Bask September 1, 2012 September 1, 2012 NOTE: I COME FROM ANOTHER WORLD. The Daemian community. Jazz is my daemon, and is very much settled as a North American Brown Bear. We have a 'sentient' bond since 2005, and I'm just seeing what happens when I do tulpa stuff to him (which actually isn't that different). This is for SCIENCE. He is vocal, imposed, and so on. He also likes to collect forms. -> I am a nurse, a lady, and a badass mama jama. I collect bones, macerate roadkill for skeletons to put together, and collect old books. I'm 23, an ISTP and an 8w9. PROGRESS TO DATE: Likes to sometimes use emotional responses to amplify his communication. Has a nearly physically vocal voice that has a variant castiel like quality. He likes to front, which is stuff we haven't tried before. +Over the past week I've been narrating, narrating, narrating as much as my poor roach brain can handle. Within the past two days, I've started getting what I assume is a response - a pulling sort of feeling of HEY WAIT when a session's over. Promising to me anyway. I've assumed him to be male, there's sort of a touch of masculine to my poor wibbling lady brain now. OH GOD. + Narrated narrated narrated, said pulling feeling during the end morning's session while reading Treasure Island. Sort of different feels at the characters in the book. Assuming its jazz.
Norman_Steel September 1, 2012 September 1, 2012 This I like. (Now that was brief.) Well, I can just give you two suggestions. 1. Trust its sentience at all times, I didn't do it before but now that I do it's like a spark lit up the fire. 2. Have fun. :D Edit: Make that three, visit the chat. It's helpful. (:
Bask September 10, 2012 Author September 10, 2012 Where has the time gone ahaha. I've been doing anywhere between an hour or two hours spread throughout the day. Now that I'm over being sick as a dog, I can report on cool shit that has happened. Personality points have sort have evolved. In a session the original things I've instilled have been amplified. I felt compelled to add 'bravery' to the little gryffindor. It's become easier and easier to 'feel' Jazz over the week. + Notably this week I feel 'pressure' in my head sort of as a communication. The headaches have subsided @___@ Thank god, I thought my poor little roach brain was going to melt from over stimuvlation. The pressure is felt sort of as a presence indicator that I've "reached" Jazz, and it has retreating sort of feelings to it for a negative and an overbearing feel when "interested" feels are reached. No headaches and a communication tool, AWESOME. +Form has been decided for the most part. Probably going to be using an animalish thing, one that I love and so I won't have the face issues. But Visualization is going to be dead last. +Some sort of sentient responses? It's early in the fray for me, but there's flashes off thought that totally aren't from my own stream of conscious. While I was cooking, I was mussing over why I was tulpaforcing to begin with and very distinctly came "You need a companion". Ololo I must be the Doctor. Similar sort of snippets have been supplemented to my thought process even when not forcing or even thinking of Jazz. Best bonding: Playing Amnesia TDD. I shit you not. It's weird, I can power through it without tears for fears, but - I can 'feel' Jazz just putting on a brave face. We started reading Game of Thrones, I hope he doesn't get bored to death. /useless update. EDIT: Norman, I actually never said thanks for the advice and welcome so: THANK YOU! :3
Bask September 11, 2012 Author September 11, 2012 Today and yesterday's specialty notes: +Disembodied "external" chatter. Segments of music snippets and garbled words. WHAT IS THIS WITCHCRAFT. It doesn't quite fit the bill of hypnagogic sounds, so I'm going to throw a little hope that it might be Jazz. It has the sensation of being spoken directly into one ear. +Responses are starting to show signs of personality. "Scared" feelings, "happy", "bored" etcetc. Not quite full on emotional responses, sort of a quick thought tendril. I feel like this shouldn't be going so fast >>? I know hour counts are up in the air. Eh maybe its because Jazz was prexisting. I think I'm going to start visually building soon. Excite.
Norman_Steel September 12, 2012 September 12, 2012 I feel like this shouldn't be going so fast. Ha! I repeat, Ha! Why do you feel that way? Because of the guides? Or because of other results? 1. Guides vary from person to person. 2. Results vary from person to person. Edit: Didn't see your thanks before lol, it was nothing. (:
Bask September 12, 2012 Author September 12, 2012 Ah yes. Just from lurking and eyeballing some guides, there's preconceived notion that things like that come later on. That earlier stuff like that should be disregarded while others say treat all things as a sign of sentience, so just on a dubious mental backburner I felt like I was doing something wrong.
Bask September 14, 2012 Author September 14, 2012 +Constant narration whenever 'presence' is detected. The subject matter is getting a little mundane :9 +I think I'm hearing Jazz talk in thought? Sort of an interruption in the middle of the thoughts. And they're usually fucking whacked XD Like along the lines of "If I'm upside down can I breathe underwater?" Idgi. Its really freaking weird. XD +Since there's responses and what not I'm going to start working on visuals. I debated a while over penisfaced tapirs, and they have sort of a limited mobility so not them. Defiently animal, but something less like a boulder. Maybe a bear. Buttt, I'm not letting myself get hung up over that because I'm sure Jazz will change it if he doesn't like it. And the important part to me is gaining sentience vs body. /shit update.
Bask September 18, 2012 Author September 18, 2012 What up progress log its been a few days. +Jazz is increasingly vocal in a mental sense. His personality is pretty deviated from what I first imagined, i.e. a laidback funny man - Jazz is defiently more aggressive which contrasts to my own personality. His inputs are generally thoughts and emotions full of snark and grumbling. xD I hope that doesn't get old, because its more amusing than anything. +Visually wise he's taken quite a shine to being a bear. I've spent the last five days or so really working on it, and just yesterday using the prism trick he's been moving even though its a little stiff and weird right now. I'm going to keep working on it. +He wants a new name! I'm going to call it progress C: :la I've also noticed the more I'd try to pump my brain up with sugar, the more detrimental it was to me. My thoughts just sort of lumped and wigged the fuck out more than usual and it made it hard to get anything done.
Natasha September 19, 2012 September 19, 2012 Nice progress, good to hear that he is increasingly vocal! I´m actually glad you settled on a bear just because i keep imagining how hillarious it´s going to be when a guy and his massive bear walk into a crowded area. De bedste og smukkeste ting i verden kan hverken ses eller røres, de må opleves med hjertet.
Biotechnology September 19, 2012 September 19, 2012 Woohoo, someone from the daemon community. And finally, a bear tulpa. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thoughtform#Modern_perspective 'I say 'soul making' Soul as distinguished from an Intelligence- There may be intelligences or sparks of divinity in millions- but they are not souls until they acquire identities, till each one is personality itself' -John Keats, 1819
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