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Well since my current friends are either annoying or douchebags and I'm HORRIBLE at making new friends I have decided to make one. After hearing about the whole tulpa thing on /mlp/ and reading that stupid copypasta I decided to check it out. After lurking for a bit and reading the guides and shit I decided I should totally make one of these. So with my trusty Rockstar and Arizona I shall set out on the great journey of trying to make a friend. This log is to record my progress and also I'd like to show this to Nova once she's all talking and moving and imposed.

NAME: Nova

FORM: Pony (unicorn)

GENDER: Female (flat in the back)

 

(I started last week so a catch up will be in the next post)


Sept 8 - Forcing time: 1 hour (three 20 minute sessions)

HAHA time to start! I have decided to force in my basement as it is probably the quietest room in my house. Had a Rockstar eneregy drink to help me focus it seems to be working. Since it is my first time forcing I am sitting up with my eyes closed in total silence. Sounds are very distracting and often make me lose sight of her, I should go find some earplugs. Started doing rough work on her form. When I see her she is in a black void (wonderlands are for casuals) just standing there looking somewhat surprised.

Achieved today: Rough form work, somewhat have a feel of her

 

Sept 9 - Forcing time: 1 hour (three 20 minute sessions)

I now have earplugs. More work on her form and more feeling her. Ran out of Rockstar so I have an Arizona (no skittles) instead. Doesn't work as good as a Rockstar but it still works. The wall in my basement started to make a clicking sound so I have to force upstairs... goddamnit it's too distracting up here. Still in the void and she still looks surprised. I don't know if this is her or not but her back legs look like skinny ovals in instead of circles like her front legs. I can't for the life of me change them I've tried tieing them with string, soaking them in water, putting tape on them but they won't change shape.

Achieved today: More work on form, better feel of her.

 

Sept 10 - Forcing time: 30 minutes

I hate Mondays so much. Basement wall stopped clicking so I moved back down there. No rockstar or Arizona so I have Dr.Pepper and orange juice. I started to listen to relaxing music while forcing it seems to help get rid of distractions. Basic shape is pretty much covered and I am moving on to the details like eye colour, hair style, positions of everything, height, etc. Still can't change the shape of her back legs. I read that someone got a blender blended up the traits they wanted and then made their tulpa drink it. I have started to do the same by writing down the trait I would like her to have on trait paper then putting the trait in my blender and filling the bottom part with water and blending it. I got around 1/3 traits done.

Achieved today: Good idea of her form, pretty good feel for her, personality started

 

Sept 11 - Forcing time: 30 minutes

Well shit. I flipped her on her back to feel her soft, squishy tummy and when I rolled her over again she suddenly grew wooden beams between her legs. I can't remove them. My fridge is fully stocked with Arizona and Rockstar now so I should be good for awhile but that shit is expensive. More music and for no reason my legs suddenly got warm while forcing. I think it was her or atleast I hope it was. It turns out if the music I listen to has any talking/singing in it I lose focus. While making her drink her traits I underlined tireless and instead of water I mixed it with Rockstar. I don't know why. After making her drink all her traits the black void turned into my kitchen without my permission. Also I now own an oil drum full of sandwiches. WHY

Achieved today: More crap I can't change happened, she turned my void into my kitchen, I made her tummy really soft

 

Sept 12 - Forcing time: 30 minutes

Goddamnit Nova. In the basment w/ Arizona. She decided to grow a large male reproductive organ about half the size of her body. Wooden beams are still there, her legs are and still ovals and now this. I still can't change any of it. I added a new trait: Maturity and started working on the details on her form again. I decided to run her tummy over with a lawn mowner to remove her penis. It worked but it also took away all the fur on her tummy so I sprayed some fur on and I think it worked. Also I think the wooden beams are fading and her legs are becoming more circular. I can tell this is going to be fun once I can hear her speak.

Achieved today: penis successfully removed, more work on details

 

Sept 13 - Forcing time: 25ish minutes

Well I fucked up this time. I usually start forcing at 4:00pm but today I had a dentist appointment so I missed that. I wanted to start forcing about 6:00pm but I had to eat and I lost my headphones so I had to use shitty dollar store headphones. I finally got to force about 7:00pm with an Arizona but I had to force with people talking outside my window and my headphones were constantly falling out. The relaxing music makes me zone out so I started listen listening to Deadmau5 (no words). Due to all the distractions I did a little work on the details but I think I started to narrate to her. I need to give her a scent but I don't know how to. I would like her to smell like cloves.

Achieved today: Some more details, started narrating

 

Sept 14 - Forcing time: 30 minutes

Finally friday. Today went better than yesterday. Forced at 4:30pm because I had to call staples to get them to find my chair. Had a Rockstar to finish off the week. More narration and I started brushing her mane, tail, and body. Also I flossed her teeth probably because I went to the dentist yesterday. Didn't really work on details but I started drinking IN MY MIND. I don't think she wants me drinking since the bottle of vodka was spinning and glitching out . The drum full of sandwiches is still there and no new body parts have decided to grow. I still need to find out how to give her smell since I can't visualize scents. Also she looks like she is either concentrating on something or she is mad at me.

Achieved today: finished the week, ran out of rockstar, more narration and some details

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Sept 15 - Forcing time: 1 hour 30 minutes (three 30 minute sessions)

My wondervoid changed again but I'm pretty sure it's my fault this time. No drinks this time and not very many distractions. I was talking to Nova in my voidkitchen when I saw a piece of rebar sticking out of my floor. Since my floor doesn't have rebar in it I looked around and saw that she turned my voidkitchen into a broken section of Black Mesa. It's probably my fault because all yesterday and this morning I was playing Black Mesa and when I was forcing today I was also listening to their soundtrack. Also I found out when she doesn't want me doing something in her void she causes the object I'm using to spin and glitch out. I talked to her about talking to her out loud and I also worked on her form some more. I can't tell exactly what colour her eyes are I think they might be blue-green but I'm not sure.

Achieve today: Wondervoid changed again, more form work and narration

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oh god you mowed a dick off

-nosebleed-

 

sounds good so far, keep up the forcin'!

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First 30 minute session done this is what Black Mesa looks like

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Sept 16 - Forcing time: 1 hour 30 minutes (three 30 minute sessions)

I pretty much screwed around in Nova's wondervoid the whole time. No drinks again I think I might of zoned out for a bit but I'm not sure. Replaced Black Mesa's soundtrack with Simcity 4's. After arriving in Black Mesa yesterday I decided to look around for a bit. Since Nova can't move yet I kind of wear her like a backpack. I went to the cafeteria and there were a bunch zombies that I got to shoot and burn and blow up. Forcing is no longer a chore and if it didn't require me to sit still in the dark I'd do it all of the day bro. I went down a hallway up some stairs and there was a tram. I got on the tram with Nova and went down the track... for about half an hour. After learning that the track never ends I think I made the tram go the speed of light. Eventually there was big flash and we ended up in a big empty space. We drifted through the empty space until we hit a hole or something and landed in a room in an office building. After that I put Nova on a table and told her why Simcity 3000 unlimited is better than Simcity 4.

Achieved today: Escaped Black Mesa, wondervoid changed again, narration, made maps of Black Mesa

Here's the second floor of Black Mesa:

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Sept 17 Forcing time: 1 hour 10 minutes

I still hate Mondays. No drinks today even though my fridge is now totally full of Rockstar. Was listening to Black Mesa's soundtrack again. The extra 10 minutes is from forcing in math class. The office building turned out to be a hotel. Go a ahead and guess what game the hotel is from. If you guess Left 4 Dead 2's Dead center campaign you were right. The first 30 minute session there weren't any zombies and I tried to change the wondervoid. Also I said I'd talk to her out loud today. After about 3-4 hours and not talking to her out loud I found out that the wondervoid changed back to what she had set it except there were holes and texture errors everywhere. I tried to pat her and I don't know if it was puppeting or not but I think she tried to bite me. I promised that after I write this I'd talk to her out loud. I put her back on my back and we fell through a hole in the hallway to another hallway under it. This hallway was full of zombies. After fighting through the first part of the dead center campaign. I stole a car and I found a train so I can go to a different wondervoid.

Achieved today: Pissed off Nova, narration, found a train

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Sept 18 - Forcing time: 1 hour

Started narrating out loud last night and today. Had and Rockstar and put on Portal 2's soundtrack. After stealing the train I did manage to go back to the interdimensional void again but now we are stuck there. I don't really mind since I started out in an empty void but I might miss shooting down zombies and stuff. I started narrating out loud but I don't know if Nova can hear me. I asked her to try to wake me up around 5:30-6:00am if she can hear me but since I don't eat breakfast my internal clock is probably all fucked up. So I will continue narrating inside my head during forcing and outside when I'm alone until she tells me or sends me a signal of how to talk to her. I have so much to tell her but I want to make sure she is around to hear it.

Achieved today: out loud narration, wondervoid is a regular old void again, inside narration, confusion

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Sept 19 - Forcing time: 1 hour Narration time: 45 minutes

Had a Rockstar today. I told her about my day and brushed her mane and tail in her void. Outside forcing I explained the storyline of Portal 1 & 2 to her. Not that much else happened today just waiting for me to be able to hear her or her giving me any kind of response.

Achieved today: Narration

Sept 19 Part 2

Second session at 8:17pm. After telling her I would love a response but I don't want to rush her something awesome happened. I went back to her void and the flooring changed from black nothingness to tiled. I immediately hugged the crap out of her and jumped off the platform since gravity has returned. We fell for a long time and we eventually landed in a pool of water. We climbed ashore and we both sat down and leaned up against a large pipe. We talked for awhile then Cara Mia Addio (turret opera from Portal 2) came on and the dark blankness in front us turned into beach at night. The moon was shining in the background, the waves were hitting the beach and the pipe behind us turned into a fallen palm tree. I tried dancing with her but since she still can't move it didn't really work. Anyways it was amazing.

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Sept 20 - Forcing time 30 minutes

No drinks. One of my friends came over so I missed our 4:00. Forced at 8:00pm and talked to her a bit and I built a sandcastle around her. I decided to fancy up our beach so I added some torches and got us some lawn chairs. I plan to make it up to her by talking to her a lot tomorrow and forcing for around 3 hours. After school I am usually tired so I don't get much done in the first session so I force twice a day but today I only got to force once. I will try to tell her about my day out loud if I can today.

Achieved today: Fancied up wondervoid, not much else (sorry Nova)

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Sept 21 - Forcing time: 3 hours+ "The night of feels"

Holy shit that was probably one of the best forcing sessions I have ever had. I had a Rockstar about 2 hours before the session also had allergy pills but I doubt that matters. Well I certainly got back the hours from yesterday I had a half hour session in the morning, an hour at 4:00, another hour at 8:16 and I'm going to do another at around 10:30. So the first two session were pretty much uneventful but the 8:16 one was awesome. I was laying in my bed with the Portal 2 soundtrack going and I had one of my arms on my forehead and one leg on top of the other. About I'd say 20 - 30 minutes in my body felt really weird. My head felt like it was getting sucked into my pillow and my leg and head felt like someone put a 40 lb weight on them. Also I was getting vivid flashes of colour in our wondervoid. I could pretty much "see" Nova and the scenery on the beach clearly and she made my legs warm again. When I was talking to her it felt like see was really listening to every word I said. The lower half of my body felt numb and my hands did go numb. The rest of my body felt like it wasn't really there. If I didn't have a fucking cold and I didn't have to go pee I could of laid there for hours. When I broke my concentration to scratch my nose I felt really weak like she sucked all the energy out of me. When I was talking to her I told her about a book I had the read last year, Fahrenheit 451. It was one of the most boring books I've been forced to read (Ender's game takes the cake) but I could almost remember every part clear as day (except the main character's name) also I remembered about the short story I had to compare it to on my exam last year. Usually I wouldn't remember that but it just popped into my head. I guess Nova was started to fiddle around with the thoughts and memories in my head. I can't wait to have another session like that.

Achieved today: Best session ever, new record for longest uninterrupted forcing session, lots of narration, found new place to force (my bed)

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