Lauren August 10, 2012 August 10, 2012 Music can be really helpful, especially when it's something that means a lot to you. Getting to know you on an emotional level can be really encouraging for the tulpa. I think you're on the right track and I hope you'll keep it up :). By the way, I really like that song too.
Gracenote August 10, 2012 Author August 10, 2012 Yeah, I think I sang that song to her because I was in a depressed mood and was talking about all of my low self-esteem issues and such, and that song describes how I feel about myself.
Avalanche August 10, 2012 August 10, 2012 6 hours? That must be a new record, for most people. A new record for someone who didn't set aside a whole day and isn't really experienced with meditation. Most I ever did was about 3, tops. frt
Gracenote August 11, 2012 Author August 11, 2012 6 hours? That must be a new record, for most people. A new record for someone who didn't set aside a whole day and isn't really experienced with meditation. Most I ever did was about 3, tops. What do you mean? I just narrate to her...Doesn't everybody do that? 6 hours shouldn't seem much if that's the case then... Day Five I feel neglectful. Didn't really do much today, except narrate to her on the car ride home for roughly half an hour. Total amount of hours = approx. 6 hours and 50 minutes.
Avalanche August 11, 2012 August 11, 2012 Oh, I misread, I thought you did 6 hours straight. Half an hour in a car ride is good enough for one day. Obviously you aim to force all the time, but nobody can do that, so you do as much as you can. I'm a bit of a hypocrite for saying that, I often have time to force that just goes to waste, but I make up for it by doing to occasional all nighter. Or asmuchasIcandountilIdropnighter. Give that record back, you don't deserve it! frt
Lauren August 12, 2012 August 12, 2012 Narration is still very important of course so, while both forcing and narration is ideal, at least getting narration in is still good. Quality time is helpful for a developing tulpa.
Gracenote August 12, 2012 Author August 12, 2012 Day Six Once again, I feel neglectful. I put off narrating to Nocturne until approximately 11 PM. Then, I fell asleep on her (I think) again! All in all, I got only about a half an hour done. Total amount of hours = approx. 7 hours and 20 minutes.
Gracenote August 12, 2012 Author August 12, 2012 I feel like I'm getting NOTHING done, and it's making me depressed. And someone in IRC last night said something like, "7 hours in and you're already complaining? I don't think you're cut out for this." Well, you know what? I don't think so either. I'm thinking of giving up.
Sands August 12, 2012 August 12, 2012 If you feel that way, of course nothing is getting done. You have to be positive and think things are getting done before anything gets done. That's how the mind works. Just like you gotta believe the tupper is there before they are. But if you're giving up that easily then perhaps you really didn't want this after all? The THE SUBCONCIOUS ochinchin occultists frt.sys (except Roswell because he doesn't want to be a part of it)
Gracenote August 12, 2012 Author August 12, 2012 Perhaps you're right. Perhaps I never wanted this in the first place. Perhaps I didn't realize when I started this that I was gonna throw in the towel before even finishing, like I do with EVERY SINGLE FUCKING THING IN MY PATHETIC AND WORTHLESS EXCUSE FOR A LIFE!!! I'm never going to get anything in my life done EVER. Might as well get the toaster and start a hot bath.
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