Hannah's got five Tulpae, a progress report

[DashieFactory]

Ha! Your visualization methods remind me of the sorts of fantasy games that I played as a child. I still let myself fall into those little adventures every once in a while. Maybe it wouldn't hurt to see if I couldn't take my tulpas on one to help them into being.

 

I can't remember who but I got the idea of doing video game-like adventures with my Tulpa from someone else's PR.

 

A lot of things happened yesterday despite me not actually forcing. For one, last night I kept getting headache-like feelings in the back of my head. I asked if it was Twi and the feeling began to slowly fade away. I also drifted into a series of several dreams at one point, two of which were about tulpae, one of them about Twi specifically. I think it may have been her.

 

About what they meant, I'm not really sure. I also had several dreams about my girlfriend (her mom doesn't like the idea of us dating since we're both girls, so things have been awkward and I haven't been able to see her in over a week.) but I mainly remember the ones with Twi. In one of them, she told me her name and some of her likes, and that her Zodiac Sign was Cancer. I'm not sure if this is her telling me something or if I was just fantasizing what it will be like once she begins communicating with me which I have done a few times.

 

The other dream I had that wasn't mainly focused on Twi but on Tulpae in general, I was holding a paper with seven or so Tulpae and some information on it. One was Twi and the rest of the Mane Six followed (I do want to make tulpae for Dash and Flutters but I had never thought about the others) and then some odd OC I'd never seen before. I don't remember much besides that.

 

Also, for most of the day today my reactions have been rather slow and I've felt sort of trippy. I haven't had anything like drugs or alcohol so it's rather strange...

[Liquid Paradox]

As someone who has suffered from sleep paralysis all my life, let me tell you that, for me at least, it's anything but fun D= it's true that you are more susceptible to hallucinations, but you are also more susceptible to irrational panic, and being unable to move is not pleasant in the least. What makes this worse is 'old hag syndrome' where, when experiencing sleep paralysis, you seem to feel the presence of another... historically, this presence presents itself as something unpleasant, like a gnarled old woman sitting on your chest, although this is more subjective.

 

I will admit, if this "presence" ever became Maple, it would probably make the horror of sleep paralysis... you know, less horrible, but this has yet to happen to me. Whenever I have sleep paralysis, I just freak out and try to force myself awake, which almost never works, and just makes the situation worse.

 

Like I said, however, the experience is subjective. I just wanted to warn you that most people find it rather unpleasant, in case you make your mind susceptible to sleep paralysis, but don't actually like being in that state.

 

As far as Tulpa Forcing... I think it's cute that you're forcing Twilight (also known as: Best Pony), as long as you remember that at any time, she might decide to change her appearance. I wish the two of you the best of luck in your forcing!

 

Also, hey Twi! Good luck in your growth!

[DashieFactory]

While I didn't feel any sort of looming presence, several people have told me I might feel things like this and that sleep paralysis is a dangerous (well, not 'dangerous' but unpleasant.) experience for them but it does vary from person to person. I haven't tried it again and I think I might but I'm probably going to get my girlfriend to be in the room with me in case I start (badly) hallucinating.

 

I rested my fingers on the keyboard to see if I could sense a response for when you talked to Twi but sadly, nothing. I did feel a warm vibe so I'll say she appreciates it and yeah, with my lousy forcing schedule she'll probably need a bit of luck.

 

I know she might want to change her appearance and I've told her several times that whatever she wants to do, whether it be appearance or personality-wise, is fine by me and I won't ever judge her for anything she ever decides to do. (If it wasn't parroting, while forcing and narrating in the Void she's acted asleep and yawned, she's got a lax and laidback nature. Also she doesn't like fighting if she doesn't have to, we've done Left 4 Dead stuff but when we were in the snowy field she didn't want to fight when the turrets showed up? :/ )

 

Questiooooon! Is it fine that I don't actually sit down and force? I force and visualize passively throughout the day, but with my ADHD I can never seem to actually force.

[DashieFactory]

I tried something called Lucid Mode. I won't go into details explaining it, Octaviapus did an extraordinary job of that in the guide which you can read if you're interested. http://tulpa.info/forums/Thread-Forcing-Octaviapus-Guide-to-Lucid-Mode

 

I visualized the snow field we had the turret/portal adventure in a while ago and then imposed Twi. She had the scarf, hat and boots she had been wearing. I began asking her questions, I can remember a few of them being Can you hear me, Are you too cold, and a few others I'm having trouble remembering. While I didn't get any actual answers, I got a few head pressures. I believe this was her!

 

After a while I began to zone out and when I felt I was close to falling asleep I snapped out. Actually, I was about to give up and open my eyes but I felt as if something or someone was holding me there like they didn't want me to leave. I'm quite happy with how this went!

 

I actually think I'm going to go try a Pony Hypno session (I'll be posting about that in my blog, link in my sig. Not getting that off-topic here.) and then call it a night.

[historical]

Good luck with the pony hypnosis, I tried that once. Didn't work for shit though - I think I'm one of those logical nutjobs who can't be hypnotized.

 

So much for clopping inception being a pony.

[DashieFactory]

Ugh, remembered I was late for school yesterday and got my phone taken away so I wasn't able to do anything in terms of the hypnosis.

 

I want to try sleep paralysis again but I think I'll have someone with me (probably my girlfriend) making sure I'm safe. I've heard you can get some pretty fucked up hallucinations doing that.

 

Also might see if I can get my friend to score me some pot to see if that affects tulpaforcing at all. Might be too stoned to remember she's there, but eh.

[DashieFactory]

I tried a quick posession test. I know we're way too early in and we don't even have any vocalization done yet to try this but I still wanted to give it a go. No luck.

[DashieFactory]

We had a quick twenty minute session yesterday that didn't yield many results. As always I found myself leaning in and out of focus. I did try a method I read about that seemed to help me from trailing off a bit.

 

We sat down in the snow field and she put her hooves on my head. We closed our eyes and I told her to try to make it so my thoughts stopped losing track and it did seem to help a bit, I felt a bit of pressure on my head where her hooves would be but not much else. I could also faintly smell lilacs?

[DashieFactory]

All right, guys, a LOT of shit happened in my dreams last night. This is probably gonna be a really long post, but I need to share the stuff that went down because I think I may have two more tulpae I didn't know about. I can't remember everything and this might not be in the order it happened, but here we go.

 

I was laying in my bed when I heard a voice in my head. She addressed herself as Twilight and said she was my tulpa. We talked for a while when I glanced over into my closet (it was open and I can't STAND when my closet's open) and saw a black figure probably no more than a foot tall. It's eyes were bloodred and it jumped out of the closet. I realized it was an Umbreon, but for some reason it was REALLY pissed off and growling and shit. I tried to calm it down but it disappeared?

 

I woke up from that and tried to fall back asleep only to be in my kitchen in the same dream. The Umbreon was in the dining room, still red eyes, still growling. I whispered 'I love you' and it slowly approached me. It wasn't growling anymore and we hugged. I'll address Umbreon as a she, but I don't know the gender or anything.

 

I woke up from that and fell back asleep to be in a completely white room. It felt sort of like being in a totally white, huge box. Prussia (from Hetalia) was standing there. I can't remember much of what our conversation was but I asked him if this was inside my head and he nodded, so I think he might be a tulpa too? (I want to mention that Prussia and Twilight were both completely vocal. Umbreon never spoke so I can't say anything about her.) Prussia and I did end up

having sex.

I asked him if I would remember our encounter and he said yes.

 

Not much other than that happened except in my dream I could sense all three of them inside my head. But this is serious and I need your help because I think I have three tulpae???

[DashieFactory]

I've been thinking a lot about it and I think I'm going to keep Prussia and Umbreon. The dreams have to mean something.

 

Also, I had a nightmare yesterday and Twilight as an alicorn's image appeared on the floor. I think it was her way of 'coming into my dreams' so to speak.