Schitzo/vent/what./

[Bedhead]

Soo. . .

I expelled all the tulpae out of me, or at least tried.

I never have been able to see them, but I can hear a voice in my head.

Before dealing with tulpae I would talk to myself and answer back in a different perspective. During that time I would argue with myself over anything for the hell of it.

 

Now I just have this voice that I talk to it's me, and it's not. . I recognize it, but I don't have as much control over it. . Like atleast 50% of it is my control. In that 50% I control whether or not I hear it.

I don't really care much that it's there, sometimes it's nice to talk to myself, but I linked the tulpa project that I did to increasing the space the voice has to roam around with. It's not out of control, but it's not pleasant.

I would rather that it would be 100% than 50% of it's own.

 

It's not that I don't appreciate it, it's just that I would rather it have it's own personality, instead of just argue for the sake of argueing, or just being predictable. That's the problem with making a tulpa for me. After a while I started noticing that there was a voice, but it didn't feel like something that was an something outside of me, but just me talking to myself. I knew that it wasn't me, but it was too predictable that . .

 

Well, so no matter what I can create a character in my head and give them a voice, and it doesn't really matter if they are indepth, they just talk when I ask them too. It's a shame I didn't reach a higher degree, or point with this tulpae stuff. I could create a jeff the killer if I wanted, give him a voice, then have him talk to me in an aggressive way, or scary, and it would feel like his own unique voice, but unless it interacts with my in this physical plain with my other senses then it doesn't do anything to excite me.what ever. Seriously, how did those lucky bastards get to be able to develop a tulpa so quickly and have them react to their 5-6 ;) senses. .

 

Well yeah, someone research why I am so crazy to have my tulpae dissipate, and still be able to talk to them without them freaking out about coming back to life like I just practiced some sort of necromancy without zombification.

[Antylamon]

"Uh, how long did you give between dissipation and 'coming back to life?' It might not really have been dissipation and you knew it anyways subconsciously. Or maybe that's bullshit.

 

Nothing wrong with you either way. A half-sentient tulpa, as you understand it, is way out of your Monkeysphere.

 

...More about Monkeysphere here.

 

(lol what's the point of the poll? And shouldn't this thread be in Q&A rather than Research?)"

[Chupi]

Moving to Q&A, since it's not research or an experiment.

 

If they're still there, you clearly didn't succeed in dissipating them. As for why they didn't freak out about coming back to life, I can only speculate since I'm not in your head to observe. Perhaps they never actually died. Or perhaps it worked like any other time they might have blacked out in the wonderland -- they just come to elsewhere some time later.

 

If you have a voice that's 50% you and 50% not-you, you can make it more not-you by focusing on the source of the not-you portion of it and making it stronger. That is tulpaforcing.

 

Regarding the arguing, it sounds like you have trained a part of your brain to debate you. This is useful, but you want to avoid interacting with this part when talking to a tulpa. If you're talking to this part, it will be predictable, because this part is you.

 

If a tulpa's responses are significantly more predictable than an extremely close friend's, it's because the tulpa is not yet independent. A lot of their thoughts are shared between the two of you. You feel the thought, so the speech from it is no more surprising than your own.

 

As for characters that respond in thought-voices, that's nothing new. It's trivial to conjure up a dream character, but they typically don't speak out of nowhere, and disappear quickly and easily. They also tend to be shallow unless they're a carbon copy of a character or person you know well.

 

Some people have an easier time experiencing mind-senses, while others are stuck with purely mental sensations for a long period. As one of the slowpokes, I can relate.

[Nobillis]

Seriously, how did those lucky bastards get to be able to develop a tulpa so quickly and have them react to their 5-6 ;) senses.

Simple: years of meditation, self-hypnosis, reading, and introspection.