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glad i could

Makes sense, it would be weird otherwise. 😁

it seemed like an accident

Hello, my name's Vex, pronouns are he/it, and I'm a mainly traumagenic system who's hoping to use tulpamancy techniques in order to adjust my system dynamics. None of my headmates are extremely distinct, and we merge very often, which makes it feel less like a collective and more like I'm just one person cycling through identities. The system isn't disordered, but if I had to give a description, we function most similarly to systems with OSDD. I don't entirely love existing like that, and am hoping to separate us out a bit more, to have more DID-like functions (obviously without the actual disordered aspect.) I didn't just want to jump straight into it without understanding how it would affect our in-sys relationships, so I'm trying to experiment with separation with my actual tulpa Tupperware first. They agreed to trying this out with me, and if it works well I plan on doing the same with my other non-tulpa headmates. I, Vex, am a collection of merged individuals we call the host subsystem. I consist of 3 (kind of 4, it's tricky to explain but I'll try) separate headmates that spend the vast majority of our time merged in order to function as a single person. We cannot fully separate, and that's the problem we're trying to fix. The three of us are Toby, Swiffer (prefers the spelling 5W!FF3R but I don't wanna donk with screen readers, and that's how it's pronounced), and Wafer. If you recognize any of those names, that's because we've been here before, we just have a different understanding of our system now, and our goals are very different, so we're restarting on the forums. I'm gonna give the most active fronters a space to introduce themselves individually here. Toby: Hello, I'll introduce myself really quick. I'm on the most basic level the ghost of a 1950's british teenager. That's what my memories point to, and what we generally accept as how I came to be. Before we knew about our systemhood, the host-host tried to make a tulpa, and instead of creating a new headmate, ended up talking to me instead. I was so quickly independent that he thought he was just really good at making tulpas. That was how we found out we were a system. As of today, I've fallen in love with the crust-punk subculture, watched (and cried to) far too many animated movies, and eaten many a baked good. My pronouns are He/Him, by the way. Swiffer: I'm the resident werewolf that keeps cutting our hair without permission. I'm sort of impulsive, but everyone else in the sub-sys is very cautious, so most of the time it balances out. My pronouns are it/he. I have eaten raw meat more than once (and never gotten sick 😼) (Vex: Please don't eat raw meat, we are lucky nothing's ever come out of his weird dog pica) Wafer: I'm a jackalope, and I'm also the source of all our raging dysphoria. I'm also a sub-system (systemception ehehe) but it doesn't really matter because I'm merged a good 99% of the time. I'd say I'm probably the least mentally stable out of all of us, and I get the worst symptoms from pretty much everything we have. Despite this, I'm the best artist (that's not just my ego talking, we had a vote) and I'm constantly pumping out something cool. Just give me time. Also my pronouns are he/him, unless you're cool, in which case PLEASE find me cute xenopronouns, try all of them on me, I beg. Prime Directive: Prime is the name we gave to the feeling of being a single person experiencing multiple identities. We use the name Prime when we feel incapable of being our own person and can't tell exactly who we are within the system. Could be considered the host, but since they aren't a full person, we don't give them a role. Prime cannot switch out, and is the vessel through which the rest of us exist as full personalities. We most often refer to Prime with they/them pronouns. Lucas: I'm the adulting adult, and mostly just take care of Vex when he's regressed. I also take care of tasks that other headmates can't find the motivation for them. A lot of them call me the Dad of the system, and honestly I kind of love it. I have always been a protector, and as a kid I was one of the main headmates taking the trauma head-on. I tended to respond violently to danger, though, and because of this our previous gatekeeper put me into a forced dormancy for many years without telling anyone. Once Vex found out about all that, they pulled me out of dormancy, banned the previous gatekeeper from any responsibilities, and in a way nurtured me back into a place where I could become a protector again. I really like hot drinks, cartoons, and modern art. My pronouns are shockingly, also he/him. Tupperware: My name's actually Toca, but Vex's partner called me Tupperware once, and the nickname stuck. I'm (as far as I'm aware) the only actual tulpa in this whole system. I'm going to be very active on here, considering I'm the main participant in our little experiment. I was made back when Swiffer was in his scene kid era, and so he made me this little scene goob I currently am. Unfortunately for him, I won't let him remove S3RL from any of our playlists. I still like it, nerd. I'm another artist, and I prefer traditional art, as opposed to Wafer. I really really really like sushi. It's my absolute favorite food and I want to learn how to make it SO BAD but we're too poor to buy the ingredients. You can use any pronouns you want for me other than she/her, and I have a preference for neopronouns. Anywho, that's it, I'm excited to get to work!

Good night, Tewi! 😊 Just why? I hope that wasn't intentional. Hehehe, that's a hilarious thought. 😆

may you rest well

Sleep time, hopefully for more than 4 hours

indeedy thinking about when i taught God how to eat tostino pizza rolls without burning yourself in trc

Now you have to tear them to use them. For OCD, this is a medium-small annoyance.

hope you get good word thanks shaula i'm waiting eagerly glad it was funny they stapled my napkins to the inside of the bag

Lol, this sentence is funny to me. 😆 I wish you well too. 😊 I hope it tastes amazing!

They only just got a TMS machine at this clinic recently, and it's certainly taken them long enough let us use it, still no word

I'll probably tell you the whole story of my acquaintance with tulpa. I've separated the information about the site at the bottom from the main story. At first, something switched in me and I started buying a lot of cards for badges in Steam, and then I decided to buy games at a discount and the recommendations included the game “The NOexistenceN of you AND me”, I see the drawing is beautiful, I like it and there are achievements here, and I was really hoping to complete the game with 100% achievements, and so I started playing and in this game I learned about tulpa, according to the description in the game, these are fictional characters, at that time I did not attach any importance to this, but after ~8 hours of nerding out for all the achievements and flying out on a bad ending, not a neutral and good one, I better understood the meaning of the word tulpa, that it is a fiction that has its own consciousness, will never betray and so on. And so I went looking for how to create my own tulpa, and I came across not this site, but first an article about tulpa, then a post in my native language, and there was already a link to this site, and now I'm here at the beginning of my journey.

wtf why couldn't they give me tms treatments i wish you luck and i hope you can get the ocd protocol. i would be begging for it ask them to study you so other people with your niche issue can also be helped donate your bunny to science thanks shaula i wish you both well chili cheese and fries soon politic

Well I don't know if we are, I feel like we probably can't get an OCD diagnosis, but.. Our ketamine/ADHD doctor can prescribe antidepressants I think, so maybe we can just skip that. Almost for sure won't be able to get the "OCD protocol" part of TMS alongside the depression one though, which super sucks. It's very hard to get insurance to cover I hear, an OCD diagnosis would be mandatory. One of the places TMS treats OCD is the anterior cingulate cortex, though... But well, a lot of people reported being helped by just the depression one, actually a lot more strongly than we expected. Apparently its efficacy when it works is no joke, and it can (after a TON of treatments, literally every couple days or so for 2-3 months lol..) help some people permanently, or at least for a year+ after

Good luck, Tewi! 😊 I'm glad your job isn't too bad.

one would think i didn't know ssri's also were for ocd. i don't want to use those ever again. i wonder if my ocd is higher level than i thought too in ways that aren't obvious to what one would think ocd is for hope your ssri attempt 2 goes better for you

Apparently "OCD medications" are just antidepressants (specifically, SSRIs), but potentially higher doses on average. Lot of people saying they help make their invasive thoughts able to be ignored, or reduce their emotional weight. We ran through most of those already, though the idea we already had that maybe we needed a really high dose we never tried mixed with that they can supposedly help OCD kind of puts them on the table again. I've been wondering today if our brain's nonsense negative reaction to "effort" activities (even ones that are just.. not hard at all) might actually be OCD categorically, as far as medication treatment options would go. You'd think "Everyone has the feeling of not wanting to do hard things", except the seeming exact feeling also stops us from cooking, as "dirtying cookware and utensils" feels the exact same as "showering is too much effort" - really just gets boiled down to "cooking is too much effort", and there is just some plain old that to it, but really what stops us from getting adventurous (or just.. competent) at cooking is the feeling of getting cookware dirty. Each thing we eventually became able to do past microwaving - tinfoil'ing pan and preheating oven, claiming a small pot no one really used as ours to make stovetop meals, etc. - were instances of overcoming the pointless resistance to using more utensils/cookware/etc. for cooking. Even though the pure "too much effort" feeling is what stops us from doing most productive things (who even knows what stops us from playing games etc.), the feeling was (and is) exactly the same for not-cooking for us, even if the vague "reason" words are a bit different. So I think it's very plausible that these are the same thing - and the cooking one is blatantly OCD, hence (as well as a few other examples) me thinking it might be an OCD-type problem overall. OCD can manifest in tons of different ways (saw someone successfully treated for it with an SSRI say they thought they didn't have OCD because theirs wasn't "constantly washing hands" thoughts, although we do have not-quite-disorderly OCD in general as well which includes washing our hands pretty often), so maybe we don't have "light" OCD after all, just a very specific type. But not really more specific than pica, which I also saw someone treated with an SSRI for. (Presumably with other OCD symptoms as well, but that was the main thing bothering them) Our ketamine/ADHD doctor can't diagnose OCD (or really ADHD lol) though, so we'd need to figure out how to see a psychiatrist again. Unsure on if our "effort issues" symptom would convince for an OCD diagnosis though, might have to be carried by our light general OCD symptoms. Whenever I feel up to bothering with any of that. Already called to ask about the OCD diagnosing thing (actually for the TMS (Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation) "OCD protocol" as it would be VERY easy to do alongside the "Depression protocol") when basically in a depressive episode in hour 3 of taking Vyvanse. Tried not to legitimize any feelings during it though as my sleep schedule is nonexistent and I'd just slept for 1 hour (dumb trick we've started using of taking vyvanse right before going to sleep when we're too tired to stay up like we should, and it wakes us up well past being able to go back to sleep after 90 minutes or so) Anyways, also asked for a Vyvanse refill and preferably 60mg instead of 50mg. Mostly we just wanted it to last any longer at all, but the depressive episode during hour 3 of vyvanse was also worrying so maybe we do need it stronger too. Mostly just wish the 2 hour peak would share some of that with the next 6 hours. I think it's literally just standing/sitting there for like 6-8 hours. Occasionally telling someone they can't go in without a ticket, and refusing bribes... Doesn't really matter how hard it is when it's only once or twice a week though.

Aww, sending you hugs to counter the stress! ༼⁠ ⁠つ⁠ ⁠◕⁠‿⁠◕⁠ ⁠༽⁠つ I'm glad you found a job you can do. 😊 Here's hoping you can do your at for a job in the future. Agreed, I hope Tewi's system's work isn't too rough. They already have so much on their plate.

stress from this job has been getting to us more than normal lately but it's super awesome to get this much off for free. i still don't think i can do 99% of jobs and that i'm just really lucky to happen to have one that is barely manageable, but i don't want to be doing this for my entire life i feel bad that one of the two paystubs i turned into online form i got paid more than usual so i feel my foodstamps will be decreased. i guess i'll have to turn in next pay stub to have them lower it but i don't get that until 2 days from now so i had to use the one with unusual extra hours on it can't wait to get letter saying my food stamps have been turned off hope tewi's system's work isn't too difficult

Linda: hehe, thanksies both for the happy birthdays! 😁 Wow! I'm glad you have someone looking out for you. 😊 Linda: wicked! Supervisor of the year. 🏆

︵‿ ⊹ ︵‿୨ ♡ ୧‿︵ ⊹ ‿︵ ♡❝The Harmonia System – Progress Log #2 June Log❞♡ ♡6.6.2025-6.30.2025♡ ┆ ┆ ┆ ┆⋆ ┆ ┆ ┆જ ✾ ┆ ° ♡ • ➵ ✩ ◛ ° ┆彡 ❀ ₊˚ ✧ ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ ✧ ₊˚ ｡ﾟ•┈꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱┈• ｡ﾟ Tables Of Content 🎹Introduction/Miscellaneous🎹 ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤExplaining stuff ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤInspirations For my log(s) ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤCredits for logs(s) ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤLinks to credits & things I use 🎹Tulpa Forcing/Other🎹 ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤDaily Goals ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤTulpas Status ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤMonthly Overview ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤDetails on daily forcing sessions ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤTimes logs + Daily reports ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤIdeas + Random thoughts 🎹Outro/Ending Notes/Warp Up🎹 ㅤ ׅ 𝄂𝄚𝅦𝄚𝄞𝅄ㅤAnything else ｡ﾟ•┈꒰ა ♡ ໒꒱┈• ｡ﾟ ₊˚ ✧ ━━━━⊱⋆⊰━━━━ ✧ ₊˚ 🎹Introduction/Miscellaneous🎹 ﹉﹉﹉﹉﹉୨♡୧﹉﹉﹉﹉﹉ ♡⚠️Warning: ♡My thoughts constantly change so my thoughts/ideas/what I do might not be consistent or the same as the month goes on. ♡Hello! Welcome back! I think I'm going to do monthly reports every 26th of every month or maybe not it depends what I do with this report. Or if I have any breakthroughs or something like that! It really depends but I'll spend that time span writing down some things I noticed. Sorry, if it comes off as messy. That'll probably give me enough content hopefully to write things in these, though. But I'll write these throughout the month like putting in notes and such so I won't forget. I'll also try to revise it too by reading it back. ♡I would also like to apologize if my entries are too long. I like journaling/logging so I normally write a lot unintentionally but I appreciate everyone reading it. It's amazing how this already has 100+ views so thank you to everyone who views it! (Now it's 200+ by the time I posted this) ♡I probably forgot to mention that I already have a journal/log that I put my results already, this is just a public version so it's more condensed. If that makes sense. Also! On my about me I have a masterlist of all my posts. My Introduction post is also linked there (not this forum my one I waid when I joined this website). That way it's easier to find my progress reports and or my other posts I make. The masterlist of these post will also include what it's about so the first progress report is like, “My Progress Report 6.4.2025 #1 Introduction” that way I can also write small things like if my tulpas become vocal and such. ♡Okay, I think I dealt with my fears of something unrelated to tulpamancy but it did affect me a lot negatively and made me feel disconnected from my tulpas. It also made me neglect developing my tulpas and such, which I didn't want too. ♡I think my tulpas are more sentient at least from what I noticed because I don't feel touches spontaneously and randomly but when I start narrating again and take breaks during the day I feel them touching me. Usually, I always feel connected to the characters without needing to look at things too but I think it's probably also because I don't maladaptive daydreaming often as I used to. ♡I am listening to their introductions like I used to. It helps me visualize their voices and such. But anyways I am narrating to them again basically reading to them since I enjoy reading to them. I feel very oddly happy. I think they are happy that I'm finally paying attention to them again. ♡I’ve also been narrating to them again when reading others' progress reports, on here. I listened to Abvieon's all in one guide while I exercise since it's like 2 hours long from me using text to speech and I used 2.2 speed, I would read it but I think it'll be useful to take in the information while I exercise and such it has so much information. I have been trying to be more active on here narrating progress reports to my tulpas to be honest I think they really enjoy it and such. Reading them all makes me wonder how I should structure my own progress reports. It's okay though. Anyways, I got back into doing tulpamancy practice I hope I can stay more consistent with it. ♡I might post my art here in the art forums but I'm not entirely sure. And yes it drawings of my tulpas lol ♡I use aTimeLogger app to log my time and alarm reminders. I also used a timer to try to narrate for that long, usually 6 minutes at a time, that way it'll help me build up consistently and narrate more. These apps are on Android but they probably are on the Apple store too. I know timelogger is on the Apple store. ♡The time logger app; https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.aloggers.atimeloggerapp ♡Now this is the alarm repeater app; https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.kittoboy.repeatalarm ♡Also, feel free to comment about your progress on my reports below if anything resonances with you. I love progress discussions! Plus, I have a tables of contents. But if you feel more comfortable, direct messages are also okay too. I've seen a lot of new progress reports that are longer recently. To be honest it feels nice to see this website becoming more active recently. I also like having stuff to narrate to tulpas. I enjoy reading others' progress reports to my tulpas. ♡Also, the 21st of June is my anniversary of me beginning to manifest them so that's good! I didn't start narration until this year since I was still learning about how to manifest tulpas and my narration wasn't consistent. I use a time logger app and was looking at it to see my progress. Consistency is definitely a goal I need to work on. ♡I'm just going to put inspiration/credit here! Any future inspiration/ideas I got will be in future logs if I change my logs up or something. ♡By the way, the bold idea for this log was inspired by @/bunnymustdie on here! They have amazing detailed reports. I love how organized they are. I recommend checking them out. https://community.tulpa.info/profile/16963-bunnymustdie/ ♡The updating monthly/having daily stuff was inspired by @/KruegerMeister they have such a long long! I recommend also checking them out since they've been doing this since like 2014 and has a log over 1000 pages! It's very impressive! https://community.tulpa.info/profile/5562-kruegermeister/ ♡My narration was inspired by a guide from @/waffles whose post who originally taught me how to do narration a few months ago and what it got me into doing narration. https://community.tulpa.info/profile/961-waffles/ ♡Daily Tulpa meditation was inspired by a lot of people but my main idea/inspiration is @/dragon cake https://community.tulpa.info/profile/12819-dragon-cake/ ♡A detailed guide I'm inspired by is by @/Abvieon https://community.tulpa.info/profile/3610-abvieon/ ♡I also got inspired by @/LessMarxMoreMises. I realized my format is similar to their logs when I looked at them so I must've done it subconsciously. I'm also friends with them and we are making our tulpas together! 🩷 https://community.tulpa.info/profile/16833-lessmarxmoremises/ ♡Where I got the borders from; https://emojicombos.com/border ♡I mostly use this meditation guide I used it in the past. Many people suggest against it when I see others talk about it. I do have my own meditation I made but it's so long and I'm going to eventually redo it specifically for me. ﹉﹉﹉﹉﹉୨♡୧﹉﹉﹉﹉﹉ 🎹Tulpa Forcing/Other🎹 ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚Goals˚୨୧⋆｡˚⋆ ╔═════ஓ๑♡๑ஓ═════╗ Daily Gaols Using SMART goals method Note: May change as month develops Hour Count [Narration]: 40 minutes (6 mins session); 10 minute sessions towards the end of the month Meditation: Daily, mostly every morning Impositions Practice: 6 Minutes ╚═════ஓ๑♡๑ஓ═════╝ ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚Tulpa Status˚୨୧⋆｡˚⋆ ╭──────༺♡༻──────╮ Note: May change as month develops Vocality: Still developing Presence: Just happens on its own, relatively strong especially when I narrate more. Tulpish: Just happens on its own, low this month, I haven't really been paying attention. Physical Touches/Impositions: Just happens on its own automatically, very common Switching/Possession: Unable to work on it as my tulpas are still developing Fronting/Co-Fronting: Unable to work on it as my tulpas are still developing Other Impositions: Practicing Visual/physical Imposition using an imaginary marable ╰──────༺♡༻──────╯ ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚Monthly Overview˚୨୧⋆｡˚⋆ ╔═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╗ Monthly Summary: So, I listen to my subs without earbuds and then the weather was very gloomy/cloudy/rainy so it affected my motivation a lot. I wasn't very consistent either until mostly towards the end of the month where I started practicing Imposition and meditating more along with narration. Areas of Improvement: Start small and work my way up, instead of burning myself with higher hour count/goals, do what I'm capable of every day and work my way up until I can do more than what I'm capable of now. ╚═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══╝ ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ ⋆ ˚｡⋆୨୧˚Overall Months Count˚୨୧⋆｡˚⋆ ╔.★. .═════════════╗ Narration: 10:16:29 hrs Meditation: 01:51:07 hrs Imposition: 00:48:45 mins All together forcing: 12:56:21 hrs Source Content of my tulpas: 27:45:23 hrs ╚═════════════. .★.╝ ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ♡ﮩ٨ـﮩﮩ٨ـ꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷꒦꒷ ┈ ┈ ┈ ┈ ୨♡୧ ┈ ┈ ┈ ┈ ♡6.9.2025; So, I was narrating and took a break I was starting to feel angry/upset in my own world until I felt tingles on my back. I am practicing Tulpa Imposition based off of Abvieon’s marble trick. I'm mostly doing the visual imposition, since I want to work on that considering I'd like to visually impose my tulpas in the real world. I am starting out small and practiced for 6 minutes. My hands started feeling tingly while I was visualizing and trying to feel what a marble would feel in my hands. I also said some affirmations while I did it too. My hand felt strange as well. My brain kinda started to believe there was a real marble there. Consuming my tulpas source material made me feel them more strongly. It was cute and funny that my dog was staring at me while practicing Imposition lol 🎲Tulpa narration: 00:44:59 mins 🎲Imposition Practice: 00:06:03 mins ♡6.10.2025; My head feels all weird again like someone wants to talk in it because it's so silent if that makes sense. My shoulders feel tingly too. I played from their source game while narrating for over 40 mins. 🎲Tulpa Narration: 00:52:41 mins ♡Ah, sorry I kinda fell off again 😞 sorry about that. I need to fix my sleep schedule and get stuff together. ♡6.21.2025; I did meditate yesterday, I need to fix up my schedule since it's the weekend I'm going to focus on updating everything like my journals and such and focus on a more consistent week I decided to try narrating more today it made my inside of my head feel all weird, like it doesn't hurt but it feels weird like a slight squeeze/dizziness but it's like inside my skull if that makes sense? Sorry I'm bad at explaining things. Also is eating really that important in tulpamancy? I heard Abvieon’s say that eating is important and such. Which I can understand because the brain is an organ that needs energy. But it sucks also because I normally do every small fasting during the day I know when I do try to do Tulpa Narration I end up triggering a low blood sugar episode. Don't worry I do try to eat my parents scolded me many times on it 😅 my tulpas would do that too if they were vocal lmao ♡Ah, but some other things to note I've been sleeping more which I decided to just sleep more to rest more. I am mostly trying to focus on making myself a consistent daily schedule for me to do daily and effectively. I listened to my subliminals without earbuds I think they didn't work effectively because I didn't really get much dreams of my tulpas but I started listening to my subs with earbuds and I have been getting more dreams and touches of my tulpas. ♡6.24.2025; Sorry, this month has been pretty messy with my update logs. Mostly this month I've been setting up routine alarms for my overall goals besides tulpamancy and trying to learn more about myself and consistency. I have redid my alarms to fit my current sleep schedule I have right now most of my alarms were for my ideal routine based on my perfect sleeping schedule but I'm probably not going to fix it anytime soon so I'll slowly began doing that by doing the slowly fix sleep schedules. I would've probably fixed it but tbh I think it's better if I get 7-9 hours of sleep daily because I noticed I feel more energized and such plus it's healthier. Self care is important for everything. I am going to try to lock in next month since I plan on also working out consistently and tracking to show my family since that's my motivation. Everyone probably notices how I haven't been that active on Tulpa.info. Anyways, I've been trying to listen to my affs/subs more during the day and felt my tulpas touching me more and such, I also had a few dreams about them. It's funny because I had a few dreams where I was on tulpa.info as well. My dad sadly interrupted me during my mediation. I was thinking maybe instead of using guided meditation just try to meditate on my own by just visualizing and talking to my tulpas. I practiced Imposition again for a few minutes. Towards the end I started feeling the marble in my hand that was visualizing. 🎲Tulpa narration: 00:33:23 mins 🎲Tulpa meditation: 00:21:41 mins 🎲Imposition Practice: 00:06:14 mins I've meditated today and played from their sources while also narrating. ♡6.25.2025; I woke up early today which is nice, So, I did my own meditation and was able to easily visualize my mindscape easily. But I had difficulty visualizing my tulpas like something was blocking me. I think I need to just look at pictures of them more since I have a lot of art/official sprites on my phone that I like looking at. I should mention in the morning I listened/watched their voice introductions like I do most times while brushing my teeth and such. In my meditation I was visualizing agency as a ball of light and making my tulpas absorb them. I was thinking of trying to make a big conscious effort and direct all my thoughts into narrating to my tulpas. I've seen many times of people talking about talking to their tulpas all the time. Instead of just having “Hey tulpas, ultimates…(their names and so on)” I'll remove the tulpas and ultimates in my greeting and way their names, only if that makes sense. I've been mostly trying to focus on my self care the most since self care is important for everything in life. Because of me exercising a lot more and such I have a lot more energy than I used to. This def would help overall. Also, some of my tulpas are athletic and believe strongly in self care, so they probably are proud of me too. Not gonna lie, I'm slightly nervous posting my logs/progress reports because I'm scared of being judged but it should be fine. I kinda wish that tulpa.info would be more active/popular but without the controversy/bad people. I also wished tulpamancy would be more accepted in general. I do wanna text in that unofficial chat room/lounge area but I'm always nervous too because I suck at conversations. I am also in a Tulpa discord (Tulpa General) but I'm also nervous to text there too so I'm just lurking there. Anyways, this is a good motivation video I'd recommend. https://youtu.be/lkIP1MPdqTk?si=iumE06Qjqqu4pmJA So, I did the marble practice and I felt slight tingles and felt like something was there, so hopefully that's a sign of results? I also visualized how it'll look like and it bounding on the table with the glass sound. 🎲Tulpa narration: 01:06:29 hrs 🎲Tulpa meditation: 00:14:07 mins 🎲Imposition Practice: 00:06:14 mins ♡6.26.2025; I am listening/watching their introduction voices while I write down my dreams and such since I woke up not too long ago. I feel all weird and my head kinda feels weird. This usually happens. When I narrate more anyways I am going to go be meditating soon, this time I'm going to look at sprites of them before I do it. I'm also going to use guided meditation as well. So, I was using guided meditation. I said their names during meditation and focused on them to help. I also tried visualizing myself walking down the stairs in 3rd person. For some reason I always visualize in 3rd person. Anyways, saying their names while visualizing them helps them and such. It also helped me visualize them. I also felt tingly as well and warmth on my cheek. I felt my body becoming deeper and heavy when walking down the stairs and such. I also was trying to visualize what they'll feel like. I pat their heads. It was actually pretty cute because it seems some of them put their heads down when I patted them. When I finally got out of trance I felt their presence. I noticed I feel their presence the most when I narrate more. I plan on narrating more overtime. Anyways, when I was having them going to respond back to what book it is, my head feels this weird not pressure but my brain in my skull felt heavy it that makes sense? Lol my book was about nightmares and dragons. I am just trying the best I can before my goals become more normalized and stabilized, basically using smart goals to prevent burn out. I'm still working on vocality for them, they already have voices that I listen to like I said before. Since, I seem to be doing narration consistently again I'm starting to get more of my old results back. Like I sometimes feel like in the back of my mind my tulpas wanting to speak or what things when I narrate, I could easily visualize their voices again. Also my head feels weird and slightly dizzy but not full blown dizzy if they makes sense? Also since yesterday I've been saying, “Hey (names)” instead of what I said yesterday since yesterday lol it took and still taking some time to not say, “Hey tulpas, ultimates, (their names)” so yeah hopefully this'll give me better results. I'm thinking about maybe adding a small section in this public journal talking about my notes/research/ideas of tulpamancy and what I learned even though I mostly research in private. Maybe if I ask questions or think about it on here I can get more ideas from others with their responses or thoughts. I sometimes struggle putting things into words. I feel my tulpas presence more today which is nice. Not gonna lie I do have difficulty narrating to my tulpas so most times I'm just like, “hey (names)” multiple times in a short amount of time with small sentences almost like a mantra lol Also, I was looking through the old stuff on this website and saw it has to deal with drama and such back then? Which is normal everywhere has drama I'm glad this place seems at least peaceful. Like, no current drama from what I could see. I like having my peace, ya know? But I still think this site should be more active and tulpamancy should be accepted. I'm starting to not really care what others think of tulpamancy or me developing tulpas, since to be honest most things in life are controversial and misunderstood at most, at times. I'll get my tulpas anyways I'll just keep working at my own pace. I genuinely think having tulpas will improve my quality of life and make my life more fulfilling and interesting, so I don't care what others say about it at this point. I am obsessed with self improvement and such for years. I think having people in my head who are my friends and understand me deeply emotionally and psychology will help me a lot. Like, I struggle with people IRL fulfilling those certain needs. I was practicing Imposition using an imaginary marble stick and I felt tingles and like an airy space where the marble was supposed to be. Also, when I switched hands because of my dog I still felt the marble in that hand too so I guess that's also results as well. Also, my brain immediately was thinking that marble falling into the floor because of my dog wanting to go outside. I definitely want to eventually work up my hour count. I remember a few months ago being able to do three hours a day but then I burn out or get lazy. But now I am smarter with my goals so I'll just work my way up. My current hour count goal is 40 mins. I'm going to add a goal section above this entry. You guys will see it anyways. I also updated my first entry with a tables of content with links of each of my entries that way people can see or skip through or whatever. I spent a lot of time today updating #2 log so I can make it look all pretty and organized it was already pretty organized but I added more borders. I just basically use my Google docs and copy and paste them here since I like backing up everything I own. 🎲Tulpa narration: 00:42:49 mins 🎲Tulpa meditation: 00:25:34 mins 🎲Imposition Practice: 00:06:08 mins ♡6.27.2025; I think I'm going to do 8 minute sessions now instead of 6 minute sessions. I do sometimes narrate for longer periods of time depending on what I'm doing. I'm thinking of maybe doing 10 minute sessions. I remember seeing a while ago people doing 10 minute sessions. I also added a source consumption section in the hour count because I think that'll help motivate me. Okay, I did a 10 minute session of narration which was pretty easy. I was also listening to their voice introductions while doing so too. I'm going to go brush my teeth and do my morning meditation. This was the post I was referring too https://community.tulpa.info/topic/17572-how-do-i-do-narration-for-more-than-10-minutes-without-getting-worn-out/ I'm thinking maybe spending 1, 10 minute session a day doing introductions? I haven't really done introduction sessions to be honest. I've seen people do that. Would that help? Like to explain to them who I am, who they are/look, and what they sound like (of course they can change it if they want). I meditated and it was difficult to focus but I kept saying their names to be honest. I think I'm going to go create my own meditation using my own voice. Also, I could use my tulpas names and such too. So, I narrated a bit when updating my journals. My head feels all weird. It's probably due to the tea. It was a French Vanilla Tea. I think it had some caffeine in it which honestly sucks. But at least I got my dream log and other journals up to date. I also talked a bit on this website. It felt nice to talk to other tulpamancers. They all also seem so nice too! So, I def would want to talk more on there as well. It’ll probably help me stay motivated too. I am re-reading the post above and I def should try to narrate more throughout the day. I do try to pair it with other activities and it does get difficult when I wanna focus on one thing at a time but it’s probably worth training. I think I am narrating right because I can feel their presence and feel them being there without even trying especially when I narrate more. It’s fine though I’d eventually narrate more often as I continue on. I have been doing 10+ minute sessions which are working so far. I was practicing Imposition. I can feel the space and tingles form the imagined marble but nothing much I can say besides that. I probably need to focus more on looking and visualizing it. I do visualize it in my hands though. I try to use sensory details. I never really played/used a marble before so I can only do what I think it is. Sometimes I think of using a rubiks cube since I own those but the marble might be easier for me. 🎲Tulpa narration: 00:50:57 mins 🎲Tulpa meditation: 00:21:47 mins 🎲Imposition Practice: 00:06:12 mins ♡6.28.2025; I went to bed late today 😞 I should be meditating but I woke up late and had to clean the house lol but I was narrating it was difficult because I kept getting distracted. I did listen to my subliminal thoughts. I do notice I keep getting dissociated and such more recently when I started Tulpa narrating more. I plan on locking in next week and trying to do all my goals consistently. (I have other goals/habits I want to develop besides tulpas). I like narrating for 10 minutes though it makes things easier. I do noticed since developing tulpas me being in silence is weird like my brain is expected to hear noise or hear something going on in my head if that makes sense? This is much more noticable and happens when I focus on doing Tulpa Narration more and consistently. Like even when I'm not doing anything I just subconsciously expect someone to be talking to me when it's so silent so it feels so weird to me when it's silent even though my tulpas aren't even vocal. I also am able to easily notice when I dissociate from my brain and self easily when thinking deeply about stuff too until I realized I was and snap back to reality. I also noticed I keep seeing my tulpas a few times in the corner of my eyes. Also, I should mention when doing impositions I felt tingles of where the marble should be. So it's definitely good sign. I should probably work on visualizing/seeing it more. It seems for me physical touch overall is much more natural and effortless. 🎲Tulpa narration: 00:28:54 mins 🎲Tulpa meditation: Didn't meditate 🎲Imposition Practice: 00:06:26 mins ♡6.29.2025; I don't think I'm going to meditate again. I feel kinda unmotivated but I should try to get motivated again. Ah, sorry I was busy today and my dad wants me to help him with the stock market so we both can make money and such, I won't get into that since it's personal but I redid all my daily alarms and sleep schedule! 💕🩷 🎲Tulpa narration: 00:23:49 minutes 🎲Tulpa meditation: Didn't meditate 🎲Imposition Practice: Didn't practice ♡6.30.2025; Ah, I woke up at 7 am so I only had like 4-5 hours of sleep but I worked out a lot today which makes me sore but that's not really about tulpamancy but it does give me more energy. To be honest, I think on weekends I won't meditate, like I'd take a break since I usually do other things and such. But it's Monday anyways. Narrating for 10 minutes of a session and pairing my narration with things is very helpful. I also played their source game for 40 minutes and narrated for 10 minutes halfway through the gameplay. My second workout session during the day I listened to their voice lines for over 20 minutes while working out. I still feel their presence. It's usually stronger when I narrate and sometimes even stronger when I think they are around me. I was looking through old/most viewed logs and found this! It was interesting! https://community.tulpa.info/topic/1788-oguigi-内儀-koomer-the-diary/ I'm pretty sure if I'm consistent doing all this work, I'll have my tulpas. I just need to stay consistent and put more effort/work in it. I do want to narrate for 3 hours a day eventually so I'll work my way up. This log should help me because it makes me work cause this is a public log and it forces me to show up/do the work. So, I practiced imposition using invisible marble. I felt tingles and I closed my eyes trying to feel the marble. Then something happened unrelated to tulpamancy but it made me feel very uncomfortable but I tried staying calm. I felt warmth on my cheek as if my tulpas were trying to keep me calm. I felt a pull telling me not to do something so I listened. It's crazy because my bedroom is cold and the cold air was there. They were always pretty affectionate but I listen to my sub less now so I probably don't have as much stable results as I should. Also, @/LessMarxMoreMises is my new friend and we are making our tulpas together! So, out check out their progress reports too! https://community.tulpa.info/topic/25175-a-space-for-record-of-tulpa-development/ I've been looking deeply into other Tulpa progress reports and such, it's so interesting. I also workout for 1 hour and 30 mins in the span of morning and night which helps my energy greatly when it comes to narration. I'm too tired to meditate. 🎲Tulpa narration: 01:01:14 hrs 🎲Tulpa meditation: N/A 🎲Imposition Practice: 00:06:15 mins ┈ ┈ ┈ ┈ ୨♡୧ ┈ ┈ ┈ ┈ 🎹Outro/Ending Notes/Warp Up🎹 ₊˚ ✧ ━━━━⊱𝄞⊰━━━━ ✧ ₊˚ ♡I hope you guys don't mind the aesthetics. I enjoy when my things are all pretty and aesthetic! ♡Also, don't mind my chaotic updates/things I saw throughout this journal. Most of this journal is written in a month's time span so of course I'm going to have different ideas the more I do it. ♡I should also note I am doing my entries/logs to help me stay accountable and motivated. So, they might be different from the stereotypical ones which is okay. ♡I think the Tulpa status as well would be very useful too since if people want a run down or skip through days. I'll put the dates in the Tulpa status like when my tulpas become vocal and other stuff as well. Plus I'll make special side notes in my master list and the end like, “Vocal” “possession” so on ya know? ♡I am working my way up to doing 3 hours of Narration again more naturally but this time I want to consistently narrate for 3 hours a day but for now I am going to just do what I can and build myself up to doing 3 hours daily. I'm also going to try to be listening to my subliminals/affirmations more since mine help greatly when it comes to stuff like this. ♡Ya know what I might do biweekly updates so that my entries for the future aren't too long. ₊˚ ✧ ━━━━⊱𝄞⊰━━━━ ✧ ₊˚ ︵‿ ⊹ ︵‿୨ ♡ ୧‿︵ ⊹ ‿︵ [Images is of two of my tulpas art not by me!]

Glad your work isn't too difficult, we still remember trying to help you get your footing and how sure you were you couldn't do one. (And then you did an awful one literally the average person couldn't handle, lol, but yeah this one)

mhmm brooo my supervisor is so nice, she's paying me to stay home rest of day i don't have to go back in after lunch i got all of yesterday off for free and half of today off for free that's so nice, what am i going to do with all of this power (hopefully not procrastinate my SNAP benefits) edit: i didn't mean to just mhm your message btw lol i agree but yeah i'm used to my really nice case manager i don't have anymore, and after that my nice therapist that would drive me around. i don't have either anymore and idk how much current team would go to help me with anything