The black shoe diaries. (Amber and Toby)

[Guest amber5885]

So I have been learning a lot about myself lately and I really have to thank Toby for this.

 

I saw a documentary on something rather weird and its not an idea that I am new to but it keeps coming back in my life and this time around I decided that it was something that I would like to try.

 

(I'm not going to say what it is because its completely fucking strange but I love it, it doesn't hurt anyone and I'm not comfortable letting the cat out of the bag.)

 

But the point is that before I felt ashamed, weird and kind of like a freak for even considering the idea before but I told Toby that i would like to try this... thing and he was completely supportive. It was amazing actually.

 

The weird thing was I went to the store and I was shopping for supplies to help me with this thing and he actually stepped in and helped me pick out a few things. I kind of wanted him to argue with me, or talk me out of it but he just laughed and said it was adorable and he didn't see anything wrong with it at all so he wasn't going to do that.

 

It was nice to have that kind of support and it is amazing to have at least one person in my life who accepts me for all my quirks and strange hobbies as well :)

 

I'm starting to become a hell of a lot more comfortable with myself and with the things that I enjoy and I don't think I would have done it without Toby's support.

 

I also found out that I am a Brony...... At least I really like MLP and I am actually watching it at this moment. ......Yeah! lol

 

Anywho thats my thing. Toby helped me discover a thing about myself and I think it's amazing that he's become the support that I have always wanted and the friend I have always needed.

[Cinemaphobe]

Are you sure that you shouldn't just let the cat out of the bag? Because the things that I am imagining you doing are much much worse than what you are probably doing. I'm sure that everybody here is accepting...so you can tell us right? Or is it really going to be that secretive? Imagine the theories floating around in everyone's minds lol

[Guest amber5885]

No one will guess. No one. It's that rare. What is your idea?

[Cinemaphobe]

Thank god no one will guess. That fact completely dismisses all of my horrible ideas lol

 

I can't even tell you my ideas xD

 

Carry on!

[Guest amber5885]

What I do can be considered a form of regression therapy.

 

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I like to dress and act like a fucking 7 year old okay. I put on fuzzy clothes and I play with my barbies and watch cartoons. Toby helped me pick out a sponegebob sippy cup and a new barbie.

 

I debated sharing this but you know what everyone has weird things about them and if the weirdest thing I do is act like a kid then I think all things considered I got off pretty lucky.

 

You can judge me all you want. If I can admit to having a tulpa I can admit to playing with legos in my spare time.

[Cinemaphobe]

Ok thank god. That is nothing compared to what I thought. Here are a few of the ideas that came to my mind when you wouldn't tell what you were doing. (Don't judge me)

 

1. Oh shit. I think that amber is starting a meth lab.

2. Oh shit. Is amber getting into witchcraft?

3. Oh shit. Amber is doing some kind of hardcore drug.

 

Everybody does have their weird thing to do, so I don't mind ^^ I'm just glad that you aren't doing hardcore drugs\

 

 

EDIT: I have been watching Breaking Bad with Yumi a lot lately lol that's where #1 came from

 

DOUBLE-EDIT: I told you that everybody here is accepting. This is a tulpa forum after all lol

[Guest amber5885]

I have thought about making meth but that's not for me.

I used to dabble in paganism but not anymore.

I don't do drugs. I don't even eat non organic veggies.

 

Thanks for being okay with it :) That means a lot to me

[Cinemaphobe]

Lol no problem :)

[sushi]

Amber thinks the forum of adults with imaginary friends based on ponies from a cartoon for little girls won't be accepting of her being childish.

 

MLP is ok, but my big thing is children's books -- the Oz books, Peter Pan, anything by Lewis Carroll. I know everyone these days is into Harry Potter, but I prefer the classics.

[Guest amber5885]

LMFAO!! I love you sushi! And I love peter pan, I have an old fancy copy of it I read before I go to bed. It's a great story