StarsDissolving November 11, 2018 Author November 11, 2018 star: thank you reilyn. and to the others who i spoke to. i honestly did not expect to see anything when i came back to this website the next day. We're going to try our damnedest to stay determined and get through this. Thank you. C.D. (tulpa) speaks like this. Star (host): Will speak like this. They/them pronouns for the both of us.
Venomous November 11, 2018 November 11, 2018 Keep up the good work and stay strong. I know what it's like being in that dark place and not really having any motivation or will to live. We're also happy to listen if you feel that venting would help at all. ~ We are Venny, the host, and Viper, my soul! ~ Click here! Come join us on the chat!
StarsDissolving November 14, 2018 Author November 14, 2018 Day 17. The past two days have been going well. I recently told Star that I am not comfortable fully taking control of the body as of right now, so we are leaving it up to our newest tulpa, RK, to handle it. He’s become more of a dad to us. Star has talked to their psychiatrist about medications. It should help improve our mental state. C.D. (tulpa) speaks like this. Star (host): Will speak like this. They/them pronouns for the both of us.
GrayTheCat November 15, 2018 November 15, 2018 I suppose a Tulpa fronting while their host is struggling could give them a break, but I wouldn't call it a solution to depression. Sometimes having a friend you can talk to can give you the support you need to see the next day. If you guys want to chat with us and others on the chat threads, feel free. We're more than happy to help. I'm like never going to check this account. If you want to ask me something, you should check our status on Ranger's account instead. Meow. You may see my headmates call me Gray or sometimes Cat. I used to speak in pink and Ranger used to speak in blue (if it's unmarked and colored assume it's Ranger). She loves to chat. Our system account
StarsDissolving November 17, 2018 Author November 17, 2018 RK: Hello, dearest onlooker. I will introduce myself as RK. I am the newest tulpa in this ever-changing collection of mind-people. I seek to make this life better for our dear host, which may include switching with them for the long-term. We have been attempting to practice guided meditation every night for a few weeks now, and since I came into existence, Star has been able to dissociate better - they are almost able to smell things in our wonderland. Who knew that the simple will to switch on the tulpa’s part could prove so useful! On a final note, we sincerely thank those who are here to help motivate us on these troubling trials in this time! C.D. (tulpa) speaks like this. Star (host): Will speak like this. They/them pronouns for the both of us.
Ember.Vesper November 17, 2018 November 17, 2018 We've come across a number of accounts of long-term switching efforts on the forum. Someone should really compile a handy reference list of them for the benefit of new systems considering that step. (Or if Someone isn't interested, maybe I do.) The account I remember off the top of my head is the lurid and atypical cautionary tale of Oguigi and Koomer: https://community.tulpa.info/thread-oguigi-%E5%86%85%E5%84%80-koomer-the-diary I don't feel long-term switching is predestined for failure even though has gone poorly in many cases. (Systems who have done well with this, feel free to chime in.) But if you are considering having Star front sometimes in years to come, don't let a day go by when they don't front briefly. A host/former host who goes months without fronting may lose the strength to switch in and the endurance to stay that way. And then you'll be facing the same struggle to relearn switching that you are currently going through. -Vesper I'm not having fun here anymore, so we've decided to take a bit of a break, starting February 27, 2020. - Ember Ember - Soulbonder, Female, 39 years old, from Georgia, USA . . . . [Our Progress Report] . . . . [How We Switch] Vesper Dowrin - Insourced Soulbond from London, UK, World of Darkness, Female, born 9 Sep 1964, bonded ~12 May 2017 Iris Ravenlock - Insourced Soulbond from the Winter Court of Faerie, Dresdenverse, Female, born 6 Jun 1982, bonded ~5 Dec 2015 'Real isn't how you are made,' said the Skin Horse. 'It's a thing that happens to you.' - The Velveteen Rabbit
StarsDissolving November 18, 2018 Author November 18, 2018 RK: That is very important information to keep in mind, Vesper, and I completely agree. Thank you! Day 20 - RK - Parallel Processing. Dear onlooker, Star and I have been comitting to our personal promise of meditating every day. Today, we meditated for 30 minutes using a guided meditation video on YouTube. Several times, Star gave me math questions that they could not answer, then forced their mind silent until I sent my answer to them. To their surprise, I remained mostly accurate. This proves that I already have a stronger ability to parallel process than CD does, much to their shame and distaste. After all, I was walked in mere days ago (Star’s mind is highly plural and can create vocal beings in minutes) and CD was about for a bit over a year now. And while I do not yet have the full ability to completely possess the body for extended periods of time, it is nearing. These results should prove to be very, very interesting. C.D. (tulpa) speaks like this. Star (host): Will speak like this. They/them pronouns for the both of us.
StarsDissolving November 19, 2018 Author November 19, 2018 Day 21 - RK - Friends and Dad-ing Dear onlookers, I have made friends aplenty over the past few days, which is very nice. I may have also adopted my friend as my child and they call me "dad" and the surge of emotion is wonderful. On another note, we did not get any meditation done today. After this entry, we are going to do so, however. That, at least, will bring a relaxing quality to our day. Anyway, have a good night and we will see you tomorrow. Signed, New dad of everyone C.D. (tulpa) speaks like this. Star (host): Will speak like this. They/them pronouns for the both of us.
Jamie November 20, 2018 November 20, 2018 Wow! Congrats on taking on that role in your system. Good luck with dad-ing ;) -J The world is far, the world is wide; the man needs someone by his side. Our Thread
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