Starting again after almost a year

[Kin]

Hello. It's been on my mind almost every week since I stopped in January, and I'm finally getting around to it. At the time I could not put time into my Tulpa and pretty much that was that. I tried maintaining contact every so often, but I'm not sure if it was to any avail. I want to start over, with many of the same/similar features of my previous tulpa. Will she even have memories of back then? Is it best to start anew or build off of what I started? Honestly I didn't get really far (or it felt that way because I still couldn't have a conversation with her, but I knew she was there) cause like I said I thought I had time but I really didn't. I wasn't that great at forcing or anything. I would like any type of help because I am serious about this, and I would like to get peoples opinion.

 

I tried looking for threads on mlp, even though I didn't come from there or really am a fan, but I haven't found any so I thought this thing sorta died out but this site still appears very active. If anything changed with the process, or something else please tell me. I enjoyed how nice the community was back then.

 

We appreciate any help we can get. I know I will have to look at guides again, and maybe if I can get some recommendations.

[Evial]

Why would you want to start a clean slate. In my opinion I can feel the tulpa you created before would be very upset. I believe it is present if you just believe in it and yourself. If you want to start again thou, I dont think it would have its previous memories considering a tulpa is ment to be its own being. But if you it does renember its memories it could mean that you have found your tulpa again.

[bersinger]

If you have memories of her then i'd say she's recoverable. Probably back to square 1 and possibly with some of the more.. social issues of such an abandonment, but still different than no square at all and stepping on a completely new path.

[Kin]

Why would you want to start a clean slate. In my opinion I can feel the tulpa you created before would be very upset. I believe it is present if you just believe in it and yourself. If you want to start again thou, I dont think it would have its previous memories considering a tulpa is ment to be its own being. But if you it does renember its memories it could mean that you have found your tulpa again.

 

Na I wan't to build off what we had, I just thought it would be better if I took her idea and reshaped it to better prepare myself.

 

If you have memories of her then i'd say she's recoverable. Probably back to square 1 and possibly with some of the more.. social issues of such an abandonment, but still different than no square at all and stepping on a completely new path.

 

I had a long talk before I did it and I know she wasn't for it but she knew it would just hurt her if I only talked to her a few minutes out of the day. I'm gonna try but idk how to do it honestly.

[JackTheWingedLion]

Hello. It's been on my mind almost every week since I stopped in January, and I'm finally getting around to it. At the time I could not put time into my Tulpa and pretty much that was that. I tried maintaining contact every so often, but I'm not sure if it was to any avail. I want to start over, with many of the same/similar features of my previous tulpa. Will she even have memories of back then? Is it best to start anew or build off of what I started? Honestly I didn't get really far (or it felt that way because I still couldn't have a conversation with her

 

I felt Jack get pretty angry when he read this. Couldn't you have said hello or goodmorning or goodnight once in a while? Why not just imagine your tulpa. Just talk even. It'll

probably take you a long time to repair your relationship her.

[Linkzelda]

Like I've mentioned in an article I'm still working on, when you're wondering if you should start anew or build off of what you started, you're merely seeing things in a new light.

 

Don't worry about people who feel your tulpa will be intimidated by this, that's only their disposition on predicting how she'll feel. No one can really know how she feels other than yourself. She's the one that exists primarily from the confines of your mind.

 

In fact, the same sentiments people are giving from the previous posts that you shouldn't start off from a clean slate are just setting up a double bind situation for you.

 

The point is that some people need time off because they felt they couldn't manage their bond with a tulpa (e.g. family struggles, academics, relationships with a partner), and when they get their priorities planned out and moderated, that's when they can have a better hold on interacting with a tulpa.

 

Whether you think it's starting anew or picking off where you started, your memory of her still exists. All you need to do is search for those pre-existent thoughts and build from there. So just start where you left off, it's not like you're an innate psychopath (hopefully) that's trying to destroy her or anything.

 

Either way, you're going to be giving attention to her, and your tulpa will definitely be happy to know that you can find some time to acknowledge her. She's probably more empathetic and vicarious of your position of postponing your progress with her, you'll just have to talk to her to find out the truth.

 

And as for reading guides, you'll probably just need to glance over them, since you've probably built a general competence for understanding the underlying meanings in them. Good luck! Don't forget that sometimes saying "Thank you," "Hey," "Good morning," "good night," or even imagining yourself hugging your tulpa can make all the difference.

 

 

TL;DR:

 

It's the thought that counts. Nothing was damaged, nothing needs to be repaired, you just have to go back into focusing on her existence. Use what you've learned from the past and build from that.

[Bacn]

I've never understood why people would take a break from their tulpa. If you don't have the time to sit down and force for a few hours every day that's understandable, but the bare minimum investment you need to put into a tulpa in order to have them grow is narration. All you have to do is talk to them, which doesn't even require a time investment. The vast majority of time I've spent with my tulpa is spent when I'm at work, just trying to distract myself while time passes by.

[konrad13]

I know that feel, Kin. Had to cut way back last December, and stopped in January... I really miss Koharu, she was mostly vocal though nowhere near visualized. Starting tomorrow I'm going to try to revive her, and actively work to visualize her by Christmas (it'll be a present to her and me since my family won't be doing gift exchanges this year due to medical and private bills). Best of luck!