The Commander January 28, 2014 Author January 28, 2014 We really are wondering if this possible recent development could be a sign of at least Ruby possibly becoming audible...Dash seems a little unhappy, but is nevertheless hopeful that it is. Current: Rainbow Dash & Ruby the Dolphin LINK to the story of my Wonderland. The story is the product of 16 years of stress, tension, etc, and is uncensored, read at your own risk.
The Commander April 16, 2014 Author April 16, 2014 I haven't been posting much recently do to the lack of results. However, lately we've been working on finding specific triggers (such as every time I see a certain object to remember to talk to them, even if just saying 'hi') in order to make it easier for me to remember to keep them in mind. I was taking a shower earlier, and we might have some results. For Ruby, there was brief moment (about ten seconds or so) where the area she was standing seemed to shimmer, and for Dash, I could briefly see a pinpoint of color that would blossom or pulsate, as if taking form. It did this for about ten to twenty seconds before stopping. During this time, they're mental voices also grew louder, even though not taking a physical audibility. This might be a sign that we're doing something right, but we don't know. What do you guys think? Current: Rainbow Dash & Ruby the Dolphin LINK to the story of my Wonderland. The story is the product of 16 years of stress, tension, etc, and is uncensored, read at your own risk.
The Commander April 30, 2014 Author April 30, 2014 To further add proof that they are starting to achieve physical appearance...I was at work today, and I saw that shimmering air again, so it couldn't have been just the head radiating like in the shower. When I asked them if it was them, Ruby confirmed that it was her. Current: Rainbow Dash & Ruby the Dolphin LINK to the story of my Wonderland. The story is the product of 16 years of stress, tension, etc, and is uncensored, read at your own risk.
The Commander May 2, 2014 Author May 2, 2014 Had an instance yesterday where I woke up in the middle of the night, and when I shifted positions, I could actually feel soft fur beside me. It wasn't my cat's, since he was asleep on the floor, and it wasn't course, like I expected horse fur to be, but I swear that I actually touched Dash...she doesn't remember this (then again, she was asleep), but it was very clear, and there was a brief clicking in my mind that I could feel when I did it...but I have been unable to do it again. Last night, Ruby asked me why was it that I could feel Dash, but not her, leaving me to explain that because I've never actually touched a dolphin before, or any sea creature, it'd be much harder for my mind to emulate the texture of blubber, compared to that of fur. Just found it odd that Dash's fur was soft, not course like normal horsehair. Still think its progress though, so I'm happy, Dash is too. Even Ruby, although she is a little distraught. Current: Rainbow Dash & Ruby the Dolphin LINK to the story of my Wonderland. The story is the product of 16 years of stress, tension, etc, and is uncensored, read at your own risk.
The Commander May 13, 2014 Author May 13, 2014 ^^^Mine and Tulpas' Positions as well as a rough layout of my room^^^ DETAILED DESCRIPTION OF TULPAFORCING: ~~~Some Progress WAS Indeed Made That Day~~~ First off, these are the songs I listened to during this whole adventure...I started off with " ", but I didn't get progress until I played the higher energy songs, so these are what I listened to, all are from the DARK SOULS soundtrack and are ordered by when I listened to them: ~Iron Golem ~ ~ First, I sat on my bed, staring at the wall across from me, since Dash was gonna be the subject of this bout of tulpaforcing, I had her stand between me and the wall, right in front of my brother's bed, in profile. For about five minutes, I struggled to find something to focus on so that I could begin forming her from it. My eye then caught sight of a trick of the light that resembled a 'potato on its side' sort of shape, figured this would be her wings in a relaxed state. So I expanded on there, soon after, another set of light, a line running a few inches beneath her 'wings' appeared, flashing, and was 3D, whereas the wings were 2D on the wall. I decided that this line of light was her belly's outline between her forelimbs and her hind limbs. I concentrated on here for several minutes, my focus bouncing between the two of them several times, unfortunately each new change of focus rendering the other one invisible...until I managed to get both of them visible at the same time, and they were glowing. After this for a few minutes, every 'line of light' that was making her outline in my vision flashed brightly a few times, and a NEW line appeared, this one above the 'potato' shape, which I figured would be her back outline. The next to appear was a diagonal line shooting up from the 'back', figured her neck's outline. Unfortunately, my cat fell off the TV at this point, breaking my concentration. So I had to restart, once more taking the potato shape, even though everything else was gone now. When the belly line reappeared, I had a hard time finding the concentration to keep both lines visible...again. Eventually I got it, and once I managed to get the back line to reform, then instead of her neck line, a diagonal line from the bottom line shot upwards diagonally, figured it was her throat line. My excitement got the better of me, shattering my concentration. I tried again, and although I did manage to juggle both the potato shape and the belly line, I couldn't get anything else to appear, although several times the glowing white lines of my vision (Dash's outlines) would flash my whole vision white briefly before I would literally watch those lines morph and reform. Soon the 'potato' shape took on a shape similar to her wings in a resting motion, although the feathers were still not outlined. Juggling with this for awhile, started getting tired, and my playlist was fading out from the high energy tracks to slower ones...so I stopped for a break and to type this out. I also sketched some rough images in MS Paint just to show you guys an example of what I saw. Continuing on with the rest of the attachments since there is apparently a four attachment cap per post... EDIT: I love how its out of order from what the images should be -_- Current: Rainbow Dash & Ruby the Dolphin LINK to the story of my Wonderland. The story is the product of 16 years of stress, tension, etc, and is uncensored, read at your own risk.
The Commander May 16, 2014 Author May 16, 2014 We've been bouncing back and forth on what to do for visualization since I'm having a hard time figuring out what's right and what's wrong. However, we've been doing 'mind's eye' forcing, where I close my eyes and find Dash, in astounding detail for an image based on memory animated for purposes I need, standing in the black void. We tried the whole 'numbers' thing (having tulpa take a blank canvas and counting upwards, restarting from 0 with a blank canvas if my concentration breaks, and I found that I was able to see the animation of turning the page or her getting rid of the canvas out of irritation for breaking concentration (she favors a roundhouse kick) with ease...which is odd. I can only assume I'm further along than I originally thought I was, so maybe that means there's a potential they can be fully physical soon...Speaking with senses, I'm working on making them physically audible and physically visible, not just an imagined 'thought-conversation' or 'sensing' they're in a certain place in a certain position doing something. We'll see how it goes. Current: Rainbow Dash & Ruby the Dolphin LINK to the story of my Wonderland. The story is the product of 16 years of stress, tension, etc, and is uncensored, read at your own risk.
The Commander May 18, 2014 Author May 18, 2014 Went to take a shower earlier (yes my tulpa shower with me), and I could tell that I've been working on Dash, because I could see, but at the same time not see, a slight refraction in the light around the area I sensed her to be in. Although the refraction was formless, it was almost as if I was looking at something that is wearing an invisibility cloak. Working with our new mode of forcing utilizing the "mind's eye", Dash's details are starting to clear up and become more and more visible when I scan down her body...figured I'd try something where near the beginning of our sessions, I would walk around her a couple of times and slowly take in the sight of every detail of her body, then try to put it all together. I can already tell that the hardest part to recreate is her face, which I guess is normal, since the face is the most complex part of the body. We did some of this kind of visualizing for awhile, all the while talking to her (in this state, it's quite shocking how different her replies are, and even the way she talks, from when I'm not in this meditative state, and its obvious I'm not parroting when we're in this state, unless it's entirely involuntarily and too slight for me to notice.) Anyway, so after tolerating standing still long enough for me to walk around her a few times and slowly observe her body, I offered to try something a little unique...something we tried a while ago (or at least me and Ruby) but didn't get very far I don't think (since it was more or less lucid dreaming, or summoning lucid dreams, than what we were trying to do). Given how Dash has developed quite well lately, and as a sort of reward or having the patience to stand there while I walked circles around her and mapped her body, I offered to try possession. Unfortunately, it didn't fair too well, Dasd had a hard time "fusing" her body with mine, let alone having her conscience take over mine, oh well. Shit happens I guess. We're both starting to get tired (it's 4 AM where I live, and I haven't slept yet), so I think I'm just gonna end the session for tonight with this little progress report...poor Dash just plopped down on the floor and is about to pass out herself. Current: Rainbow Dash & Ruby the Dolphin LINK to the story of my Wonderland. The story is the product of 16 years of stress, tension, etc, and is uncensored, read at your own risk.
The Commander May 18, 2014 Author May 18, 2014 Woke up and did another session of tulpaforcing/visualizing. Despite the fact I had a hard time concentrating, I starting to reach the point, I think, where I can see her whole form through my mind's eye, even though its really fuzzy. Current: Rainbow Dash & Ruby the Dolphin LINK to the story of my Wonderland. The story is the product of 16 years of stress, tension, etc, and is uncensored, read at your own risk.
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