Earthquake's PR Journal

[Earthquake]

Snow is a novelty, its fun to play in when your younger and its pretty but you gotta drive slow, and wake up 30 minutes early to warm your car up and dig It out.

 

Also what are some of your fav superheroes'. I lean more towards marvel but ill fucks with dc.my fav hero is Spider-Man, but Elia has a really hard time picking. She's leaning more towards star fire or raven from teen titans (go). I don't really read a lotta comics by Iike to keep up with all the news about super heroes.

[Cinemaphobe]

Spiderman and Marvel are my favorites!

 

I love Teen Titans as well!!!

 

But yeah, I know that dealing with snow in the north is really annoying and dangerous. It would be lovely to experience it at least once though...

[Earthquake]

I've been forcing a lot less, but still talking to Elia constantly. Everytime I go to force I have a hard time focusing, or get distracted and start thinking about something else. My concentration has gone to shit these past couple of weeks.

 

Like I said though I'm still talking to Elia near constantly if I'm not too busy, like when I'm driving or watching tv. Not full on conversations but like, lets do this next or what do you wanna listen to. I can imagine her there with me pretty decently, not imposition but in my minds eye.

 

Despite my lack of forcing she seems pretty chipper and gets excited about stuff pretty easily. I got a therapist I'm seeing on Monday for the first time for my anxiety, and I'm thinking about getting a gym membership. Figure I might as well work on body if I'm working on my mind.

 

Ya that's pretty much it, post more later my party people. (Goodbye.)

 

Also Cinema I can't tell you when or where but I promise you, you will see snow someday. But it sucks :p

[Earthquake]

Got my car back from the shop today and went to a few stores. Gotten into buying comics lately and been grabbin some that interests both me and Elia, she's pretty content right now. Also gotta new jacket {It looks Snazzy!}.

 

Ambien isn't a good drug for forcing, at least for me. I get too carried away on it, just get too loopy to do anything productive, active forcing wise. When I do active forcing, if any, I make sure to do it before I take it. Only other drug, besides alcohol I really take is xanax. Quit smoking weed acouple of months ago and havnt looked back, was giving me way too much anxiety. She had a panic attack once, and so far only one time thankfully, I talked to her and told her everything would be fine and I took some xanax and she calmed down as soon as it kicked in. I thought it was interesting that she could have a panic attack (she's calling me a dick right now, but nudging me playfully) and that the xanax helped.

 

Elia has a new favorite song, she (and I) think it represents our relationship pretty good. Its a damn good song.

 

Fade Away-Cipes and the People

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=gHHwPPg5kH4

 

Very meaningful to us.

 

My neighbor is paying me to walk his dog while he's outta town so i'm gonna use that time to walk with Elia and shit. She likes animals, and my dog passed a couple of months ago so its kinda nice. Its just been getting kinda cold out recently, and while Elia is looking forward to her first winter, I could go without.

 

Sometimes I wonder about other people that dont have tulpas, and what my life would be like without Elia. I spend a lotta time a lone, but with Elia I'm never really alone. Whenever I'm not with someone else I'm usually talking or making comments to her. I don't think I would be sad or unhappy, but I'm definitely in a better place with her around. She's my best friend. Idk this didn't really have anything to do with anything just something that has popped into my head a couple of times.

 

When I ask her what she wants outta life she always says, "To be happy, and you too." I like that our relationship isn't romantic, though sometimes she gets a little risqué, its really just two really close friends. She's very independent and makes comments on stuff that she says she likes, that I don't. For the most part she likes the same stuff I do, and sometimes she likes it even more. She also knows I won't put Taylor Swift in my phone {Pretzels and Pepsi are a fair compromise, he keeps me happy.}

 

I like to think I'm a good person, but she usually keeps me in check when I'm not exactly being nice. When I look down on other people or make rude comments in my mind she'll tell me that its not nice and that they are people too, they are just different. First time she came to me in a dream I saw a guy with a purse and I was gonna say something mean and she told me, I didn't see her it was in mind voice, to be nice. I was and it turned into one of the best dreams I had in a while, the guy was a mayor or some shit and rewarded me for my kindness lol. Only other time I really thought of her in a dream I became lucid for a little bit and I tried to call her but it didn't really work.

 

She wants me to active force more, I don't blame her, I want to also I just find it soooo boring, I'm sorry Elia. She has a smile on her face so i don't think she's too upset {I'm really not}. Sometimes when I'm trying to active force I start thinking about other stuff and then ill be snapped back to forcing and it just keeps happening. Other times I just plain dont look forward to it. I'm nearly constantly passive forcing though, and if she's not on the back of my mind she's on the front, sometimes she's just on the side but I never forget about her for too long. {I can give him that much he's pretty good when it comes to that.}

 

This a pretty long post, but it gives a pretty good idea of where I'm at and what's goin on I guess. The only thing I really gotta add is I appreciate any kinda comments or feedback, even just letting me know someone reads this feels nice, as long as it isn't rude or mean.

 

That's all for now, and as always Elia has to get the last word in {Bye!}

[Earthquake]

Nothing new too add tonight. Something I've been meaning to add though is I smoke cigarettes and she used to complain about it, but after awhile she started having one occasionally. She doesn't smoke a lot, and sometimes she'll just say "you really need a cigarette right now". Honestly I'd wish shed bitch more when I smoke, and after writing that she said she's definitely gonna start bitching more. Its a good thing though its a horrible habit. I don't smoke a lot, I can go a couple days without one but if I'm around people who are smoking I can just sit there and chain smoke.

[Earthquake]

Rented a few movies and games tonight for me and Elia to enjoy together. I got Silent Hill Downpour and It is super creepy. She likes to tease me when I get scared but even she admits that she was getting scared when I was playing it.

 

Figured since I don't have much else to add tonight I'll do a little Q and A with her. Since she never really has much to add to my PR I figure this would be a good way to have you guys hear from her more.

 

Q:What's your favorite color?

E:My favorite color is red.

 

Q:What's your favorite food?

E:I think we all know its pretzels.

 

Q:Real food not a snack food...

E:That's a hard one to decide but I guess I would have to say hamburgers. The bigger, the better. On a pretzel bun. With pretzels.

 

Q:What's your very first memory?

E:Sitting on the couch and you saying hi.

 

Q:What one thing do you want to do most in life.

E:To travel the world.

 

Q:What is your favorite animal.

E:Bears are really cool, but I want a dog someday. A beagle. I like their eyes and ears.

 

Q:What's your favorite movie.

E:I can't decide. I'll get back to ya on that.

 

 

I'm doing this on my phone so its taking me awhile. Its getting pretty late so I am going to force for a short while and then come back to this. I also plan on taking an Ambien after my force so idk maybe we will see some more interesting questions and answers. Really wanna post this before I crash though.

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Alright time to finish this up. Forced for 9 outta my 10 planned minutes then got interrupted, but its really late anyways so Ill do more tomorrow. Took an Ambien (10mg), because I'm an insomniac and have trouble falling asleep. Also interested in seeing how differently she answers questions.

 

Q:Who Is your favorite Actor(tress)

E:Will Ferrel! He's so funny!

 

Only books I know she read are the Harry Potter ones, so I can only ask her about those when it comes to books.

Q:What's your favorite HP book?

R:The 5th one.(when I was thinking about which one it was she answered again) Order of the Phoenix.

 

Q:Who was your favorite character?

E: My favorite character is, hmm, a tough pick between Dumbledore{I like how he's so mysterious} and Luna Lovegood{She's goofy and I like goofy.}

 

Q:What's your most fond memory?

E:How extra close we got from beginning to late-middle october, we had a lotta good times. I feel like we declined in progress since then.

 

Hmm that answer hit me hard, Elia and I will talk about this again later, not really a PR convo kinda personal.

 

On a side note, Ambien fully hit me two questions ago.

 

She's happy right now, she's just smiling at me n then looking back at the tv, we are watching Alien, and for some reason she was super hyped for this movie. I guess I've mentioned it before and she did a bit of mind digging and now she has a good idea of it. Luckily I can't remember the ending because I can't seem to hide endings when we start a movie, from her and it gets her a bit miffed. I hate ruining movies.

 

Q:Who is your favorite superhero?

E:I really like StarFire and Raven, but since you started collecting comics I'm hoping my views will be broadened! Superheros are so cool, and I can use use their powers in my wondeand!

 

Q:How does the Ambien affect you?

E:Well It doesn't affect me as much as it does you. I feel happy and a bit loopy but not much other than that.

 

Alright that's it for our post tonight, maybe sometime ill do more Q and A's sometime in another post. If anyone wants to ask Elia some questions feel free, she's a little hesitant since her interaction with any one other than me Is almost non existent. But she wants to do it, SO PLEASE FEEL FREE! That's all for now {BYE!!!}

[Guest Anonymous]

man your doin great! i cant wait until i can do that with Sadie. i can barely hear her right now so it was hard just having her say a couple sentences on my pr X3 keep it up :3 oh also mind if i ask Elia a question? do you prefer beef or chicken Ramen noodles? X3

[Earthquake]

E: Haha well believe it or not but I've only ever tried chicken. "Earthquake" doesn't eat much ramen.

 

And thanks! Ya I think we are at a pretty good spot right now, but I see a lotta room for improvement. Like her answer to the question wasnt word for word loud. It tends to taper out towards the end of a sentence but she never rants or goes on and on so its usually not a problem. I do kinda wish shed yell and annoy me more though :/ lol she never has a whole lot to say.

[Cinemaphobe]

I agree with Elia on just about everything. wow lol. and yes, Will Ferrell is GLORIOUS.

[Earthquake]

Haha ya, Will Ferrell isn't my favorite actor but my favorite comedy of all time is Step-Brothers. My favorite actor is Shia Labeouf, also gotta soft spot for Ellen Page. Also I now got a tulpa that looks like Will Ferrell saying "So you want me to annoy you?!"