittermilk]

loool i just drink coffee because otherwise im always tired loool;;; but yes god bless coffee it has got me through life lmao

 

and yeah the anatomy thing was really helpful!! i cant remember who suggested it now but i found it just from browsing the forum and it wasnt that hard to find if you want to read what the creator has to say about it ;p

i know i cant wait for our day!! i just think it gives something to work towards during the week :} haha omg i bet it is though, although im sure you could just force like a permanent full moon in your wonderland loool :}

 

thank you, and you too!!

[jackson]

Neither coffee nor alcohol do anything for me.

[glittermilk]

i thought that too until i like had a huge binge on alcohol like the first week i got to uni and i felt like i was about to throw up for like the entirety of my first lecture looool

but yeah i guess like everything there's an element of self-fulfilling prophecy to it, if you drink thinking 'this will help' then it'll probably have more of an effect??

[jackson]

it keeps me up at the end of the day, doesn't do anything for me in the middle of it.

[glittermilk]

the only reason id have it during the day is for the taste anyways :p

[glittermilk]

day 4 part 3

 

i (well i thought it was me at first lol) had another idea of something we could do in our wonderland, and i really wanted to try it out so hey, screw sleep before a lecture loool ((even though it was a really short session, only like 15 minutes or something))

 

the idea was to deal with my worries, i call it 'worry weeding' lol :}} basically i would visualise weeds popping up in the grass in my wonderland that represented a worry i couldnt get off my mind, and i would rip it out as a way of getting rid of it :> as i was explaining this to mist though, she seemed to be saying that she knew, because it was her idea LOL! kinda makes sense, seeing as when i think about it i cant really remember how i got to the idea myself, almost like it popped into my head itself :{}

 

we both did our own weeding for our individual worries, we decided not to tell each other what they were seeing as it wouldnt matter anyway, because they werent true and we were getting rid of them :> but when we started, i looked over at mist and she was ripping out loads and more kept popping up!! at first i was like omg mist do you seriously have that many worries lol, but actually what she was doing was creating multiple weeds for one thought, just to make getting rid of it more thorough. so i did the same, and ill admit that now when i think about the worry i was weeding my mind feels much clearer, so i think it worked :>> i think it could be a good way to deal with persistent thoughts or non-tulpa related worries too, so thank you mist for coming up with this idea haha :>>

[glittermilk]

day 5

 

i was going to write about what we were talking about last night but i dont really remember ;_; my memory is so bad, especially when it comes to stuff i do with mist for some reason, but i think thats probably because im so relaxed whenever i talk to her that i must be half alseep looool

 

but this morning we had my lecture to go to, and i was looking forward to narrating to her everything my lecturer was saying...

then it turns out we were just having a movie screening for the entire lecture loool : p because for some reason im taking a film theory class even though im studying computer games arts....but yeh lol

 

i still tried to do my best to narrate to her the movie but i was so tired and i get so easily immersed in films that i lost focus a lot,, but that turned out to be a good thing in the end 8 )) because about 20 minutes into the movie i felt someone very distinctly brush my arm to the point where i looked, but no one was even close to me?? it was also the same side which i was imagining mist sitting next to me, so it must have been her trying to grab back my attention haha :>> its not like im going to just stop giving her attention on purpose now to get her to do that more, but still im glad that shes starting to learn how to grab my attention more strongly now haha ((although im pretty sure she'll start using this talent to mess about with me soon enough haha))

 

our life drawing class was also cancelled this afternoon, which means more time to foooorce n vn so ill talk about that later~ for now i think we need a rest and to plan what we're gonna do later today,, so yeeeeh :>

[zoeydreamer19]

Your thread has got to be my favorite, it's awesome! I'm practically in love with Mist :) JK, but I really love the stuff you do together and yeah. This is probably a dumb question, but do you feel like you puppet/ parrot her or do you feel like it's her response? And when your in your wonderland and you move to go somewhere, are you moving her is she moving?

[glittermilk]

haha aww that's so sweet to say, thank you!! and haha when i told her that she just reacted by hiding her face :}}

don't worry about dumb questions, we're all here to learn after all!!

 

1. at the moment i kind of feel that its usually half and half?? like ive mentioned before, the way we're communicating atm is me suggesting different responses that she might have said and her giving me a 'feeling' to the one that's the closest to what she wanted to say :p it kind of just feels right haha :> but occassionally she'll say something completely out of the blue, so i think im having to help her less!!

 

2. weirdly we never had an issue with moving except for right at the start, idk in my wonderland she just does what she likes LOL

well she's not entirely independent yet, so she cant do anything super unexpected, i think she must sort of feed off of my intentions so im probably helping her subconsciously for now (if that makes sense haha) but when we do the prism test she still walks around and mostly tries to distract me LOL so its a good way to know im not puppeting n vn

 

ps. if u were asking that because ur worried urself, then the best thing you can do is to trust ur tulpa!! thats the generally consensus anyway, im no way an expert of course LOL :} the part of your brain thats saying 'no way that couldn't have been my tulpa' and making up excuses is the part thats stopping them from developing, so you gotta find a way to KILL IT xD (the thoughts that is, omg)

 

anyways, thank you for reading and commenting aah you're so lovely! i hope one day mist can talk to you and your tulpa herseeeelf :>

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day 5 part 2

 

i only have a tiny bit to add but its like SUPER IMPORTANT lol so heeeey lets get out of control with parts for day 5 again as well 8 ))

 

so!! after i got home from my lecture i was of course super tired, and i actually began to feel like i was loosing mist's presence, which suuucked :{ today was the first day since i created her that i was actually around other people (yES I HADN'T SPOKEN TO ANOTHER HUMAN In 5 DAYS I A M A RECLUSE LOL) and stuff that i would usually have said to her i ended up saying to other people :{ i was worried that maybe she was upset about that, but she wasnt around so i couldnt ask her. still i knew not to panic, and i figured she'd come back when she was done with whatever she was doing lol i ended up falling asleep for a few hours, i actually had more scary dreams about stuff like people finding about mist and making fun of me ;_; i was so relieved it was a dream haha

then when i woke up i could feel mists presence was back but only vaguely, i tried imagining her lying next to me which is what i usually do and i could imagine her poking her head up from the end of my bed and coming to lie next to me haha it was cute

and theeeen,, she said her first properly independent words aaa!! im absolutely certain they were, because usually she only ever 'talks' in response or relation to something im saying or doing, and theres always a sense that im helping her a little, but she said this when i was thinking about nothing, and the words kind of didn't make sense to me at first until i thought about it later??? but she said:

'i went back and spoke to [my brothers name]' !!! weirdly i didnt feel surprised or anything haha, it just felt like a person talking to me, but i could only hear them in my head. i didnt even congratulate her much or anything omg,, it just felt really natural lol :}} but i was pretty confused too, because even i hadnt spoken to my brother recently, idk how she did haha :p but she told me that she'd created an npc of him in my wonderland (i assume from my subconscious memories of him), and she was talking to him because she thought we'd be meeting him at the weekend (hes away though mist, sorry LOL)

explains what she was doing whilst she was away, working hard hehe♥ but i told her that she should try to take breaks when i am, or she'll tire herself out lol

 

also, she was a bit annoyed with me that i didnt immediately acknowledge her hard work haha, but once i gave her a fuss she was ok : }} it was just because it was so natural i didnt think to say well done omG///