My wonderland, Tyler, and I.

[C0ff3Pl3453]

Alright so

I havent updated in a while because no idea what to say

Haven't seen Tyler in a while either, idk why.

I've had some shit over the last few days and yeah it's not doing well so maybe that's why? i'm really not sure, but i can't concentrate because of that and this killer headache i've had for four days.

:c

the first time i tried forcing, after getting this headache, all i got was seeing him sitting and staring out over the lake and he looks so sad :c and whenever i try to do something like go up to him, it all just breaks. Like he goes blurry and it disappears. This has happened each time i try to force

.

anyone know what's happening?

 

I can't help him and i feel bad for it.

My head's just getting worse and going in for blood tests soon and idk what to do ;-;

I miss Ty.

 

anyone help please?

[C0ff3Pl3453]

srs can anyone help pls? ;-;

[C0ff3Pl3453]

Okay, so I kept trying and it got worse, his face was sadder each time, but then I kinda had a realisation thingy that I’d rely on people way too much again. So I got in a ‘faku.’ Mood oops but it helped because yeah and I saw Tyler earlier yay.

 

The house has kind of changed, like the downstairs has music constantly playing, which is good because I usually listen to music to help me concentrate and now I see it like the music I’m listening to is what’s playing. It also has an extra room, in which I found him in, and it’s plain white.

Nothing really has happened, just thought I’d better update.

[PsychoticDoc]

Just keep working at it man, not a whole lot of stuff can be answered easily. If you are having problems, just try and communicate with Tyler.

[C0ff3Pl3453]

Am doing :33 thanks

[C0ff3Pl3453]

Heythere

So

idk what to say

over the last few days i've more spoken to him in my head during the day (ranting etcetc:3) and visiting wonderland with him later. Nothing else has changed.

Not much to say but thought to update.

[C0ff3Pl3453]

Soooooooooooooooooooooooooo

I'm becoming even more hermit and avoiding people where i can woo funnn so watching supernatural, ghost hunt, charmed, playing AC3 and borderlands and spending time with Ty has occupied me. And doughnuts. Doughnuts are gooddd.

But yeah, so, Tyler and I haven't had looooads of conversation, it's more i say something adn he looks at me. His expression being the reply. Most of the time, that's all i need.

The last time i was with him we were sitting togther by the lake, it was dark and rllyy cold. He has gone back to wearing the skinnies and blazer, which, btw, really suits him xD

 

I guess i was shivering (eewww) because he just looked at me, bumped me with his shoulder and wrapped his blazer over my shoulders. (Aw). It was sweet albeit a little sickly-sappy :3

I guess he knows that that was something that would make me happy, and it did.

 

y'know those stupid sappy 'moments' in movies where the peeople stop and stare at each others' faces? Well, minus the eww-y romance part, that kinda happened, but since i'm a retard and don't know what to do in times like those, i pushed him into the lake because he was leaning close to it to be near to me. Yes, mean, but he decided to pull me with him.

 

The bloody bastard xD

 

So we had a water fight, which was pretty darn fun :3

And I think i fell asleep so yeah

[C0ff3Pl3453]

So my best friend was proxying his tulpa over text, and as we three were making crazy conversation (Tyler didn't talk much so I didn't speak for him), Ty kept making faces (he thinks we're all insane). I think he prefers to make faces than actually converse.

I've tried imagining him with me irl more than going to the wonderland. I find it easier tbh. Whilst we were talking (the three of us) he would make faces and small actions, for eg when the other tulpa said something quite gross (omfg) he hid his head by my shoulder.

what's it like for other people when your tulpa touches you?

because for me it's like I don't exactly feel anything but

Y'know the feeling when someone hovers their hand over your arm? you can't feel it but you know it's there?

That.

Where you know there should be a pressure but there isn't.

[N1ghtSl4yer]

That gross-out was perfect.

Do you mean irl or wonderland?

In wonderland it's as if everything's real for me - because I get so engrossed and I've done everything in so much detail.

In real life I feel a sort of warmth when we're especially 'in sync'.

She can simulate a hug, as I mentioned in my report, but there's no pressure.

[Shui]

If you want to make touch more realistic, check out this. I'm not there yet myself.