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Yeah, there's also schizoaffective disorder, which also includes bipolar, and I have to be on a mood stabilizer for that. Otherwise it goes between feeling like heaven and hell. The manic (upswing) can wear me out, staying up for days at a time. That's when I think everything is going well. But the pendulum swings the other way too and I'll experience downtime. It did get a bit serious for me.

Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox.

Birthdate September 20, 2014.

Sentient October 1, 2014.

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I have borderline personality disorder which ha traits of bipolar disorder, I know how hard it can be. My mood swings are a little more sudden though. One minute I'll be totally happy and on top of the world and an hour later I'm Litteraly trying to talk myself out of suicide.

 

It doesn't happen every day thank god but I know the feels, I got your back! Lol

Chance told me today "Kiddo, I got this" when nothing really was going on. Not sure what he's got, but interesting he called me kiddo. I'm not feeling head pressure anymore when I focus on him, because I'm not really going all out anymore. I think of him from time to time.

Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox.

Birthdate September 20, 2014.

Sentient October 1, 2014.

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Have had headaches these last few days, making it difficult to force. Nothing new to speak of from my tulpa. I don't worry about his development like I used to. But some days I forget to force altogether.

Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox.

Birthdate September 20, 2014.

Sentient October 1, 2014.

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I finished reading the His Dark Materials trilogy to my tulpa.

 

Now I ordered The Great Book of Amber: The Complete Amber Chronicles, 1-10 (Chronicles of Amber).

 

It's like 1264 pages. The last book of the Dark Materials trilogy was The Amber Spyglass, so funny how it continues with the amber theme. Though it's 2 different authors. Thank you to the librarians who gave me great input on which books to read.

 

When I read to my tulpa, most of the time I'd get so engrossed in the book that I'd forget I was reading to him. I hope he still heard and still helped his sentience. I haven't really given him much notice as of late. When I focus on him, it's only for a few seconds before my mind wanders. I've always wanted a tulpa, even before I knew what they were.

 

I wish the novel that I published were still in print. And that it didn't cost $35 for a hardback.

Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox.

Birthdate September 20, 2014.

Sentient October 1, 2014.

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Didn't notice you were so interested in amber. Nor did I know she had 10 chronicles written about her.

 

(Sorry, half the time these horrible jokes are my tulpa coming out. Also the trolling... indeed the trolling is her.)

 

Now Lyra wants to kill me for saying that. Hehehe....

These crab creatures have a unique parasitic strategy, don’t you think?

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I thought my tulpa was sentient, but now I have my doubts. He hasn't talked much lately if at all. When I think of him, I don't get the feeling that he is there. But I haven't been forcing a lot. I wonder if he disappeared. He was an anthro husky, at least last I heard from him, or saw him.

Chance, an anthro husky, wolf or fox.

Birthdate September 20, 2014.

Sentient October 1, 2014.

They do not disappear. There are known cases, some made even in creepypastas (why was I supposed to say that?), when tulpa just disappears for some time and reappears after. Yet, still don't want to scare you, but this could take from days to years.

Yet even if they did not reappear, they ARE STILL somewhere in your head.

And may the fears keep away from you.

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