The way is in training

[Xantan]

im tired so this is a placeholder to jog my memory. Narius, ill attend your message tomorrow as well.

 

- ate dinner with family and alice

- watched comedy show

- played bass

-was a little sad

- tulpa hugs

- kinda poor forcing session, alice put up a few decorations, we looked at the tree. she showed me a picture of flowers, they had a scent. drank hot chocolate, had doubts, alice pushed them away.

[Xantan]

Merry Christmas everyone!

 

An early morning at my father's place with my brother and step-siblings. I did my best to wake Alice first thing in the morning but the coffee was decaf. regardless we gathered around the tree and slowly worked our way through the family opening presents.

I ended up getting a few nice things and Alice seemed happy, though she really wanted to open a present too. I forced her a quick present she could open with a gold necklace i saw at the store in it. i'll have to solidify it later but she seemed to like it anyways.

 

last night i got a small forcing session before falling asleep, but i was sleepy enough it was just us drinking some hot chocolate and chatting. I couldn't even keep the wonderland in focus but at least we could talk. maybe it's the holiday spirit, but she seems a lot more affectionate lately.

[Xantan]

Not dead or anything;

 

So i ran into some problems after returning home, mostly linked to my mindset when i'm in my room. I tend to engage in tasks that i think are pretty boring to others and as such haven't forced Alice with me as much. I'm trying to change this by getting out of the house and finding things i can do that she can enjoy, like going for walks (but damn it's cold.)

 

In good news, on one of these walks we made our way to the library and i asked alice to request a genre. She wanted science fiction so i agreed (and happy at her vocality). we ended up grabbing "the moon is a harsh mistress" by something Heinlein. so far it's worth the read, but the characters speak a slang version of English, which makes it a bit more difficult to read, comprehend, and send the words to her, all at the same time.