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oh thank you simmie and shaula they give heart too rena💙->everyone byakko💛->everyone wait byakko and rena's hearts are my state's colors this wasn't on purpose wtf 😭 for some reason this has incited the NFL theme to start playing in my head

💚 => Rena 💚 => Byakko I didn't want Byakko to be left out! ☺️

I'm sure a lot of people experience perfectionism as never liking what they made either, but that's not us. We do like everything we make, but that's because we can't help but "do each aspect as well as we ""reasonably"" can before moving on" as I mentioned. I think most things we've ever made in Blender were better than what 99% of other people made at the exact same level of experience/knowledge as us - but that becomes pointless when you consider those people, getting three times as much practice in by not stressing about it as much as us, pass our "exact level of experience/knowledge" VERY quickly. Meaning, we're always proud about what we've done because at our experience/knowledge it is very impressive, but in actual time, we're being extremely inefficient and just burning ourselves out with how perfectionist we are, especially when we don't have an abundance of motivation to make up for it. (Highly motivated perfectionists both make amazing things and progress quickly - but, they still rack up tons of stress in the process and are very susceptible to burnout) So in a "Look at the first five things we ever made!" sort of way we are very impressive, but in an "Overall accomplishment" taking all factors into account way, we're in a very low percentile, only above people who actually quit or who just really struggle learning. Just to be clear that I'm not bragging - anyone's first project ever could be more impressive than 99.9% of others' if instead of 2 hours they spend 2 months on it. But in practice, the people who made "so-so" or even "not good" things and then moved on, spending those 2 months continuing to learn efficiently by simply doing, will actually be able to make something much better after 2 months than the person who just spent 2 months on their first project. (In a perfectionist way, obviously there are contexts where a project can be so large you really do spend the time learning many things on "just" your first project, but that's not what I mean) ... And to be clear, the perfectionism isn't a logical choice we're making, it's basically a type of OCD. I don't think it's impossible to theoretically fight, but it is how our brain automatically works.

Aww! Thank you! I'll do the same! 😊 (At least for the people online.) 💜=> Simmie and Chloe 💜=> Ice (and his system) 💜=> Tewi (and her system) 💜=> Rena, TB, and Byakko (Definitely not throwing real hearts, that would just be gross, lol.)

rena wants a heart says she and awww, i was about to brush up on my mortal kombat skills before you said that last line

I advocate throwing hearts at people, like this: 💚=> TB 💚=> Shaula 💚=> Tewi 💚=> Ice Anyone else want a heart? (Needless to say I don't advocate for throwing literal hearts at people 😄)

i don't advocate throwing pebbles at tewi, i just do what i gotta do

I don't advocate throwing rocks at any forum member 😄 But let's throw rocks at their insecurities 🪨😁

Lol, I think we all knew that's what he meant. 😁 Especially when your stuff is so good! 😊

pebbles are more appropriate of an object to throw at tewi if you want to mind her bunny stature

Good Ice morning By "throw rocks at the dam" I specifically meant telling us we shouldn't worry about being perfect, to be clear - don't throw metaphorical rocks at us :P

Black Coffee ☕

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Oh! I did see that! 😊 I had just forgotten. Sorry to bring that back to your mind though. I'm glad you're still trying to be productive. Nightfall: do note that Shaula will take this to heart.

You are free to throw rocks at the dam as long as you want to, it probably won't do anything, but it's not impossible, and is good intent. This would be a painful thing to acknowledge and respond to if a family friend hadn't literally died and caused us to make a tribute to them a few months ago: LOTPW post #182,695 (LOTPW posts are linking ahead a page of where they should for us right now, so, find #182,695) But yeah, that extreme circumstance aside, we really haven't worked on and completed anything in a very long time. To be fair the last year we've done about a hundred C++ lessons which is where any real times we felt up to being productive went, but to be clear, if we were working on them a little every day that much progress should've taken 3 months at most. So it's not like we couldn't easily have been working on Blender too (or at least going way, way faster through said C++ course) But yeah, productivity stuff is stalled now as we don't believe we can make real progress on our own anymore and are very slowly getting to the last ~medical things we can find to try, so the glacial pace has turned into absolute zero. Which isn't really all that different from glacial pace, since if (for miraculous example) we found out we have severe sleep apnea and getting a CPAP suddenly totally fixed us, we could make a year's worth of progress by simply working for a few hours consistently every day for a month. Hence our not being motivated to keep trying to scrape by the tiny bit we can do right now.

It really sucks when your own brain works against you. I just hope you can find something to help, Tewi. Yeah, I actually haven't seen anything you have made before.

yeah. easier said than done but i don't think anyone cares if it is perfect or not it's always really cool to see any of you make something and we haven't in a long time. not sure shaula ever has you see how sloppy my contribution was but it still touched people it seems though i know it isn't so simple to just turn that off but maybe hearing it helps a little idk. for future reference

I only have one nitpick with this and that's the word usage of sentience. You should be going for sapience instead which is the full cognitive ability. Insects are sentient, humans are sapient. (Hence why we're named homo sapiens) So unless you want to create something with the mental awareness of a butterfly, you probably should clarify that.

Yeah, I know. To us, perfectionism is an OCD-like trait, that means during creative activities we can't stand moving on until the current aspect we're on has been done the very best we ""reasonably"" can, which means - while we do always appreciate final results - that things take us an unreasonable amount of time and effort, and of course with our motivation/effort issues, that means we eventually end up avoiding doing anything at all. In general terms, anyway.

Awww, that really sucks. I know it probably won't help but I think we all would be happy if your thing isn't perfect, or even remotely close. ⊂⁠(⁠･⁠ω⁠･⁠*⁠⊂⁠)

North is a good choice, lots to see up there. ☺️ Don't worry about it Tewi ☺️ (We may extent the deadline past TAD, maybe, but I still want to make my contribution tonight)

Did we overestimate the number of artists? Someone should remind Ring if he wanted to add something https://community.tulpa.info/topic/25712-tad-art-collage-thingie/?do=findComment&comment=480990 I don't think we'll be able to add something. The idea of engaging with an event and creating some kind of presentable art is too much for us at the moment (and most moments) Really doesn't help that texturing (which we've not learned at all yet) is required to make art even vaguely presentable, so modeling alone isn't enough. Not that we don't have ridiculous art block for modeling as well (stemming from perfectionism -> expected effort to achieve it, for us, meaning we can hardly ever choose to ""just make something"")

I say flip a coin and go with that. (Or change it if find out you actually want to do the other.)

i am something of a ninja myself in trc at least speaking of, ooooh yeah i guess maybe uhhh hmm. i want to work on trc z but also draw. nante kotta

Can't wait to see it! 😊 I'm sure it's gonna be awesome! How about east south?/j Edit: TB ninja'd!