ThatFellowWithTheScarf November 13, 2014 November 13, 2014 Maybe you should post that in tips. I never would have thought to connect my tulpa with a song. I may give it a go.
Breaddycat November 13, 2014 Author November 13, 2014 I tend to associate songs with things by nature, and I just got an extremely strong vibe from them when I listened to it, so that just sort of happened on its own! Two things last night that I think are noteworthy: 1. I ended up not doing any forcing last night, as I waited too long to start and I was tired. I did find a brown/pink noise mix that I plan to test sometime today. 2. I dreamt about them !! I don't think Trip said anything besides a short sentence or two, which is understandable as he's younger in the creation process. Virus and I managed to hold a conversation pretty well! I knew it had to be them because the night before, I said that it would be amazing to have them in a dream, and although it was something I truly wished for, I wouldn't get mad or disappointed if it didn't happen- and it did! They looked, appearance-wise, just as they had how I've been visualizing them. No real deviation in appearance so far- I think Virus changed his voice a bit, because it did sound different from what I'd originally planned for him, but that's completely fine! I've been reassuring them that deviation is fine and welcome. ❝ Where's the fun in playing a game if you let yourself become a pawn? ❞
Breaddycat November 15, 2014 Author November 15, 2014 Reminder to myself to stop being lazy and get to listening to that brown/pink noise mix. I tried to do a quick session with it today on the bus on the way to tech school, but apparently it's too loud/open there for my mind and body to relax. I didn't have any luck at all. ❝ Where's the fun in playing a game if you let yourself become a pawn? ❞
Breaddycat November 15, 2014 Author November 15, 2014 I had another dream about them last night! The dreams are becoming more vivid and their speech abilities seem to grow. On that note, I find it interesting that both times I've said it'd be wonderful to see them in a dream, they've appeared in a dream. ❝ Where's the fun in playing a game if you let yourself become a pawn? ❞
Cinemaphobe November 16, 2014 November 16, 2014 Good job!!!!!! Sometimes all it takes is the true desire to want your tulpa to show up in a dream that enables it to happen. I began my little tulpa journey when Yumi showed up in my dream after I begged her to show up. I glad for your success. "Sanity is the playground of the unimaginative." Yumi + Cinema
Breaddycat November 18, 2014 Author November 18, 2014 Thank you! Forcing didn't work last night, nor was I able to get into sleep paralysis to attempt a lucid dream. My visualization skills were awful today. It was freezing and raining, and I sort of felt bad about trying to visualize them walking with me in the cold, so I didn't do that. Although, as I type this now, I have a rather strong head pressure that sort of feels like my head is being held in place by something/someone, so I know they're there. Also: Does anyone have any tips for differenciating the actions of one tulpa to another if you're working on more than one? I'll get an emotional response or hear a faint voice, and I won't know which of them it is. ❝ Where's the fun in playing a game if you let yourself become a pawn? ❞
Guest Anonymous November 20, 2014 November 20, 2014 ahh i have 2 developing tuppers too. it can be good and it can be hard X3. as for telling who's who i have the same problem. for the head pressure i'd say ask trip to move his head pressure to the left and ask virus to move his to the right, or vice versa. several people have been able to get their tupper to move their head pressure. as for the emotional responses i don't get those, so i cant help there. maybe when you get an emotional response have whoever did it say their own name. and with the faint voice its kinda the same. just ask who said it and they most likely will just tell you. have them use their name tho cus it might be confusing if they just respond with 'oh it was me' XD who? anyway hopefully someone else can give some other methods on here because i'm in the same boat. hope some of this helped. good luck!
Breaddycat December 29, 2014 Author December 29, 2014 Hey, everyone, it's been a good while. I've gotten a lot of progress down, which I'm very very excited to be able to report about. First, thanks Anon- I had Virus move his head pressures to the left and Trip's to the right, and it has helped to some extent. Secondly, I know I'm going about my forcing methods a lot differently than most. I mainly try to connect to them in my dreams rather than in reality. (I still work on feeling their presences and hearing them irl too.) I lucid dream a lot, and when I do I'll summon them because I can hear them very, very clearly and actually see/touch them there. It helps sharpen my senses. Just today I tried a trick I saw where when you wake up from a nap and you're in a state where it's extremely easy to fall back to sleep, you take one of your hands and move your index and middle fingers as if you were playing a piano- when one goes down, the other comes up. You focus on that movement and without letting your thoughts wander, do this for about twenty seconds. You aren't supposed to mentally count either. Then at the end of it, you try to hold your nose and breathe in to test to see if you're asleep- somehow, I was. I could feel reality warp around me as this happened. The only bad part was I found myself at first not being able to move my body. I quickly got past that, but then I couldn't keep my eyes open. I began to panic a little bit at that point- how was I supposed to visualize them if I couldn't keep my eyes open?? Then an idea hit me. I was (somehow) able to move myself from laying down to sitting on my bed, but my eyes refused to open. I said "Virus and Trip are standing in front of me" while believing it with all my heart. I reached my hands out and, sure enough, they both took hold of one and helped me get to my feet. I kept focusing on /feeling/ them more than anything else, and I remember catching small bits of their appearances. I know for certain Trip spoke- I've gathered that his voice is deeper and lower than Viruses, and I believe Virus talked as well but he doesn't seem to be as vocal. I can't really remember what he sounded like, either, which is kind of a letdown. Anyway, I'm going to meditate and then do a session tonight where I focus solely on being able to hear them. ❝ Where's the fun in playing a game if you let yourself become a pawn? ❞
Breaddycat December 30, 2014 Author December 30, 2014 Tried that hearing session- it didn't work so well. I was able to visualize them fine, and both of them were responding rather strongly with head pressures. I couldn't /focus/ which totally ruined everything. :v ❝ Where's the fun in playing a game if you let yourself become a pawn? ❞
Breaddycat December 31, 2014 Author December 31, 2014 I had what I feel was one of my most productive days today. It feels really, really good to have accomplished so much. It started when we went to go see Mockingjay this morning. The entire lower part of the theatre was full, so I picked two seats below me and visualized them sitting there. They didn't seem all that interested in the movie; most of it was spent with what looked like them talking to each other, even though I couldn't hear anything. I felt head pressures when I asked them how they felt about the movie. For the past few days or so, I'd been meaning to do a lucid session and ask them how close they were to being able to become vocal when I'm awake. The answers came one after the other when I got to do that today, and I think it was Virus who answered /first/, but they both answered with "Soon." I was able to cuddle with them until the session ended, and when it did I near immediately thanked them for answering me and also praised them for doing so. ❝ Where's the fun in playing a game if you let yourself become a pawn? ❞
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