Tweaky's Heavily Distracted Misadventures in Tulpae.

[Frosty]

Have you tried the mood elevation one with the rain sound effects? I find it to be quite soothing.

[Dorf]

<3

[Tweaks]

No, I haven't. I'll be sure to try it tonight!

[Tweaks]

Too tired to force last night, but i managed to get a decent session for tonight. Not enough to make up for yesterdays lack of forcing, but it was still half decent. As always, narration with some visuals in the end.

[Tweaks]

Just had a really good session, a nice 40 odd minutes of just chilling and chatting it up with Red. Started with a little narration, but not so much because our was rather uneventful, but we started actually working on/creating our wonderland, some visualization and just feeling around making sure Red is anatomically correct, and as far as I can tell, all is well with Red's form. We explored the first little area of the wonderland, leaving the rest for later sessions, then figured since school is coming up we'd talk about our first day of high school, and speculated on what the first day of this year might be like. Not sure if this was me accidentally puppeting or if Red may actually be somewhat sentient now (which I kind of doubt, seeing as how we aren't that far, but who knows?), but Red made some quick facial expressions when we were just talking and visualizing. The first one, a smile, I think might have just been a puppeted reaction to me running my fingers through hir (yes, hir, that is not a typo) hair while I was feeling around making sure everything was mostly right, and the second being during the second narration of the sesh when I mentioned a possible downside to my girlfriend attending the same school as me. It didn't quite feel any different, so I'm assuming it was accidental puppeting, but one can never be too sure with these kinds of things. Considering tulpaforcing during the day/mornings before I actually crawl my ass out of bed in addition to the usual before-bed session.

[Nikodemos]

You don't 'accidentally' puppet a tulpa. As a rule of thumb, if you're not sure if it was you or your tulpa, it was your tulpa. Same with 'subconcious parroting'

[Tweaks]

Okay then! That's good to know, and now I can assume that there's at least a hint of sentience somewhere in Red. Also, I forgot to mention this, but a little bit into the session, my arms went numb, my left arm more so than the right, and I felt an odd itch on my cheek. At first it was a bit of a distraction, but I tried to avoid scratching or paying attention to it, and it gradually became less of a problem, not that it was a problem in the first place. I think the itch came after the first reaction, so it may be important, or it may just be coincidence. Again, I'm new to this, I have no idea what to think of these kinds of things.

[Tweaks]

Tonight's session was disappointingly short, just under a half hour, but what happened during it was pretty successful, I might say. After a little narration and visualization, I picked up Red and carried hir on my back around the wonderland, like a piggy back ride or something. We decided to walk through the forest, and ended up getting lost, which got what I'm hoping/assuming was another emotional response from Red, the feeling of fear. So, we ran around the forest with Red on my back, trying to find out way back to the main part of our wonderland, and we eventually just teleported back there after a few minutes of frustration. (after the session I discovered I had actually been sweating from all the running around xD) We went back to the little place we started the narration/visualization session in, and I got a tad upset with Red hardly responding to me or showing any signs of sentience during the session, which I immediately regretted and apologized afterwards before one final story for the night.

[Tweaks]

So yesterday while we were out shopping with a friend, we got like, 4 minutes while she was in trying on clothes. It was pretty good, forcing in the middle of a mall, up until when we were violently snapped back into reality with our friend kicking us (we were sat on the floor, probably looked like we were asleep). Then, as always, before bed, we had about 45 minutes of narration/visualization, and chilling around wonderland. Got another emotional response, as well. Red felt nervous when I decided we should go back into the forest for a bit, but it was alright, we didn't get lost again. I believe there was a little bit more narration before the end of the session, but I honestly can't remember for the life of me. I really enjoyed the public forcing, though. Very relaxing. Might do it again sometime.

[Tweaks]

Last night was our best session yet, no doubt. After out little bit of narration/visualization, we went for another walk through the forest like the last two times. I believe I felt a few more emotions from Red, but during our walk we happened upon a beach, and we just sat there for a bit. While we were walking there I was carrying Red on my back, as shi has yet to move so when I crouched down to let go, I expected hir to just flop down like a ragdoll, but when I turned around to sit next to hir, I noticed shi was sitting nrmally, so she must've moved to that position. I was talking to Red, and then something amazing happened. I thought, very quietly, the word "Well..." but it wasn't in either of my thinking "voices". I didn't notice the difference between my regular thinking and that word, so I went off it and thought to Red "Well," about to continue that thought, until I realized there was something different about that thought. The "voice" it came from was more feminine compared to my main "thinking-voice" and my quieter "thinking-of-what-to-think-next-voice", and a little bit in-between those two "thought-voices" in terms of volume within my head. Red just spoke. Holy shit. I got a little excited, seeing as how Red just fucking spoke, but I contained my excitement and apologized for cutting hir off. Shi said nothing, so I continued talking to hir, noticing a few slight movements, such as turning hir head to look at me, and eventually decided it was time we walked back to what I guess you could call our home within the wonderland. When we got back home, and climbed through to the cave behind the waterfall where we usually start our sessions, I figured it'd be a good idea to end the session by figuratively going to sleep within our wonderland, as the room in the cave had a bunch of random shit in it, including a bed and a couch. I considered Just putting Red down on the bed and going to sleep next to hir, but then thought that shi might want to sleep on the couch, seeing as how every session starts with hir sitting on the couch looking across to me sitting on the bed before I narrate. So I ask Red if she would like to sleep on the bed or couch, and I hear a very faint, feminine voice similar to the one from earlier. I couldn't quite hear hir, so I ask if she could speak up a little. Still very quiet, but i can just manage to make out the word couch, so I assume shi said "I'd like to sleep on the couch." So, we lie hir down on the couch and get in the bed, ending the session.

 

I also got that itch again around the same time Red either A) moved for the first time, or B) spoke the first time, so there's a good chance that itch has some relation to Red's sentience.