Sedatephobia and uncertainty

[TheShadowKnight134]

So I have two problems.

 

1. Sedatephobia. Its the fear of silence. I've read that generally when active forcing you need a quiet place. However I can't sit in a quiet room or else I start getting unnerved and I feel uncomfortable. I need some sort of noise so does that effect my forcing? Any recommendations to help with this?

 

2. My second problem is questioning the existence of my tulpa. Like with the whole I think it's me just pretending to be my tulpa. It just doesn't feel like she is separate from me like that I have to start thinking for her to start talking. Its like when I don't think about her she doesn't exist. I thought she would communicate with me on her own volition and not whenever I decide to talk to her. Id like for her to initiate conversations sometimes.

[Vos]

1. You could use some light music or noise (white, brown, pink, etc.) that's not too distracting. It won't affect your creation negatively, at least, or I don't see why it would unless you had it in your mind that it would. Light coffeehouse music tends to do the trick for me.

 

2. I don't know how long you've been doing this, but it's not uncommon for it to feel like it's just you near the beginning. Independence is something that happens over time.

[Lucilyn]

1 - you totally don't need silence to force. Some people can't focus well with music playing, but if you can that's great. Also some people like to listen to white noise (or other colors) which is basically the sound of static - https://simplynoise.com/ is good, also https://rain.simplynoise.com/

 

2 - Yeah because your tulpa isn't done yet! Your tupper doesn't exist the second you decide to make one. You gotta teach your brain how to have one first. You shouldn't "pretend to be them", but you do have to think about what they'd do, what they'd say, what they're like, etc. And when doing the vocality stage sometimes you won't be able to tell if it's really them or just you talking. But still don't worry about it, it doesn't matter as long as you're developing them, which you are as long as you're thinking about them. So yeah of course try not to completely control or pretend to be them, but also don't worry about doing so because it's a necessary part of making a tulpa.

 

 

Well, until you've already made a couple, then it's easier. I was me from the start.

[NoneFromHell]

1. Yes, silence is absolutely optional. The point of it is to create a surrounding without distractions, so you have an easier time to focus on your tulpa. If you need sound around you to help you relax, it is absolulety fine. Just go with something that isn't too distracting, loud etc...

 

2. This is the most common problem people have with the whole tulpa deal, and honestly I believe it is more healthy than going through the whole process without questioning your results. The other responses already pointed out, that it is a developing thing, especially with vocality. In the beginning your tulpa will be highly depending on you, because its mind is very much like your own at that stage. You will often end up with scenarios that feel like you're the one pulling the strings, even though you're not actively thinking up responses and reactions for your tulpa, it is like you know a split second before something happens, what is going to happen. This will fade with time and everything gets more distinct, and you will get surprised by the opinions of your tulpa as well. "Id like for her to initiate conversations sometimes" needs something else, which also needs to develop and will probably take more time than simple sentience: autonomy. Most tulpas will just get active as long as their host is paying attention to them, in some way or another.

 

Fully autonomous behaviour is something your tulpa can only reach if it is strong and persistent enough, and there is no real way of telling you when this is going to happen. It is also likely that you will experience fluctuations on this, depending on your own status. If you're stressed, tired, sick etc. it is more likely that you will have a hard time to interact with your tulpa, even if it is pretty developed. My tulpa falls back heavily at the moment, even though she was pretty vocal and autonomous before, and this mainly happens because my body is stupidly exhausted and I have a hard time to focus at all. My mind is full of other things I have to keep track of, which is a big problem as well for this.

 

Of course you start to question your tulpa in situations like this, when your tulpa fades to a simple shadow of its former self. Just try to keep going and get rid of your worries, because it can't get worse than this. You can always improve things again.

[J.Iscariot]

Just listen to music it works

 

Give it some time

[RamaLlama]

As I find silence and music both very uncomfortable, I tend to have television or radio on all the times. During active forcing I have tried to find something quite boring and preferably in foreign language I don't understand to make some backround noice.

[Kuromyy]

Hey I'm not an old tulpamancer but you can try classical music, it's not my favorite genre but it's pretty effective for focus even during things like studying.