Alcadera and Luna. Attempting to see

[Alcadera]

After a long weekend, Back to it!

 

Today's log isn't from today technically, though. we're going to see what we can best focus on from here on today. So either way! at the bottom you will find yesterday's talk log.

 

Everyone be warned, though. The contents of the log is... quite suggestive ^^; so if you're weak of heart/soul or easily offended... or just plain ol' too young to be thinking of such things. skip this log =3.

 

For those that read it, take not I seem to have difficulty hearing the answers to more open questions. I seem to have little trouble hearing her mindvoice when i supply her with options like yes or no questions, and or already have a few ideas on what she could answer... which is how i found out she doesn't like Rammstein T.T

 

You don't have to stop listening to it for me. i just don't enjoy it <<;

 

... I don't know how that makes it okay ^^;

 

i'll get you back for it later >=)

 

o.o;;... ANYWAY. back to the things i actually WANTED to post here ^^;;

 

Atleast this 'Evanescence' you listen to right now is good =3

 

thank goodness ^^; anywoo. I think i start to see little bits of movement in the corners of my eyes sometimes. and today while in the shower and looking through the fogged up glass, i swear i saw something move on the other side. it was small and quick. I thought it may have been Luna moving her leg and me seeing the hoof or such. But when asking her, she denies it's her.

 

It really wasn't

 

which makes me fear theres a quick spider in there somewhere T.T aaand i'm arachnophobic... like severely. once found a two inch long [front leg to hind leg] one and i had a nervous breakdown when i got some distance between us x.x... managed to kill it by squicking it with the hoover tip before hoovering it up, but it took me 10 minutes to force myself XD

 

*pulls out a notepad and puts on ugly glasses*

 

yeah no, no therapy just yet ^^;

 

I've been wondering then what's best to focus on from here on out. as i feel hearing Luna's more complex answers may require us to get to the point where i experience her as audible, or otherwise visible, so she can gesture along with the conversation.

 

We've agreed to work on these from both sides. Luna focussing on wanting to be heard/seen and me focussing on hearing/seeing her. Though i think i need to reflect on my past in order to help with this. I know i've managed to visualise things while daydreaming to such an extent that i nolonger register what i am actually looking at [as i have my eyes open during this] These moments, however, are completely at random and only recently happened while in the passenger seat of a car. I also begin to realise i'm not yet capable to visualise Luna to the fullest detail at all times just yet. I know her general shape by heart, but sometimes i forget to visualise her mane and tail, or forget what shape things should have when looking at an odd angle. I find this odd, as i know full well i am able to imagine strongly enough at times that i randomly stop realising what i actually look at x.x if i can figure out how to do that on purpouse, it may make imposition much easier to do. [and maybe more]

 

either way. time for me to give Aurora a poke if she's still on here =3 ask them if pancake still proxy's her or such. i THINK they reached the stage where she can use his body temporarily, even though she's not visible to him yet. and i'm not sure about fully audible [as in not using mindvoice but hearing]

 

>=D

 

and that expression is why i need to hide my ... suggestive material folders before letting her use my body XD

 

and i'll just find them based on your memory ^^

 

oh deer x.x

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Hmm... oddly enough, log number 5 was whiped from the thread o.o i've no idea what i said in the post, so here is log number 5 anyway.

Writing-Luna-6.txt

Writing-Luna-5.txt

[Alcadera]

Blimey x.x what a crummy week.

 

There hasn't been much to report about the past week, although the few things there are, are definitely interesting enough to worth mentioning.

 

The week started off with distractions being offered by my dad who felt since he has a week holiday, that its my duty to volunteer [the kind of volunteer that doesn't allow you to say no] for any chore he felt like doing in his free time. Wednesday however, I had the wonderful misfortune for my volunteer duty to be avoided by means of obtaining a stomach flu. No chores, but instead somewhere up to 10 nature visits for the whole day. not to mention feeling like my stomach has "return to sender" on its mind all the time.

 

So, with the weekend passed, and my body back to normal, it's been time to make another tulpa report.

 

now i should say that yesterday i did attempt to do a session, but had no luck doing so considering my body constantly kept my attention fully focussed on my stomach feeling like its about to explode. [apparently that stomach flu virus might still be causing some severe gas production in my digestive tract still. lots of burps and flatulence still x.x]

 

Today however! it's all been good as far as my body is concerned.

 

Hi everyone, I feel like I want to say something too on this forum, so I'm going to stick with mentioning Al here constantly is imagining our mindvoices being spoken by Chris O' Dowd for his and Katherine Parkinson for my voice x.x

 

I can't help it <<; that show is just fun to watch every now and again.

 

I'm not complaining. At least it's not brightly coloured ponies eh? >=3

 

you're just pretending to not like it, just like all the mlp based tulpas, just to spite us for not being creative enough to start with a random form.

 

^^... I'm not saying anything

 

Don't worry >=3 I might redesign you yet.

 

o.o... ooh?

 

 

Anywoo. On to today. Not much to say other than I feel it's pretty good that me and Luna have at the very least been able to communicate at the very least a little every day while not having forced in a while. [even though the day I was sick it was near impossible to communicate]

 

As far as today's session went, I have grown a liking to "3rd Schumann Resonance (no background).mp3" as a good replacement for otherwise only using the pink noise to drown out my surroundings. We decided against using our constantly incomplete previous wonderland until we can enter it in a more advanced stage and get tons more work done on it. Might even replace it fully with a nice cottage idea we had not too long ago.

 

Fantasy magic setting woo!

 

I would also like to point out that for as long as I maintained pace in showing Luna around and not on staying in a single room for too long, that my distraction rate was fairly low, even moreso I begun feeling my arms and legs go a little numb... not the loss of blood kind of numb, but that whole "I know it's still attatched but I cant use it anymore" kind of numb =3 so yeah! that was our monday ^^

 

good monday ^^