Tweaky's Heavily Distracted Misadventures in Tulpae.

[Tweaks]

Last night was more or less the same as every other session. May have been shorter, I don't know. Oh well. Woke up at 5:42, which is much closer to :50 than it is ;20, so Red is saying she didn't say that. Or maybe I just woke up on my own, no assistance from Red. Think I'll try the tulpa wake up thing to make sure it was Red that woke me up.

[Tweaks]

Another uneventful session not worth writing about. It seems my sessions are getting shorter. Not by much, but there's enough of a difference worth mentioning. Although I blame the length of last night's session on my going to a 5 hour punk show. Smoking that joint just before the last set didn't help much, either. It wasn't much, but the weed combined with the moshing and headbanging, I was extremely tired.

[Tweaks]

So as you can see I've stopped updating daily, since not much was happening. But last night was awesome. Our first session while high. Of course, we weren't exactly concentrating, but Red was very vocal throughout damn near the whole session. As usual, I told her about our day, and then asked her what she wanted to do. Red just looked at me and said "Drugs." Maybe it was the weed, but I like the way Red thinks. So I pulled a joint out of my pocket and we smoked it. Then Red was high, and I felt great because she was speaking much more. We eventually made our way to the TARDIS/Library/place Red goes to read books that are supposed to be my memories, because it has beanbag chairs there. We sat in them and ate Mike and Ike's until I dozed off. I know, I know, shouldn't be falling asleep while tulpaforcing, but I was really comfy both in my head and in real life, and I was high, so suck it.

[Tweaks]

Finally something worth mentioning. Since we haven't really been making much progress, I figured instead of just learning to listen and not doing anything else, since that'd be boring, to start either possession or imposition while we're working on vocals. So, using the whole wake-up-time thing again, I asked Red if she wanted to do possession or imposition, by waking me up at :20 or :50, respectively. Well, we woke up around 9:22, so that's cool, we're gonna start doing possession. It makes sense, if I was given the choice to either appear in the world before being able to affect any of my surroundings, or to take control of the body of probably the one person I actually know and do whatever the fuck with it, I'd certainly choose the latter. There'll probably be another post tonight if there was any success.

[Tweaks]

Possession is some crazy shit, man. I said down, relaxed my right arm, and told Red that she could now possess that arm. It took a little bit to get started, but once it did, it was some freaky ass shit, man. I could feel Red inside my hand, trying to move it around. She seemed to mainly focus on the movement of the fingers, rather than the whole arm, the first movement being a quick twitch of my thumb, a few minutes later that was followed by a my pinkie finger twitching, then my middle. I'm sure it was Red and not just those random twitches you get while you're in deep relaxation, because it felt foreign, and very quick and jerky. Next, I suggested that Red tried to lift a finger. Again, I could feel Red in my hand trying to figure out how to move that finger, and after say, maybe 10 seconds or so, my right index finger clicked maybe a millimeter upwards. I say click because that's what it felt like. Like when you crack your knuckles, and you feel that clicking/cracking of your knuckle? Like that, but smaller. A few seconds later, my finger clicked up another millimeter. And another. After about four clicks, I felt very satisfied with Red's progress so far, and said that was enough for that finger for now, and it slowly, gently lowered. There weren't a lot of clicks to the lowering, it was more like when you try to slowly move something like a body part, and it's kinda shaky. 10-15 seconds after Red had finished lowering my index finger back to it's original position, my pinkie jerked again, but outwards this time. Five seconds after, it jerked out again. Then it clicked upwards maybe five or six times, before making its shaky descent. It felt so weird having Red control my body, even if it was just a small part of it, but hot damn it was amazing.

[Oguigi]

glad your tulpa is starting to learn Possession, Oguigi (my Tulpa) was at this stage about a month and a week ago.

 

keep this up and Red will be controlling your whole body in two months time.

[Tweaks]

That's actually kind of crazy to think about, koomer.

 

But anyways, last night we decided to start off our session with so possession (heh, it rhymes), relaxing my hand so Red could take over, and then she lifted my index and pinkie fingers again. Then I asked Red to try to move my (is it ours now?) wrist, and she did so, in the process slightly twitching my forearm and flexing one or two muscles somewhere around there. So after she put the wrist back down, we moved on to forearm/elbow. I asked Red to bring our (maybe it's hers since she's controlling it?) hand to my face, and she eventually did so. Just like before, all the movements were slow and jerky, but that's okay, she's still learning how to move, and I'm still learning how to cope with the fact that I'm being fucking possessed (!!!!) and try not to snap back control for even just a fraction of a second, but no doubt we'll soon both be able to handle possession pretty well. Then, of course, Red slowly lowered the arm back to it's original position. I took back control for a little bit, cracked my knuckles (god I love that feel), and moved my hand to a different position before letting Red take over again. I asked Red to move my pinkie up, and when she did, I told her that that would mean "yes", then asked her to lower it, that'd mean "no". Then, I asked Red a few simple yes/no questions, and moved on with the session. The actual wonderland bit of the session wasn't very eventful, as per usual, I just told her about my day for a bit, then we went for a little walk. I don't think I fell asleep during the session, but I don't remember ending it. Hm. Also, for the most part, the whole session was open-eyed, even the wonderland/visualization bits. All in all, this was an excellent session.

[Tweaks]

More possession. Yummy. We seem to be making a lot of progress with this, we started off our session with Red lifting each finger on my right hand, and each finger went up faster than the last. Then Red lifted our arm, and I had her try to touch our finger tips to our thumb, to see if she could move more than one thing at a time. It was slow, but it worked. Then for the last thing before we went into wonderland and did the same old same old, I asked Red to make a fist. She got close, our hand was half closed, almost like when you mime holding something, but Red couldn't quite close our hand entirely to make a fist. Still, I'm very impressed with her progress. Not anything worth mentioning during the wonderland.

[Tweaks]

More possession. Red made a fist, and learned to move the entire arm now. That's really about it. Though I'd like to comment on how possession actually feels. It's almost like my arm is asleep and just doing whatever the fuck it wants. That same pins and needles feeling you get when a body part falls asleep, ya know? It's weird. And fascinating. I love it. Wonderland time was just pretty much the same as always, but when I asked Red what she wanted to do, she pointed somewhere. Where exactly is not important, but when she pointed it was very animated and cartoony, complete with a cartoon-ish sound effect that I can't quite descibe with an onomatopoeia, but it's like when someone pulls out a hugeass sword and there's that little sparkle of light dancing from it, it was like that sound. Kind of like a "shing!" Not really important, I just wanted to share that little tidbit of fun.

[Tweaks]

Well then. That was certainly a productive session. Started with Red lifting the fingers and just properly "getting into" the hand, then she just waved it around for a bit while I narrated. Then I got an idea. So I walked over to the computer, Red still controlling my right arm, opened up notepad, and asked Red to type. First I told to to type something like "Hello my name is Red." It took a little bit, but eventually she had typed out the sentence. Then I asked her what she wanted to do/where she wanted to go when we went into wonderland, and after a few moments of either thinking or trying to find the keys for the word, Red answered. I saved the .txt, then went back to sit in bed and chill. Red waved around a bit more, touching my face one or two times, then eventually I took back control and we went into wonderland. Nothing too special there, we were just really chilling.