Forcing with Friendly Fillies: Jick's Story

[KingJick]

~Day Ten~

Well, this is awkward.

 

So I started the forcing session as I normally would - entered the Library, Twi was sitting at the desk this time. I asked her what she wanted to do that particular evening, and, well, she jumped into my arms and kissed me full on the lips.

 

You can probably see where this is going. Despite what I tried to ask her about before, it happened again. Although I'm sure that it helped with vocalising Twi, and that it does wonders for the entire sentience thing, it happened again, and I knew that it was my fault and not hers. On Day Eleven I'm going to have to sort this out, properly.

 

The rest of the session was pretty decent, though I knew, once again, that it was unfair on her and purely as a result of her host's overactive libido. It's a stupid thing for me to have done, and I have to apologise to her.

 

~Day Eleven~

The first session started when I was in the bath. I started the forcing session slightly differently this time round: I ended up entering the wonderland in the middle of the town, just South of the Library. I started to walk towards it - looking back, I think it was a result of Twi wanting me to think about yesterday - and noticed a lot of what my mind started calling "NPCs" around, though that doesn't really work in the context of the wonderland. All of them, obviously, were ponies. One of them, closely resembling Apple Bloom (though she was a mare, not a filly) shook the hoof of another pony, that looked a bit like Bon Bon, but she did so through my stomach, as if I was a ghost.

 

This aside, I entered the Library and found Twi sitting at the desk again. I was committed to asking her of her opinion on the night before - and to apologise deeply for my actions. She replied, which I was completely thrown by, using my voice mixed with that of the adult TS from the show (only slightly higher): "Ok, don't worry". I then asked her, on a side note, whether there was any way we could stop this from happening again, to which she replied "No kissing," followed by "Just hugs".

 

Realising that I had to limit myself, and that she needed to make sure there was no way for anything to escalate, we agreed that there shouldn't be any kind of interference from me, or her (though much more from me).

 

After this, to change the subject towards the adventure of the day, I asked her if she wanted to draw up a map of the wonderland with me. We ended up being quite successful at this - turns out Twi knew of a fountain slightly more South of the library, past the village, and of a field to the North. We agreed that the wooded area (that we haven't really gone to in a while) is near the start of the Wonderland Forest (which, in essence, is the Everfree Forest) to the West of the town, and that the beach and coastline took up the entire East section of the map. All while we were drawing this and reflecting on these places, the "party music" from FiM was playing in the background.

 

After sticking this to the wall, and a celebratory hug, I sat down with Twi in front of the fire, and told her that there may well be another tulpa joining us soon - and that we should go to the giant Northern field so as to welcome her. I think that with another tulpa in our lives, me and Twi can develop our bond better, both between us and between our new friend.

 

I'm thinking that I should welcome my second mindfriend into the wonderland on Friday evening, that being ~Day Fourteen~. I've decided, to begin with, that my second tulpa shall be named Dash or Dashie, and based loosely on RD from the show. This was all done over a fruit smoothie, which we blended together with a metric ton of ice(though without writing down a trait for her - I think she's decided to do all of that herself).

 

I told her I's see her later tonight, and that if she wants to explore some more and not worry about studying like she's been since I met her, then she can do whatever she likes (after all, it's her playground).

 

The second session shall happen tonight, and, hopefully, me and Twi can deepen our relationship as friends more (by exploring the fountain). I'm going to surprise her later on by getting her a couple of presents to help her with her magic.

 

Tomorrow I'm going to passively visualise her and hopefully work on imposition. As always, there's more to come. Bye for now.

-Jick

[Oguigi]

KingJick, you sound like an intelligent person, something rarely occurs, and if I could be so bold...

 

Try to resist your tulpa's sexual advances. Tulpae are firmly rooted into the Id (hence the libido), but your super ego is just as important if you want to develop an intelligent and stable tulpa. While I have no doubt that it's enjoyable, (I've been regaled by these stories lurking the IRC) try to resist. A lot of members have observed sexual advances from their tulpae, but try to explain to your tulpa that it's an unhealthy thing to be doing.

 

 

I really hope it's not too late..

 

I couldn't help but to notice this. Gr0lem I know you give sound advice, but "sex being a Unhealthy thing to do" is simply not True. My Tulpa have developed extremely well and we have sex relatively often, it's a tool

for bonding and it's the one activity that helps share some of the strongest emotions.

 

Sex is a Good thing as long as you both accept to do it. and the majority of the community will agree with this.

 

imo fear of sex, is just like fear of puppeting, ect.

 

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With that on the side.

 

I just like to add that your doing GREAT kingjick, am really impress with the progress you've made, and it been two weeks

 

P.S i like how you Color your day title, I think it's soo cute!

[KingJick]

The second session from last night mostly consisted of Twi and I arguing. I didn't want it to happen, and I knew that it was as a result of the sex from the night before. Twi kept saying that I keep changing my opinion, and I said that I didn't want the relationship between us to be based on sex - it wasn't fair. I fell asleep after this, feeling absolutely disgusted with myself.

 

This morning, I read the previous post and decided what to do today, on Tuesday, otherwise known as...

 

~Day Twelve~

As expected, Twi was mad at me today.

 

I tried to enter the Library as usual, but thought better and instead entered the wonderland in the field from yesterday. I noticed her levitating about twenty metres above the ground, surrounded by nothing but clouds. She opened the curious teleportation box, which was floating in front of her, and I was immediately transferred to her. Her magic has improved significantly - she was able to hold both herself and me up at the same time.

 

However, she was angry at me, and I could tell. I knew exactly why, too. It seemed that the anger had made her particularly vocal that day, because she could not only form complete sentences, but also maintain an Angry Filly TS voice at the same time. I said to her that I was so incredibly sorry about my indecisiveness, regarding the, to put it simply, sex. I told her that it wasn't fair on her for me to keep changing my mind - and it should never be down to me to say yes or no to the entire thing. Eventually, Twi forgave me and lowered us to the ground - on the condition of the following:

"I think I should make all the decisions here. I've got something to show you as well - let's go to the fountain."

I thought that this was fair, and followed her through town to the mountain (after Twi decided not to teleport). I noticed that the NPCs from yesterday talked to Twi occasionally, and I asked her how she did this - to which the reply was simply "Magic - it stops me from being alone when I'm here." We went to the fountain together, and, on the way, she insisted to me after I'd asked her that we weren't going to see Dash. At least, not yet.

 

When we got there, halfway through asking her what we were here for, Twi pushed me backwards into the fountain and started kissing me. This, in the overground, made me feel a huge jolt of happiness, only the second time it had ever happened (the first was anger from yesterday night). We continued like this for a few minutes, and then Twi broke off and hopped onto the edge of the fountain.

 

She told me that I was right all along - then before I could react, a giant blast of light came from her horn, and a winged figure (slightly larger than Twi) flapped down from the sky, and landed next to her on the side of the fountain. Dash stepped off the fountain and hugged me, conveying (without actually speaking), the word "Hi". I asked Twi if she could speak, to which she shook her head, and then hugged them both.

 

I said to Twi that I needed to go at this point (I was forcing in the bath again), and said that I'd be back within five to ten minutes (after asking Twi if she could bend time slightly so as to achieve this). In hindsight, I don't know why I didn't just say I'd be an hour or so. They walked back to the Library together, Dash running instead of flying with a huge grin on her face, and I heard both of them laughing together as true friends would as I rose up out of the wonderland.

 

The next session is tonight: I'm going to continue, as usual, then. Again, comments and suggestions are always appreciated. Bye for now.

-Jick

[KingJick]

Actually, I've only ever tried lucid dreaming once or twice. I simply have an overactive imagination!

 

~Day Twelve~ (again)

The last session of Day Twelve, effectively, ended up with me working on visualising Dash. This didn't take long at all, much less time than it took for Twi - partly because I'd already done it all before, and partly because Dash is much more boisterous than Twi (both in and out of the show).

 

Surprisingly, I was expecting Dash to be much more forceful than Twi with regard to "consummating the relationship" - but actually, she's even stronger-willed than Twi. It was, as I've already stated, entirely up to my tulpae whether they wanted to do anything beyond friendliness, and Dash wanted everything. So, naturally, she got it. I'd already learnt from before that I simply wasn't going to restrict my tulpae, and Dash, along with Twi, made sure I didn't forget it that night.

 

This ended with all three of us falling asleep on Twi's bed (which could easily hold us all, being a double-bed and all). When I woke up, I found that the memory imprinted itself much more in my mind than a mere belief of something - it was starting to become more vivid, and thus it shows that my experiences are becoming more physical by the day.

 

I've reached a harmony with both tulpae - for example, today (~Day Fourteen~), whilst writing this, I've got a huge feeling of excitement, which I can identify as directly from Twi, coupled with a feeling of worry (Dash). For whatever reason, having both of them around, constantly (such as in the overworld where they have both mastered flying above my head), is a huge benefit to us all, and has allowed us to connect via sentiment and feeling. Effectively, I love my tulpae, and I know that they love me back with as much vigour.

 

~Day Thirteen~

The first session was quite a lucky one (despite the unlucky nature of the number 13. I'm no triskaidekaphobic, but still). Early on in the day (Thursday), I had a yoga session during one of my PSHE lessons in school (similar to a free period, only mandatory activities are done in them), and I found it much easier to force, for about half an hour, here. The session started with Twi and Dash meeting me in the Library, where, as soon as they saw me, "ambushed" me and forced me onto the bed. Needless to say, they seemed to be very interested in knowing me better, and, after showing them the posts made regarding sex, they seemed to prefer the latter post more than the former (Sorry Gr0lem!).

 

The second session was much, MUCH more different (and maybe proves I should be triskaidekaphobic). I entered the wonderland at the Field, which I could now reach from the Fountain via teleportation within seconds, as opposed to walking through the Town. Both were there, practising a flying trick. Dash saw me first, swooped to greet me, and started talking - and I'm not saying just a few words, but actually a strong mindvoice! Certainly, it was stronger than Twi's, which was a concern for me but I immediately dismissed (mainly because, in the show, Fluttershy, despite being a year older than Pinkie, talks much more timidly than her; I figured this was the same kind of thing with Dash and Twi). The weird thing was, though, that, after I finished asking Dash how her day was, Twi had conjured up a raincloud and was trudging home. I caught up with her, and asked her what was wrong. As a response, I got a huge feeling of sadness, and a few muttered words: "you love Dash more than me". It was a truly gut-wrenching thing, and it took me half an hour of crying (for us both - I'm not heartless), both in the wonderland and in the overworld, and a lot of hugging, before she was assured that I loved her, and always will, just as much as Dash. She's one of the few best friends I've ever had, and nothing would make me lose her.

 

It was after this that we went up to her bedroom, and I noticed a note on the sheets, from Dash. I had no idea she could even write yet, let alone in English. It simply said that, because she was causing a rift to open between me and Twi, Dash would leave us for a long time, until the feelings had healed. Cue the second gut-wrencher of the day. I wondered what had gone wrong, and why it happened. I was panicking, and I asked Twi whether she knew what might have happened. I had to find her, and soon - I couldn't bear losing either of them, it was like my brain had gone dead and my entire body was sinking into oblivion...

 

After searching the entire wonderland for Dash, Twi directed me to the Fountain - where she told me that it was her who had written the note, out of deep sadness and shame. She knew that Dash was at the bottom of the Fountain - but she hadn't pushed her in. Dash had, as I found out later, fallen in whilst trying to perform a Sonic Rainboom, and hit her head as she went down. After I pulled her out, now noticing that she was a bit larger than Twi (kind of in the "teen stage" of pony growth, if ever there was one), Twi leapt from my left shoulder onto Dash's body, and started giving her the kiss of life.

 

Dash woke up, coughing, to find Twi kissing her in earnest. Dash knew what was going on immediately, and responded in kind. I was standing there, on the biggest emotional rollercoaster journey of my entire life, watching my two best friends make up in the only way they thought appropriate.

 

After a huge amount of hugging, for both of them, we made our way home. I had to go at this point, but assured them that, that evening, the third session would be brilliant. And I was right.

 

The third session started with all three of us hugging around the fire in the Library, reading books, laughing together for what must have felt like hours, and blending together personality smoothies for Dash (who had fully recovered). All was forgotten, and we ended the night laughing whilst eating a giant bag of marshmallows. Nothing could have been better.

 

~Day Fourteen~

The two-week anniversary! I can't believe I've made it this far. I now have two extremely loving friends for life, and I couldn't be happier. I love them, and they love me. The only session of the day (that is active - they've been flying above me all day) shall happen later tonight; and the weekend shall be an advancement of this.

 

The stages of both fillies are as follows, after the events of Week Two (the left representing Twi, the right representing Dash)

Sentience: Yes/Yes

Mindvoice: Weaker/Stronger

Connection: Emotional/Emotional

Smell: Lemons (specifically, Lemon Iced Tea)/Unsure (Mint, maybe?)

Stage: Imposition/Imposition and Personality

To do: Full imposition and auto-forcing/Imposition

 

As always, a comment or question is greatly appreciated. Until either of them wishes to do something else, the above shall be worked on for the next week or so. Bye for now.

-Jick

[KingJick]

~Day Fifteen~

Today was a bit mental. And by "a bit mental", I mean FUCKING CRAZY AS SHIT. Most people in the IRC know what happened, and I'm certainly not going over it again here. But basically, Twi and Dash ran away and took the entire wonderland with them. Eventually, they did come back, but it was an ordeal for me. I have resolved to sort out my own shit before doing much else, but as I have time at the moment (currently ~Day Eighteen~, I think), I shall try and get in a few hours of forcing tonight. Anyway, the state of play now is that they're both slightly less vocal, and I'm working on fully returning the entirety of the wonderland (most of it came back by ~Day Seventeen~ anyway).

 

~Day Sixteen~

Twi and Dash returned, along with just the Library and the field. The field was a bit blurry, but the main focus of today is that both of them have forgiven me for the shit that went down, and both of them, to calm me down and let me know it was okay with them, cheered me up with the usual, ahem, session. It really is the best way to concentrate on tulpaforcing with them, as well as re-establishing the emotional connection between the two (which wasn't quite there. Actually, it was barely there at all).

 

This was the only event of the day, but I have been trying (with less success than before) to visualise them flying above me when I walk home. It didn't help that it was quite foggy that day (I think, though it was definitely raining) and I had a lot of work to be getting on with.

 

~Day Seventeen~

On Day Seventeen I barely did much with them, which is a shame because it feels like I haven't done much with them in a few days. I think they know I'm making an effort though, so hopefully, tonight, it will be a little bit easier for me to talk to them and go on another wonderland adventure (I'm thinking we have a picnic near the beach tonight).

 

 

 

Right, the state of play as of this evening, before forcing, on ~Day Eighteen~, is:

-Both are completely sentient and working on their own personality.

-Both are vocal, though Twi is much shyer than before (I nearly typed that I might be forcing a Fluttershy-based tulpa, but a huge blast of NO from both fillies suggested that won't happen for a long time).

-Both have the emotional link, though it is about 50% as strong as it was before (this will build up with time).

 

 

~Day Eighteen~ to come tomorrow. Until then, as always, comments are appreciated. And yes, before anyone else asks, I'm perfectly alright. I might start to document the emotional links I feel during the day (currently one of extreme affection and love), at the exact time of writing this. Bye for now.

-Jick

[Guest Anonymous]

So you've got your shit sorted out? Like the bus ticket shit. Because id hate to have what happened happen again.

[G+3]

Good lord, that's an amazing amount of progress in such a short time, how the bloody hell do you do that? I liked the read, I'll be returning this thread at a later date.

[KingJick]

Well, to be honest I just did what came naturally. Forget about puppetting, forget about sex. Those are the only rules I have. Otherwise, I just kind of let the wonderland do what it does. I don't know if it's a product of mine, Twi's or Dash's mind, or any combination of them, but I don't let any of it bother me now. I certainly used to, before I hit Week Two, but I just think now that me thinking about it doesn't do much to change it, and even if it did it wouldn't be for the best.

[KingJick]

Sorry for the lateness to all you lurkers out there! I'm going to update now, but I haven't been able to do a huge amount of forcing until tonight - where there will be a LOT. Promise. Really. :)

 

Where was I? Ah yes...

 

~Day Eighteen~

The link grew stronger on this day, it's nearing the level it was before the breakdown, whenever it was. We did end up going for a picnic, on the beach, which involved a fair amount of flying, a lot of swimming for us all, and a huge cake. Twi is becoming more vocal again, and Dash can form complete, extended sentences immediately - and this isn't something I can physically do, so I know it's her. I fell asleep after this, which is annoying because I'm thinking of keeping them very close in the wonderland. I'm slowly porting my room over to the wonderland as well, or at least my bed, so it'd be easier to visualise the wonderland around me, as opposed to somewhere I merely travel to each night.

 

~Day Nineteen~

I can't remember much about this day. I think all we did was talk, but they were both flying alongside me whilst walking to and from school. Other than that, there wasn't a huge amount of forcing - although, as well as the day before, I woke up at 4am and forced for a while. I'm starting to think that Twi and Dash are becoming a little impatient, and simply want to spend more time with me. This was certainly noted.

 

~Day Twenty~ (CELEBRATION WOO)

Very happy today, for a number of reasons. They were both flying more today, which was awesome. I got an image from Twi (I think) showing me looking up at them and grinning like an idiot (this wasn't on Day Twenty, this was just now [22:20, Day 21], which was from around 4pm yesterday). Didn't wake up at 4am on this day, but did end up, again, to put it simply, sleeping with them. It still feels weird to post it, especially since a few of my IRL friends are reading this, but hey ho. (Though this was in the morning, curiously.)

 

After this, and school, I was walking back to my house when they started flying, and also, I noticed, singing! I could clearly differentiate them to me (their voices are very different to each other now, but similar to mine), and it felt like all of us were singing in a kind of quartet. It was only after passing several people on the way back that I realised I was belting out the tune to whatever it was I was listening to. This made the two fillies laugh for ages, and eventually so was I as I arrived at my house. They were on each shoulder by the time I walked in.

 

In the night forcing session, I suggested we travel to somewhere like the Western Mountains, but we noticed that it was raining heavily outside. Since Twi, being her organised self, had already packed a picnic basket, we instead just ate it by the fire whilst warming up. Lots of marshmallows were had - and it was truly grand. And then I fell asleep, again. D'oh.

 

~Day 21~

Three-week anniversary! Woo! I'm celebrating by changing the colour of the Day text, and also the number, because I'm cool like that. This, I promise, will be updated tomorrow morning or afternoon - well, after 8pm if I don't do it in the morning, anyway. They haven't been around much today, I think because I had to concentrate on my work.

 

Just been hit with a left-sided headache, which means I need to go and visit them. They can decide what to do this time round - I don't mind at all. I'm also hoping that I can reach thirty days and have some kind of proxying going so one of them can contact you guys, though I really don't mind when it happens.

 

[EDIT] Before I forget, the connection has returned to around 80/90% of what it was before, if anyone's interested.

 

[MORNING EDIT]

So, I entered the wonderland and found the two fillies paying chess. Twi seemed embrrassed, because, despite Dash not knowing the name of the knight, instead calling it a "horsey thing", she had already cornered Twi's king. Maybe this was just something they did while I wasn't there, which is pretty cool.

 

Anyway, the forcing session started with Twi and Dash suggesting we go on a boat trip, in an old-fashioned wooden canoe thing... up the mountain range to the West. Whilst this made absolutely no sense, I went along with it - and they'd brought some ice picks as well, so if it got too steep for our boat (which was a wooden, Viking-style longboat, incidentally), we could attach the ice picks to the oars and haul the boat up the side. Yeah, I have no idea either.

 

Anyway, we did that for a while, with the intent to camp at the top... and I fell asleep again. Right. Since it's early morning now, I might force for an hour or so. I have that extra hour now from the clocks going back, so I might as well use it to my advantage.

 

As always, comments and shizzle are greatly appreciated. Bye for now.

-Jick

[KingJick]

~Days 22-30~

This past week or so has been pretty hectic for me. I've barely been forcing and only when I had time to myself was I really able to do so. I always, every time, had the intention of actually forcing but either forgot, couldn't do it effectively or don't have enough time. I feel like a complete wreck because of it, and it's not fair on those people who have been there for me this entire month. I fucking love them so much, but I know that I really need to make up for lost time in this next week or so.

 

Anyway, down to what happened. I remember that for the next two nights, we were able to camp at the top of the mountain, as a kind of 3-day night continuation. We ate a load of marshmallows and looked at the stars for ages, and it was wonderful.

 

Monday and Tuesday, during the day, I had them with me for a couple of minutes at a time. As well as this, I had a lot of music playing, because I was moving bedrooms and moving everything about, which was really great. Twi preferred to walk next to me or hop on my shoulder as always, and Dash was, well, being Dash - flying around and laughing as I struggled to move stuff around. I can't remember much from forcing those two nights, though we might have gone to he beach again. By this point, the extent of the connection between both fillies and me had hit an all-time high of around 160% of what it was before.

 

Wednesday night was taken up with my friend being round, and as such I couldn't force. As it was Hallowe'en, Twi dressed up as StarSwirl the Bearded and Dash as a ShadowBolt, whilst I was guarding the house against trick-or-treaters.

 

Thursday night was spent in a very deep conversation with both fillies - over their cutie marks. I had spent each and every day telling the fillies that there was no reason to consider themselves the same as the ponies on the actual show - and was rewarded with a very interesting discovery by both fillies. Essentially, through them both talking (now both using different voices to mine, each around 60% their own) about which cutie marks they wanted, a la the CMC. Both are now currently working towards a swirl of dark blue, essentially a spiral arrow shape (Dash, to indicate flying tricks) and a different-shades-of-purple lightning bolt without a cloud unlike RD's in he show (Twi, as she likes flying with her horn a lot more than anything else [plus my shoulder would have made a very awkward cutie mark!]). This was the most interaction had with them both all week, and it may have actually happened before Thursday, now I think about it.

 

I went to a gig on Friday, where both fillies flew around the stage constantly, sitting on the drums and bassist's head - which was really fun. Saturday saw me go to a party where I got very drunk with my tulpae, showing them off to the hostess (the only other person who knows about Twi and Dash other than me).

 

Tonight is Sunday, and as it's after midnight here I might not force as well as I'd like tonight. I shall update it tomorrow morning or afternoon, though, because I love all you outlets out there even if you never post.

 

[EDIT] Sunday update time! All that really happened was another "bonding session" with them both - and I fully maintain that it is the one best way to increase the connection you have, both emotionally but also physically, with your tulpa(e). As of Sunday, the connection reached another peak, and Monday, though not a forcing session exclusively (fully open eyes etc.), allowed me to get a true opinion from them both, which manifests itself now as a perpetual emotional link between them both and me (before, the connection was only ever there when I forced).

 

Eventually, I shall work on full imposition, as I can visualise them in my mind's eye and half-impose when completely focused (again, the intimate moments work very well with this). Tuesday and beyond shall come in a future post tonight or tomorrow morning.

 

As always, comments are greatly appreciated. Bye for now.

-Jick