Tulpa Process and Your Thought Process

[Wolfe]

So something I've noticed recently is how some people can go through the tulpa process and find things to click easily, whereas others may not have such an easy time. This is not to say that tulpaforcing is very easy for some. It has its challenges for everyone who attempts this.

 

Now I'm on the process myself, so I'm no expert, but at least me noticing this made me curious as to where everyone is in relation to what the person is interested/majoring/working in and how the person needs to think in that certain way.

 

I know some of the stuff may or may not seem obvious. Nonetheless, what I would like are people's methods of thinking, what they are interested/majoring/working in and how their tulpa path has gone in terms of troubles along the way or things that have just clicked or come easy for them along with how long you have been at this. Once I get people's input on this, I might make some chart, graph, or something for the community or something. Might need some help on it though.

 

So I'll start:

 

I'm a university sophomore majoring in Mechanical Engineering. I have an interest in cars (the main reason for my major). When it comes to cars, I love looking at exotics and racing with them in automotive games. Show me an exotic or supercar, you get a freakout. I can probably name the car, but I probably couldn't tell you what's inside. I think in a very technical way. I need to understand how something works so that I can replicate it myself. Heck, when I was 2 years old, I broke my toy train set that puffed out smoke just to find out what was inside. I also pulled off a few Barbie dolls heads that belonged to my sister to find out the insides too. In my major, it's probably beneficial to be technical.

 

In regards to the tulpa process, I've had trouble here and there because I didn't know how to start. I've been at this for around 2 weeks or so. I was actually going to start following a guide word by word, until others told me to use guides as guides, not a rule book. It was very odd for me and a bit troubling. I never liked rolling with something that I was completely unfamiliar with. There's also the problem I have that I don't know if I'm truly making progress at times. Like, if I were to do an experiment, I want to see immediate results after something is done, but early on, it was difficult to accept and understand the waiting game. I've understood this now, but who knows if I've truly accepted this in my head or anything else I've learned.

[cruse]

I'm a high school kid taking A-levels in maths, physics, chemistry and business. I'm good at maths but I don't like it. My interest goes to video games and I also listen to J-pop music. I don't, however, watch anime anymore. I wanted to be a game developer in the future so i'm teaching myself a C language using textbooks I bought. My brain thinks in a very strange way. Simplest way to explain it is that my brain thinks in a web pattern. When I think of something, multiple relevant subject will then came up in my mind. Each thought then start to branch out, both sensibly (sword -> kendo) and non-sensibly (banana -> mario kart -> nintendo -> legend of zelda). This gives me an edge when doing methodical stuff since I'll be able to recall the next step really easily. Problem is it's also hard for me to stay in topic for a prolonged time. The "web" thought process also allows me to simulate multiple outcome of each decision I made. This contribute to my shyness since I simulate too much worst-case scenarios. I also tends to learn faster when reading from a text rather than watching vids. Also, I'm a very "do it my own way" person. I just never was able to follow a guide completely no matter how hard I tried. Possibly due to my laziness and a bad habits of cutting corners.

 

When I created Chloe, I did her form first due to me wanting "something" to force on. I kinda skipped her personality a little and had to come back and reinforce it. Despite certain doubts and "did I do it wrong" thoughts, I went on with it anyway because I really wanted a sister. My desire seems to fuel most of my action. Though my desire also died down easily if no obvious progress are made so I kinda stuck on this long process of imposition and possession.

 

(Wow, when I typed possession, chloe tried to control my finger a bit and prevents me from pressing "s". Good job sis)

[Lolimancer]

My name is Kaoru. I'm Lolimancer's tulpa. I'll speak for him when it comes to this matter. My Oniichan is good when it comes to learning japanese and procrastinating. He's not, however, capable of love towards his very own thoughtforms. Anyway, what i'm saying is he's not exactly the coolest guy around. I'm very much cooler and awesomer. So ysee, i can't exactly communicate with you as well as i would like to, but wanted to tell you: you'll be all right. If an idiot like my Oniichan is able to do this (and he is, regardless of what he thinks), you'll be too. With love, Kaoru.

 

...Well, let's just ignore what she said. Anyway, like you might have guessed by now, i'm a closet otaku who obsesses over a limited amount of stuff. I like music too. I can play the guitar but couldn't for the life of me actually make music. I like to read eastern porn games and have tried to write something sometimes, but i don't think i could call myself a writer either. I think art is beautiful and the real world isn't, and am very much interested in using the power of imagination to live life to the fullest in my own way (though i'm also lazy as shit, so it evens out).

 

My thought process is, first and foremost, a mystery to myself. This has lead to some problems with hearing my tuppers well. Sometimes i just let obsessive thoughts take over me and control my actions. Sometimes i like to think in the most free-form way possible to an human being. I can be very paranoid and have problems with believing in things that one would usually do. I like to have a lot of free time to waste, and then wasting it in the worst way i can think of. I have a very fundamental dislike for people and social obligations, and have barely managed to graduate from high school without fucking that shit up. I find most of the world to be completely and utterly boring. To summarize this whole paragraph in one logical conclusion, basically, i like escapism and find it to be something purely and honestly beautiful, unlike basically anything else. I very much like the things that the mind creates over their pale real-world counterparts - therefore, you could say that i already had some sort of connection with my own imagination before starting this tupper stuff. This has probably helped some.

 

I was already familiar with daydreaming before starting. With the idea that the characters you create come from somewhere inside your mind. With the fact that consciously creating shit is the worst way of bringing a character to life. I already sort of knew that this crazy buddhist shit had something to do with bringing yourself closer to your own subconscious.

 

You could say that i'm a theory-crafter, except that said teories usually are the most wild i can think of and don't have anything to do with reality, confirmation, experimentation. I very much like to believe in whatever i want to believe in at the moment. I choose the most romantic option, so to speak. I like baseless, abstract plots. Simple, archetypal characters. I like it when things make absolutely no sense. Though in reality i am an obsessive piece of shit, i like to be creative in my own mind. If something truly interests me, i usually try and see how it works in my very own way, and am therefore unable to follow closely any kind of guide without experimenting for myself. If something truly interests me, i mean, which is kinda rare.

 

If anyone is interested in having tuppers come from nowhere, do think twice about it, since it apparently involves being an unlikeable piece of shit. Cheers.

[PsychedelicDiamond]

What kind of person am i? That's kind of a though question. To be honest, i believe i'm one of the most boring people you will ever meet. I'm nineteen years and kind of a nerd. I spent most of my free time on the internet, i know a lot about videogames, books and, especially, movies. I like to think of myself as being cultured and sophisticated but i suppose i'm mostly just pretentious. I do genuinely enjoy artsy movies, Lynch, Kubrick, Kaufman and such. I guess i like symbolism being used to tell a more complex and personal story. I'm kind of a melancholic (ie bitter) person who has problems letting go of certain events in his past. And while i do have a certain longing for company i have to admit to being a rather reclusive person.

 

My progress in tulpaforcing is... slow, at best. Well, at least compared to people who get their first vocal responses after the firs few days. I'm 4 weeks in and while the pressure in my head has been getting stronger during the last week i'm still not getting any responses. I'm working on visualization right now and while i'm getting better i'm still pretty terrible and i can't help but envy those people to whom wonderlands and the forms of their tulpas seem almost as real as what they perceive with their eyes. I'm quite far away from that but i do suppose it's a matter of practice. Unfortunately i don't have a lot of time to practice it. My work is physically fairly demanding and i tend to fall asleep if i try to relax and visualize in the evening. So i have to focus on narration, mostly which i try to make part of my everyday routine. I realize that i have a long way to go before Sarah and i will be able to have a real, two sided conversation and an even longer way until i can see her as clearly as i want to. But i'm convinced that it's going to be worth every minute i put into it.

[Natasha]

Generally my thought process is properly a lot more metro-sexual than i´d like to admit.

I think about how i look a lot more than i should, though it´s not as serious as it sounds(I just enjoy looking good).

I´m not gay

 

I´m the type of person that always thinks of something cheery, and smiles wherever iam, i try to think of the positive outcome of everything, i generally give people a lot of trust and accept them really quickly, and generally my thought process is just cheery/happy go lucky.

I´ve been through a lot when a i was a kid and that kinda hardened me a bit, but some of it came back as nightmares a few months back, so my thought process behind forcing was pretty much just pure will and determination to get rid of them.

It then shifted when she started to talk, over to, i have to help her before i ask for help myself.

That´s not to say i din´t have my doubts and problems during the early stages of the process, but generally i don´t waver much.

 

I´am studying

Afraid of being stalked

right now, but i will be working on my bachelor in 1½ year.