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I just wanted to make it clear I understand that fully, that stuff is so not fun. I'm just going to help anyway way I can. 😊 (Even if it has little to no effect.) (⁠っ⁠.⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)⁠っ Yay! Thank you both! 💜 Nope, I just copied Simmie, lol. Oh, I have some too! 😊 Pirate Shrine maiden Super comfy winter clothes (probably wool-like)

Can't even make this stuff up. I thought to write "Anyways, yeah, 💜 -> everyone" as a quip at the end, but brain suggested that using TB's arrow wasn't as good as finding our own, so I google an arrow symbols site and see a couple fun ones like ↝, but one special symbol would be a weird amount of effort for not much payoff, so I start trying to find ones to string together like ↝↗↻↘➪➫➬➩ but can't find ones that link together well enough and know I'm supposed to be making this quick all the while... Then realized what I was doing. And just used the original arrow symbol. I think we might actually just have OCD. Suddenly being aware of our inability to not be "perfectionist"/obeying pedantic urges for five seconds made me realize just how pervasive, and invasive, it really is. Oh yeah, and the southeast arrow having a blue background I can't get rid of when the northeast didn't was just some cosmic irony.

late 1800s england clothes go to the ball be in jojo's bizarre adventure part 1 simmie as a gangster in streets of late 1800s london

Quick TB! Think of an interesting outfit idea for me! 😄😁💚 (Virtually trying on outfits again 😁)

that was art tewi and everyone thinks they're better than me with their arrows with two exhausts

Oh, we're throwing hearts at people? Excuse my brain while it tries to figure out what funny and unique way I can do this because simply copying what you guys did isn't enough, think about literally animating something in Blender, then give up and hit enter four times to explain how five seconds after my last post I'm already exemplifying our problem. I guess it really might just be multiple different ways that one overarching OCD problem manifests, because we really do have a lot of OCD-like thoughts/feelings that touch all parts of our life, but it just feels like they're too different to call all one problem. Micromanaging pointless instances of cleanliness vs. having things placed in such a fashion, lining up, presentable/micro-ly more efficient for others etc. vs trying to say things "perfectly"(as in as best we can) vs. spending way too much time on miniscule steps of creative tasks (to the point we can't even begin drawing, crippled before even starting) vs. always wanting everyone to understand each other, and going to the point of knowing we're annoying people for the sake of making sure we understand in the same way (even if, by that point, they care way less than they do that we're being annoying). None of them seem the same in our brain, but I guess when you write them all out, they are all "Chasing instances of unreasonable ideas of perfection that logically and practically are not nearly as valuable as our brain insists they are" - which, I think, is what OCD is often described as. ... Anyways, yeah, 💜 => everyone

oh thank you simmie and shaula they give heart too rena💙->everyone byakko💛->everyone wait byakko and rena's hearts are my state's colors this wasn't on purpose wtf 😭 for some reason this has incited the NFL theme to start playing in my head

💚 => Rena 💚 => Byakko I didn't want Byakko to be left out! ☺️

I'm sure a lot of people experience perfectionism as never liking what they made either, but that's not us. We do like everything we make, but that's because we can't help but "do each aspect as well as we ""reasonably"" can before moving on" as I mentioned. I think most things we've ever made in Blender were better than what 99% of other people made at the exact same level of experience/knowledge as us - but that becomes pointless when you consider those people, getting three times as much practice in by not stressing about it as much as us, pass our "exact level of experience/knowledge" VERY quickly. Meaning, we're always proud about what we've done because at our experience/knowledge it is very impressive, but in actual time, we're being extremely inefficient and just burning ourselves out with how perfectionist we are, especially when we don't have an abundance of motivation to make up for it. (Highly motivated perfectionists both make amazing things and progress quickly - but, they still rack up tons of stress in the process and are very susceptible to burnout) So in a "Look at the first five things we ever made!" sort of way we are very impressive, but in an "Overall accomplishment" taking all factors into account way, we're in a very low percentile, only above people who actually quit or who just really struggle learning. Just to be clear that I'm not bragging - anyone's first project ever could be more impressive than 99.9% of others' if instead of 2 hours they spend 2 months on it. But in practice, the people who made "so-so" or even "not good" things and then moved on, spending those 2 months continuing to learn efficiently by simply doing, will actually be able to make something much better after 2 months than the person who just spent 2 months on their first project. (In a perfectionist way, obviously there are contexts where a project can be so large you really do spend the time learning many things on "just" your first project, but that's not what I mean) ... And to be clear, the perfectionism isn't a logical choice we're making, it's basically a type of OCD. I don't think it's impossible to theoretically fight, but it is how our brain automatically works.

Aww! Thank you! I'll do the same! 😊 (At least for the people online.) 💜=> Simmie and Chloe 💜=> Ice (and his system) 💜=> Tewi (and her system) 💜=> Rena, TB, and Byakko (Definitely not throwing real hearts, that would just be gross, lol.)

rena wants a heart says she and awww, i was about to brush up on my mortal kombat skills before you said that last line

I advocate throwing hearts at people, like this: 💚=> TB 💚=> Shaula 💚=> Tewi 💚=> Ice Anyone else want a heart? (Needless to say I don't advocate for throwing literal hearts at people 😄)

i don't advocate throwing pebbles at tewi, i just do what i gotta do

I don't advocate throwing rocks at any forum member 😄 But let's throw rocks at their insecurities 🪨😁

Lol, I think we all knew that's what he meant. 😁 Especially when your stuff is so good! 😊

pebbles are more appropriate of an object to throw at tewi if you want to mind her bunny stature

Good Ice morning By "throw rocks at the dam" I specifically meant telling us we shouldn't worry about being perfect, to be clear - don't throw metaphorical rocks at us :P

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Oh! I did see that! 😊 I had just forgotten. Sorry to bring that back to your mind though. I'm glad you're still trying to be productive. Nightfall: do note that Shaula will take this to heart.

You are free to throw rocks at the dam as long as you want to, it probably won't do anything, but it's not impossible, and is good intent. This would be a painful thing to acknowledge and respond to if a family friend hadn't literally died and caused us to make a tribute to them a few months ago: LOTPW post #182,695 (LOTPW posts are linking ahead a page of where they should for us right now, so, find #182,695) But yeah, that extreme circumstance aside, we really haven't worked on and completed anything in a very long time. To be fair the last year we've done about a hundred C++ lessons which is where any real times we felt up to being productive went, but to be clear, if we were working on them a little every day that much progress should've taken 3 months at most. So it's not like we couldn't easily have been working on Blender too (or at least going way, way faster through said C++ course) But yeah, productivity stuff is stalled now as we don't believe we can make real progress on our own anymore and are very slowly getting to the last ~medical things we can find to try, so the glacial pace has turned into absolute zero. Which isn't really all that different from glacial pace, since if (for miraculous example) we found out we have severe sleep apnea and getting a CPAP suddenly totally fixed us, we could make a year's worth of progress by simply working for a few hours consistently every day for a month. Hence our not being motivated to keep trying to scrape by the tiny bit we can do right now.

It really sucks when your own brain works against you. I just hope you can find something to help, Tewi. Yeah, I actually haven't seen anything you have made before.

yeah. easier said than done but i don't think anyone cares if it is perfect or not it's always really cool to see any of you make something and we haven't in a long time. not sure shaula ever has you see how sloppy my contribution was but it still touched people it seems though i know it isn't so simple to just turn that off but maybe hearing it helps a little idk. for future reference

I only have one nitpick with this and that's the word usage of sentience. You should be going for sapience instead which is the full cognitive ability. Insects are sentient, humans are sapient. (Hence why we're named homo sapiens) So unless you want to create something with the mental awareness of a butterfly, you probably should clarify that.