Deku's tree log

[Guest]

Congratulations!

 

We love spending time in Wonderland, we do it several times a day, usually short, but 20 minutes or so at least once a day. We see consistant improvement in visualization as long as we do that.

[deku]

4 - 24 - 19: Great, for now

 

I've mentioned before in my last post that I was thinking about telling my therapist about my tulpas. Well, yesterday I finally went through with it (with the constant coaxing of C, that is), and it went pretty well. I'm mainly just glad that the initial nervousness of telling people about my tulpas is gone.

 

In other news, C learned how to ward away negative thoughts and feelings. I don't know how he learned how to do it, but it was kinda suprising at first. I looked around on the internet afterwards and saw that people have had the same experiences with their own tulpas. 

Still leaves me curious, though. If he can get rid of feelings, is there a way that he can them too? I asked him this and he did try, but to no avail.

 

'Till next time ^^

 

A bad picture of C

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[Guest]

Aww, cute picture! Did you mean is it possible if he can have emotions? Yes definitely. It's called emotional bleed. For me, Bear feels my emotions in his heart and he definitely knows it's me. It a very useful non-verbal communication, too bad we don't feel everyone's emotions all the time, it would make the world a very different place.

[deku]

Aww, cute picture! Did you mean is it possible if he can have emotions? Yes definitely. It's called emotional bleed. For me, Bear feels my emotions in his heart and he definitely knows it's me. It a very useful non-verbal communication, too bad we don't feel everyone's emotions all the time, it would make the world a very different place.

 

Well, not exactly what I meant haha.

Thanks for the info though! I'll try and find out more about this :)

[Guest Reilyn-Alley]

Soooo... How did the whole "telling your therapist" thing go? I'm curious.. Had they heard of tulpas before? Did they just think it was some kind of interesting coping mechanism and they are working through it as an avenue to approach you easier? Are they kinda treating you as someone with DID now? I dunno, anything else you can think of, I'd be interested to hear.

[deku]

Soooo... How did the whole "telling your therapist" thing go? I'm curious.. Had they heard of tulpas before? Did they just think it was some kind of interesting coping mechanism and they are working through it as an avenue to approach you easier? Are they kinda treating you as someone with DID now? I dunno, anything else you can think of, I'd be interested to hear.

 

Christ, sorry for my late response.

She seemed very interested in them, and still treats me like a regular human being even now. She views it as an interesting coping mechanism, yes, and she says she's doing more to find out about them.

She doesn't view me as a crazy person or anything, thankfully. In the end I'm glad I told her, she's super nice about it.

[theholodoc]

Hi Tifu. I hope you do keep posting on this site. I have enjoyed your reading about your experiences, and it seems to me you have made really good progress. I have been at this for five months and had some initial mind blowing experiences and am in a flat place now. It's okay I am continuing, but your experience gives me hope. Thank you, Dr. Bob

[deku]

Hi Tifu. I hope you do keep posting on this site. I have enjoyed your reading about your experiences, and it seems to me you have made really good progress. I have been at this for five months and had some initial mind blowing experiences and am in a flat place now. It's okay I am continuing, but your experience gives me hope. Thank you, Dr. Bob

 

I'm glad that my experiences give you hope, I really do think if you push at it you'll get real far in this.

Thank you for the reply, I'll make sure to keep writing here as much as I can manage.

[deku]

[align=center]5 - 8 - 19: A Light Switch

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Back yet again, I suppose.

The thing regarding telling my therapist about my  tulpas went great ^^. She was very understanding, and seemed pretty interested in the whole idea of tulpamancy. Honestly, I'm just sorta surprised that she took it so well.

 

So, here's the interesting part: Me and C was able to do a switch, I think. I'm still entirely not sure; the whole switching thing felt weird honestly, but I feel like that might be expected. I can't say that I was dissociating too much during it, but I still could tell that I wasn't in too much control. I was just sorta 'watching' during the ordeal. After a while we switched back again, but my body felt strange afterwards.

It's probably too early to be switching, but I'm not so sure really. 

It's still very interesting and new to me, and I guess I'm looking forward to learning and experiencing more about this.

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[solarchariot]

So, I have enjoyed reading your PR, and I am most interested in your therapy and interaction with therapist. You don't have to share any of that, publicly or privately- I am impressed with you candor, as i find that hugely courageous to share that you're talking to someone. I am also super happy to hear she was receptive. She sounds great. I am hoping your courage here helps other feel comfortable sharing. It is my opinion, we all struggle and we could also use someone to talk to. Sometimes, it'd be nice if we (society) could just talk about talking.

 

I am curious about a specific statement you made, though, in your opening. "I'm Tifu, basically just a terribly anti-social person." Listening to your narrative, I see no evidence of anti-social artifacts. I wonder if you meant asocial? You avoid social action as opposed to just having a flagrant disregard for others. Also, I'd probably be less likely to use asocial if there is a another underlying cause, like PTSD or another trauma based diagnosis. Avoiding social situations in that regard might just be self preservation. ASD can also share some asocial characteristics. Quite a few things, actually. Depression comes with a decrease in sociability. So, yeah, sorry, I am just curious...

 

Anyway, whatever is going on- this is where it gets fun- you are now in a unique position to determine if practicing tulpamancy is ultimately helpful. You reported therapist said this was a nice way of practicing (Social skills?) and I would agree. Lots of folks, from sports players to professional pilots, practice doing a skill in their head, seeing the results in their heads, and then performing and getting good results in life.

 

Yay you! :)