We've come so far

[Elvode]

I decided to make a progress report, it seemed like a good idea, I also enjoy reading others reports, kind of feels like everyones lives are so interesting and full of events!

I guess an introduction would be a good start. :)

My tulpa named himself Nash, we've known each other for 13 years, I'm glad for all of those years, he helped me a lot in life, we started out as friends but pretty fast he became my "guide" sort of, I was in need of guidance more than a friend, there were things I didn't understand and no one bothered to help me except for Nash, he was always there to help me, he always helped in class when I was stuck on assignments and taught me about possession, he could possess me during class and show me how to calculate math and such, very useful.

He also taught me about wonderland, he created it as a place only for us to hang out, he taught me about switching and imposition, which we never really performed but he did imposition by himself tho, I don't really feel like doing it myself, he does it whenever he feels like it and that's fine with me.

However he never stood in my way when I was about to make mistakes, he always supported me in everything, he told me "if your not making mistakes how are you gonna learn?".

 

I'm glad I found this place some month ago, everyone is doing the same as we have been doing for a long time, I thought we were the only ones in this world, when I had those thoughts he used to say "you always tell me, there are people for everything so that means there are others like us somewhere over the rainbow."

Since I've been here for a while I've actually learned all the key words and what they mean, at least most of them.

I'm still quite confused about the words Narrating and Forcing.

 

Thanks for reading.

[Vos]

Narration is where you're talking to your tulpa during creation, directing your thoughts to them. waffles has a neat guide on it that goes into that just a bit more.

 

Forcing is doing anything that contributes to the development of a tulpa, regardless of how involved it may be. Active forcing is where a dedicated amount of time is set away for the host to focus solely on the tulpa, concentrating hard and avoiding any distractions. Passive forcing is where you're working on your tulpa, but not exclusively - a host could be talking to their tulpa or visualizing them as they're doing something else.

[Elvode]

Thanks Vos for the very clear description. :)

 

 

I thought I was gonna try to enter my wonderland at my work since no guests seem to visit the reception for two hours and try my best not to fall asleep, I put my legs and arms in an uncomfortable position and entered my wonderland.

Nash said he wanted to show me something new, we flew off to an island he had created, the second we landed on it everything around me became blurry, me and Nash was still very sharp, the blurriness became less blurry and a pirate appeared and walked up to us (the most ugly pirate there is) he however was not a part of my wonderland, Nash said he didn't create it and I didn't either.

The pirate started talking about his big plans to take over the world, as we were listening I felt like i was dozing off and it felt more like a dream, and I yelled out "this wasn't supposed to happen! I wasn't supposed to sleep!"

all of them was looking at me like I'm a weirdo.. and I decided to wake up.

Strange experience, like I was asleep but at the same time I wasn't.

And since when do pirates use large evil robots to assist them.. my dreams never make any sense.

[Elvode]

Since I got nothing else to do today, I decided to make a new drawing of my tulpa Nash, the other one I made was way more cartoonish... and he's not cartoonish. :P

I aimed for a more realistic view, however there are a few things I just can't succeed with and that is:

- Torsos

- Wings

- feet

- Hands

- Shadowing

 

I'm not really into drawing, I just do it when I feel like it, soooo I'm not really aiming to get better at it.

... .. I should just give him a coat then I won't need to draw his torso at all.

This was pretty fun and I'm happy with the result, the drawing really captured his personality I think.

[Elvode]

Today haven't really been that very interesting except that I almost killed a plastic bag in my dream until Nash interfered and reminded me to go out with my dog and also reminded me that plastic bags are not alive.

 

We also went to visit my mom today since it's mothers day, I made a drawing of her birds and put it in a frame, she was very impressed and she loved it, she totally love those birds, can't say that I share the love for them, I've had too many birds pooping on my head when I was working with birds... gosh... I hated it, my job! Not their fault! I know, but I still hated it, don't really get it how much poop a bird can carry in their body...

 

Nash also decided to take a last name, we walked past a mailbox with the last name of Ashbourne on it.

I asked "Why would you have a last name? it's not like you need it."

Nash: "I don't need it, I just want it, you have a last name but I don't."

 

It's really nice to have such a kind friend by my side <3 He wakes me up in the mornings or during the day if I fall asleep.

If I'm in a sleep paralysis he reminds me what is real and not real, if I have panic attacks he reminds me to breath and relax.

He's good for many things.. cooking too.

But if I forget something he's like "well, you can think about that for a moment."

Before he used to remind me of such things but not anymore, he think it will improve my memory, don't really know about that since it's a disease that makes my memory bad.

[Elvode]

Actually, when I visited my wonderland last night, I didn't fall asleep, I was determined not to, I didn't want to sleep, my wonderland feels so peaceful, I just wanna stay there forever and leave my shitty reality and shitty life.

It's actually quite a good life I'm living, I don't really got any super huge concerns, it's mostly my depression speaking, it makes me do... bad things... such as.. buying lots of ice cream and plushies.. I love plushies! they are so cuddly and soft!

About the ice cream.. I got a free hat if I bought two packs of ice cream.. depression makes me do very bad things.. bad for my wallet at least and it doesn't even make me any happy. Ok I'm happy about the free hat! it looks awesome!

 

Nash is ready to sigh himself to death, just because I'm hopeless sometimes. :P

Anyway, Nash had created a new place in wonderland, it's like an underground house, we have never had anything underground before, it was awesome! It's in the forest, our first house is on the beach, speaking of creating things.. I can't really remember the last time I ever created anything in wonderland, Nash is like doing everything and always have been in wonderland, he's like the wonderland boss dude.

 

At work today he didn't talk to me at all, he was present and observed me but didn't say anything, I tried to talk to him but he was like "focus on your job instead." he's always so mr.serious pants.. I think we can talk when I've got nothing else to do, it's not like we had any customers. << but nooo I'm supposed to be 100% professional even when people aren't there, he totally missed me last week when I sang to a song and I sounded like a dying cat when a customer entered the store! for some reason I wasn't feeling embarrassed.

 

I at least progressed not to sleep while in wonderland! good news! gonna try and enter wonderland again tonight before bed, perhaps I'm lucky again!

I tried to both sit and lie down very uncomfy but I fell asleep anyway, probably because I mastered the art of sleeping.

[Guest Anonymous]

I at least progressed not to sleep while in wonderland! good news! gonna try and enter wonderland again tonight before bed, perhaps I'm lucky again!

I tried to both sit and lie down very uncomfy but I fell asleep anyway, probably because I mastered the art of sleeping.

 

You and Nash are very much like my tulpa Melian and I! Your wonderland sounds fantastic and is quickly created within a day dream. I was fascinated about how Nash actually constructs parts of his wonderland himself. That is so cool! I like your drawing of Nash too. Good luck on your forcing efforts. Passive forcing always came natural to me. I have never really done active forcing. I doubt I have the discipline for it.

 

You might consider that you could be like Melian and I and create wonderland adventures even while sleeping and dreaming. There are guides here on lucid dreaming techniques (and a whole web site dedicated to it somewhere). ~Mistgod

[Elvode]

Thanks a lot Mistgod! ^^ He actually had to repair a big part of wonderland before because I accidentally blew it up when I was sleeping, there was an explosion in my dream while I was sleeping in wonderland, I heard him yelling at me GET OUT! NOW! YOU BLEW IT UP! when I woke up by him yelling at me, he was very unhappy, I wasn't allowed to sleep in wonderland for a while after that.

I find it kinda funny how things can happen but he's still unhappy about it. :P

I will for sure check out the guides for lucid dreaming, that was en excellent idea!

 

 

 

And for the report.. well.. I failed, I fell asleep, couldn't stay awake for long. Not really surprising.

Nash have been telling me jokes all day about how he's mr.serious pants... <<

"I think you should do this casue you know what? I'm mr serious pants! *laughing*"

Glad someone's having fun.. I'm never calling him that again! stupid jokes, not even funny, his humor is just so crappy it bothers me, not to be mean but it's true. :P

Humor have never been his strong side, we never really developed it, I let him learn about humor himself and wait and see what kind of humor he would get and... yup.. his humor sucks and it's probably my fault.

[Elvode]

My report was on the second page, no wonder I couldn't find it.

So, it's been kind of weird, Nash and I was gonna have a party at wonderland house but then he said "The party is frozen in time." and left... he just left me.. without saying where or what he was gonna do, he always do that but comon! we were gonna have a party.. He was gone for two days, it's the first time I've ever been worried about him being gone, sometimes he's just gone for like days or weeks even months, he always returns, but leaving me when we were gonna have a party....

When he returned he said he needed some alone time and didn't know I was worried.

We had the party anyway when he returned, we had some fun! even tho I don't like partys but wonderland kind of partys is actually ok, nothing bad happens in there, I'm always afraid scary things will happen at partys, or mean people... gonna do something mean.

I've met enough mean people.

And also I fell asleep only once in wonderland, he woke me up, I hope he poofed away everyone and the party, I'm too lazy to clean it up and he for sure is too lazy to clean anything.

[Guest Anonymous]

Humor have never been his strong side, we never really developed it, I let him learn about humor himself and wait and see what kind of humor he would get and... yup.. his humor sucks and it's probably my fault.

 

LOL Careful what you wish for! A good sense of humor can be a double edged sword! ~Mistgod