Question about my situation

[Usbac]

Hello everybody, I would like to talk about my progress. I've been working 50 hours in my acerca tulpa (do a narrative on the night of 20 minutes and some daytime visualization). But the problem is not that.

 

In short I have a depression, my bad grades, my expectations of life and all that goes wrong. I make my tulpa to help me see a different perspective of things and as a company.

But my depression has led me to feel insecure about me and hate myself, to the point where I doubt if my tulpa comes to love me (I am extremely modest person), I personally am very fond of as Is my tulpa, but not if I ever felt the same. I promised a few small things That I could not meet, That makes me feel bad and I feel I disappointed her.

 

And Besides I'm too impatient (I do not count the hours, only the calculation in time) I only add 20 minutes of every day to keep track narration.

 

So, In These 50 hours I have not had any kind of response from my tulpa (maybe a small emotional response), That makes me lose some intuition.

 

I really need your help, will thank you immensely.

THANKS :)

[omegaAnubis]

1) because of the fact that a tulpa is a separate being, her opinion of you would be based on how you treat her, and not what you think of yourself. Also for the promises, because they where small, im sure she forgives you. Though i would advise you to do your best to keep promises, as with anyone else

 

2) the process of creation is very suggestive, and different for everyone. I set up a pseudo-communication with my first tulpa within a week, but it took us about six months to get him to say very basic sentences, so don't get discouraged, this is something that takes a while

[imahaxor]

You're tulpa obviously loves you; you've spent 50 hours working on her even though she hasn't given you a vocal response. It'd be crazy to think that she doesn't love you for that.

 

As for your question, I'm sure a slowpoke around here could better answer it than me.

[Telefonmast]

In short I have a depression, my bad grades

 

Start studying instead of playing games all the time, thats what I did and it worked out.

[Guest Anonymous]

 

Start studying instead of playing games all the time, thats what I did and it worked out.

 

But how can I survive without my daily intake of tulpa.info?

[Lacquer]

Start studying instead of playing games all the time, thats what I did and it worked out.

 

Okay, sorreee,

[horo_the_wise]

I'll ask there to not to make another pointless thread.

 

It's already 2 months since i'm forcing everyday (almost) not counting any hours but maybe 20~120minutes in a day. I have a general idea of an visual model but i'm not visualising, i have a basic idea about traits but not forcing it, let it be more random.

All i do is narrating. Still no response. Only what i am successful at is the presecne of someone, i got completely used to it.

Do i need to change something in how i do forcing or i can just continue like that?

[Guest Anonymous]

I'll ask there to not to make another pointless thread.

 

It's already 2 months since i'm forcing everyday (almost) not counting any hours but maybe 20~120minutes in a day. I have a general idea of an visual model but i'm not visualising, i have a basic idea about traits but not forcing it, let it be more random.

All i do is narrating. Still no response. Only what i am successful at is the presecne of someone, i got completely used to it.

Do i need to change something in how i do forcing or i can just continue like that?

 

Many people take months to get their first response (I'm one of them), so don't worry, you probably aren't doing anything wrong.

But if it feels right try to change your forcing routine up a bit, for me it always feels better when I don't do visualization for a while and then do it again, give it a try.

[Jack]

Tell you what, Usbac, I suffer from depression too. For six years now. For about two years I am paranoid. Also, add Schizotypal personality disorder to the cocktail. I have it for as long as I can remember.

I started forcing about 3 months ago, and though I had some responses, I'm yet to have a real conversation with my tulpa.

Back in the time, due to the fact that I am paranoid, I had my doubts. A lot of them, actually.

They combined with my low self-esteem and created a nasty thought, that I cannot even have a tulpa. But I carried on. Then I doubted that my tulpae will love me. But I carried on. Then I just doubted her existence overall. But I carried on.

That's what really matters, you know. You have to carry on.

You can't get rid of your doubts instantly. But if you carry on, believe me, they won't bother you as much. They will slowly dissipate.

Talk to your tulpae. Give her a lot of love and attention. And you will make it.

Be patient, and you will be rewarded. You have to be patient.

 

And about those promises - just try as hard as you can to achieve what you've promised. And then, if you won't be able to make it, your tulpa will understand. You tried.

 

Oh, and people say that hour count is tulpa poison. Personally I believe that, but then again, it's just an opinion.

[Space Cat]

Depression sucks. Self-doubt and low self esteem suck. I have experience in these fields, it's rough.

 

Either keep going or bail out and hate yourself even more for being such a wuss. This is reverse psychology, by the way, you don't want to bail out and regret it because it would only make you feel so much worse. I'm speaking from self-experience here: causes for regret are something you really want to avoid.

 

Just ignore the doubts (

even better, punch them in the face

) and keep putting time in. You have plenty of time to put into forcing; you'll be hanging out with your brain-buddy for the rest of your life, so there's really no shortage of time or a deadline or anything to stress over.

 

Just keep going with the flow, Usabac.