The Adventures of Mr. Telecaster

[MisterTelecaster]

Right, so first, a bit of background info.

 

About three or four years ago, I created a character to play as for an online roleplaying game that I worked on the dev team for. I was working a plot arc for the server, and needed this character to work with the players and advance the plot. The more time I spent playing the game with this character, the less it felt like acting as her, an the more it felt like I had this sort of second personality available completely on demand, and as I continued to play I started to feel more and more of a seperation from this personality, and started to get a stronger feeling of almost being told what to do by her, as if she were real.

 

It freaked me out. I stopped playing the character, the game eventually died, I forced myself not to think about it, and I almost completely blocked any thoughts of this other personality from my mind.

 

About four weeks ago, I was browsing /b/ late at night and came a cross a thread stating the following:

General tulpa thread

> basically an imaginary friend who can think for itself

> stories or info or whatever

 

accompanied by an image giving instructions on creating a tulpa. As I read more and more, I started remembering the old dead game and everything that happened, and realized that I had probably accidentally created a partially formed tulpa, but killed it before it could get very strong, since I had no idea what would happen.

I did massive amounts of research on the subject (Most of what I found mentioned this site and pointed me here), and after ensuring that it was perfectly safe, I made the decision to make a tulpa of the old character from the game.

 

Well that turned into a lot of background info.

 

Anyway, I've been working on it for two weeks now. After lurking on this site the entire time, I finally made an account very late the night before last (Or very early yesterday morning, depending on how you look at it) and posted a few questions about some worries that I had wanted addressed before finishing. And now I'm posting this.

 

It feels nice to share my story, even if nobody reads it, at least it's out there, albeit semi-anonymously. I'm still feeling a bit hesitant about sharing more details about the tulpa or myself, but I probably will start to open up as I get closer to completion (and as I get less nervous about finishing) and as the community grows on me.

 

Might get some artwork up soon though.

 

Wish me luck

 

 

 

Sentience: yes

Vocal: not really. I've gotten her to say yes or no on a few occasions, and her name once

Imposed: no

 

Total hours of work: 58

[MisterTelecaster]

She has just become very obviously responsive and sentient. I'm not going to continue counting time spent working on her creation, as I think I can consider myself done at this point. Her creation has been accomplished, now comes improvement. I need to make her stronger, I need to make her vocal, and I need to impose her.

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She's also proven twice now that she can communicate with me when I'm not in my "wonderland" (I use the quotes because it really isn't a wonderland, but that is the closest I can come without giving a big long boring description). I've left the wonderland only to have this feeling of a strong mental pull hit me a few minutes later. The first time, I was busy and couldn't come back, the second time I just left to check the time, and immediately came back to find her extremely responsive.

 

I think she's just been shy.

 

The first time, she tried to get me back so she could try to push past that, but I couldn't get back until many hours after, at which point the nervousness returned and she didn't really want to do or say anything. The second time, I came back immediately, and she opened up.

 

Like when you're talking to a girl or a guy you want to ask out, whichever your preferance is, and you say to yourself "Self, you just gotta do it. You just gotta go for it and see what happens" and you're ready and you're about to say it when all of a sudden she has to go to the bathroom, and by the time she comes back, the nervousness comes back with her and you can't bring yourself to work up the courage to ask her. Then you leave the coffee shop the same way you entered: as friends.

 

Too personal?

 

Nah

 

Or maybe she's just learning in quick bursts. Either way, I'm happy with the fact that I know that she's sentient now, and that I haven't screwed up horribly.

[MisterTelecaster]

Oh my god

 

Ohmygodohmygodohmygod

 

She's vocal

 

Holy shit

 

I need to concentrate hard to clear my mind to understand her, but who gives a shit, she's speaking to my and she's speaking intelligently. I'm tired as fuck and had to keep asking her to repeat herself so I could understand her, but who gives a shit.

 

I told her I'd get back to her tomorrow when I'm less tired and can hear her more clearly, but I'm still flipping the fuck out

 

I'm amazed

 

Holy fucking shit

[ThatOneGuy]

Good for you, bro.

[MisterTelecaster]

Thanks, guy

 

Probably couldn't have accomplished shit without this community, whatever doubts I had, I asked about and got straight answers immediately. This site is awesome, the people here are awesome, I'm gonna stay here for sure, and are there any threads on any boards here that you haven't commented in?

 

Seriously, I see you everywhere I lurk or post :I

 

Not that that's a bad thing, you're pretty helpful from what I see

[ThatOneGuy]

I've been lurking more recently because of topics I just generally don't feel like interacting with, but normally I try and get my 2 cents in every thread.

[Pronas]

Good for you bro, don't get creeped out though, if she

starts getting too close to you :3

[MisterTelecaster]

Yeah so I left to go on a cruise for the last week with my family, almost immediately after getting a few intelligent vocal responses from my tulpa, but I had to concentrate extremely hard to get that done. I told myself that I'd put all my effort into reinforcing everything that I've done so far while on the cruise, because I felt like she was so weak that any lapse on my part for even a day could be detrimental to the whole process.

 

Well, with everything going on and all of the things to do, I had no time for any forcing/reinforcing/whatever for the duration of the trip, and I'm basically at the same point I was at in my second post. I know she's there, I can feel her there, but she can't do shit.

 

I won't give up, I'm going to get this done.

[Pronas]

>she can't do shit

That's what you'd like to think. Brush up your senses more u.u

[MisterTelecaster]

I was just trying to put it in simple terms

 

I know that she's probably capable of quite a lot, but because of the week long hiatus, there's a bad connection so to speak, and as of my writing this, she pretty much can't do shit practically due to that.

 

I should have learned a long time ago not to post on the internet when I'm tired.

I tend to not explain things as well as I could.