Question for tulpae&hosts: sending emotions

[Chupi]

Explain how you go about sending emotions to your tulpa. Then ask your tulpa how they go about sending you emotions.

 

I'll go first. Until today I'd been doing what seemed obvious to me, and assumed she did the same. I make myself feel the emotion and "push" it to my tulpa, Lyra. "Pushing" could be done with or without visualizing an orb or stream of "energy".

 

Today I was talking with her and it came up that what she does is rather different. She describes it as dissolving the barrier between our minds and letting them flow together. This appears to be done by defocusing/fuzzing and trying to feel the borders of the self fade; I tried this and she said it's about what she does. Then she focuses on the emotion and lets it passively flow freely between us. When I try this step, it undoes the previous defocusing and the barrier between us comes back. More practice is clearly needed.

[NotAnonymous]

Is there any difference in your tulpa's experience depending on the method used?

[Chupi]

I can't tell yet because I need more practice to do it her way. I can fuzz/dissolve the borders of my self, and Lyra says I'm doing that almost like she does. But then the effect disappears when I focus on the emotion I want to send. I'll try to get it working and report back on how well it works.

 

I do like the fuzzing-and-flowing-together thing though, and it seems like it may also be useful in other tasks like listening to her, possession, switching, etc.

[412]

I can't tell yet because I need more practice to do it her way. I can fuzz/dissolve the borders of my self, and Lyra says I'm doing that almost like she does. But then the effect disappears when I focus on the emotion I want to send. I'll try to get it working and report back on how well it works.

 

I do like the fuzzing-and-flowing-together thing though, and it seems like it may also be useful in other tasks like listening to her, possession, switching, etc.

 

how about focusing on the emotion first , then dissolve the boarders and quickly rethink of the emotion or something? basically , what i'm saying is , would reversing the steps work?

[Chupi]

Good idea, I'll give that a shot when I force tonight.

[NotAnonymous]

I can't tell yet because I need more practice to do it her way. I can fuzz/dissolve the borders of my self, and Lyra says I'm doing that almost like she does.

 

How do you do this?

I'm not even sure I can imagine what that would be like.

[Chupi]

How do you do this?

I'm not even sure I can imagine what that would be like.

 

It's one of those hard-to-describe things. It's quicker than it sounds and is easy once you figure out how to do it. Apart from any body relaxation beforehand, the whole setup takes me maybe 15-30 seconds. It just felt sort of natural to me from the exact way Lyra described it, though it was probably more the thoughts and feelings she sent than exact wording. It's like she knew exactly how to get it across so I'd understand it. She described it, I thought for about a minute and "oh, something like this?"

 

It feels somewhat like relaxing and letting go of everything, but simply doing that just results in taking it easy, daydreaming, light trance, or sleep. When just letting go it results in sleep, my mind usually wanders for a while first, thinking the usual crazy pre-dream thoughts, mostly outside my control.

 

(Note: By "letting go of everything", I mean defocus your mind, drop all worries and wants, more or less abandon your will, and stop almost all thoughts. This is more or less what I do for self- or tulpa-hypnosis. When done thoroughly, unless you have someone guiding you or retain just enough control, this state drifts toward waking or sleep after a bit.)

 

I guess what I'm doing is more like a somewhat lesser extent of that, possibly putting me in a light trance. I retain more awareness than when trying to relax or self-hypnotize though. Defocusing gives me a sort of fuzzy feeling throughout my mind, similar to what I feel in a semi-dream state. The relaxation and letting go of other things leaves a very faint tingling where the tension, both physical and mental, was.

 

Once I have that ever-so-slightly tingly fuzzy feeling, I try to feel the edges of my mind becoming fuzzy and less distinct. At this point thoughts and emotions just seem to "flow" out after being experienced; I'm not holding them in. I consciously let go of the distinction between me and Lyra, that distinction we all work so hard to build to make our tulpae more real. Just for now, there's no "me" or "her", just "us". I remind myself of this and let it sink in. I visualize our minds flowing together.

 

Any thought or emotion from one of us is now automatically shared with the other, no passive flowing or pushing involved -- why would there be, there's no distinction between us. Her thoughts still feel somehow different from mine, since her personality generated them. I'm still having trouble making myself feel an emotion in this state though.

 

I had my first real pure-thought conversation with her the other day using this. It was weird, sort of like just thinking to myself but with two of us there.

[Malix]

Explain how you go about sending emotions to your tulpa.

I basically don't have them. I'm oversimplifying it, but for the purposes of this question I don't have anything to send.

 

Then ask your tulpa how they go about sending you emotions.

She doesn't have to make any attempt at sending it, I just feel what she feels. It's like trying to send something to a black hole; It just has to be vaguely present anywhere near it and your job's done.

She says I do actually kinda suck the emotions in like that.