Difference between dialogue and internal voice

[Couguhl]

So recently I read a thread about FAQman's guides and how they affected the time it takes to make a tulpa negatively, and I realized that my tulpa is most likely sentient. The problem is, I've been narrating like crazy today because she might be able of communicating, and I seem to have gotten occaisional "comments" from her, but I don't know if it was me or not. It's sort of like another internal voice (the same type as when one is thinking). It's not really distinctive and it doesn't really feel like it's her, so I'm having some doubts. I'll kind of think about something and another "thought" will pop into my head. Sometimes it's in my voice, and other times it is how I expect her to sound. I suppose I'm just doubting such vivid sentience at this point, and I'm convinced it's me. We've been forcing around nine hours (strictly on personality), but I've stopped counting now because it just hinders progress.

When your tulpæ first communicated with you, was it like this? How can you tell when they communicate for the first time? I've never really experienced head pressure, but I have had emotional responses toward her.

All replies are appreciated.

[NED]

alot of fully sentient Tulpae always whine at their hosts saying they were always speaking to them but they wouldn't hear them or they would just count it as parroting. This is very frustrating for Tulpae. But I guess it's natural. Just keep going.

 

My Tulpaes first word was 'pineapple' out of the blue. It felt quite sudden because i legitly could tell it wasn't me because i really wasn't thinking about food at the time. After this I got more rare and random outbursts and now she can speak in short sentences.

 

Me: Hows your day been

Silver: PINEAPPLE!

 

Basically keep going, don't give up and never treat things as parroting unless you legitly forced words and you are 100% sure of it.

[Couguhl]

alot of fully sentient Tulpae always whine at their hosts saying they were always speaking to them but they wouldn't hear them or they would just count it as parroting. This is very frustrating for Tulpae. But I guess it's natural. Just keep going.

 

My Tulpaes first word was 'pineapple' out of the blue. It felt quite sudden because i legitly could tell it wasn't me because i really wasn't thinking about food at the time. After this I got more rare and random outbursts and now she can speak in short sentences.

 

Me: Hows your day been

Silver: PINEAPPLE!

 

Basically keep going, don't give up and never treat things as parroting unless you legitly forced words and you are 100% sure of it.

 

Awesome. Thank you.

[FigN01]

I went on for weeks thinking I was talking to my tulpa one moment and to my parrots the next. Don't do that; it'll only stress you out. What you're going through is normal- you've never heard voices in your head other than your own I'd wager, so you have to expect that sorting out what belongs to your tulpa is confusing. Just don't ever ever ever doubt what you hear. Doubt will make both of you unhappy by stagnating progress. Stop it.

 

Narrating out loud helps the most with all that confusion because it makes you think less about your end of the conversation and then pick out your tulpa's words with more confidence. Asking her to hum a consistent note for you to pick up on also works well because it'll be more simple than the variety of pitches and meanings to sort out from speech. Her voice will get stronger the more you listen for it, so just keep at it.

 

If you want to see how miserable doubting that voice can make you, look no further than my progress report.

[Couguhl]

I went on for weeks thinking I was talking to my tulpa one moment and to my parrots the next. Don't do that; it'll only stress you out. What you're going through is normal- you've never heard voices in your head other than your own I'd wager, so you have to expect that sorting out what belongs to your tulpa is confusing. Just don't ever ever ever doubt what you hear. Doubt will make both of you unhappy by stagnating progress. Stop it.

 

Narrating out loud helps the most with all that confusion because it makes you think less about your end of the conversation and then pick out your tulpa's words with more confidence. Asking her to hum a consistent note for you to pick up on also works well because it'll be more simple than the variety of pitches and meanings to sort out from speech. Her voice will get stronger the more you listen for it, so just keep at it.

 

If you want to see how miserable doubting that voice can make you, look no further than my progress report.

 

That's a good point. I'm sure the brain gets a bit confused around this time and it has trouble deciding who's who.

 

But thank you, I have a lot of confidence now and I'm pretty excited for the future.