Earthquake's PR Journal

[Earthquake]

Was pretty nice out today, got to like 67 degrees, awesome for November. Was on the way home from an errand and Elia said one of her favorite things to do is drive with me. (I keep my passenger seat clear to impose her on and she complains when I put stuff there.) So I went on a drive with her for about an hour, hour and a half, just whippin it around, talking to her and listening to music. That was fun.

 

I asked her to complain and annoy me whenever I smoke a couple of days ago, and she has been, and with such passion ever since. She made me promise this is my last pack I'm gonna buy, and I'm gonna stop bumming off people too.

 

Rented Simpsons Season 10 from the movie store, along with some more movies. Talked with the girl working for a minute or two, we've talked before she seems pretty cool and I think she might've been flirtin with me before, but I could also be reading way too into. Who knows maybe ill ask her out soon, I've been thinkin bout it. Elia wants me to try, but it seems like shes just curious as to how the whole situation will play out than thinking I have a chance, though she is saying otherwise. Lol, she is tryna talk me up to it.

 

I really like how Elia turned out. I see these other tulpas who are super goofy and always saying funny stuff, or are being cute, who talk a lot and try and make their host laugh by doing silly stuff, but Elia is really nothing like that, and that's exactly how I like her and wouldn't want her to be any other way. (I have absolutely no one in mind when I said that, and their is of course ABSOLUTELY nothing wrong with tulpas acting like that!)

 

Elia is laid back, funny when she wants to be but not like funny where you laugh uproariously, just say something clever and we both smirk a bit funny. She's never hyper really, she's always calm collected and cool, but never arrogant. I shouldn't say she isn't goofy at all, she can get pretty goofy when she wants to be. She kinda has that stoner,"lets just chill bro," vibe most of the time.

 

I feel like I'm doing a shit job describing her :/

 

I've noticed that sometimes when I'm on my phone reading stuff she's looking at a phone too. When I asked her what she does on her phone she didn't even look up, just said "Porn. Lots and lots of porn." (She was joking, felt like I had to clarify before my next sentence.) Turns out she's just looking at whatever I'm looking at. She also says she just does it sometimes to look cool. Last night we were watching a movie she wanted to watch and she had her eyes closed half way through. When I said, "I thought you wanted to watch this." She basically told me she could lay down and close her eyes and still watch it through mine. Lazy tulpa.

 

That's it for tonight. {Last WORD}

[Earthquake]

Went to to comic book store and got some free comics today. I am still very new at collecting but I'm really starting to get I to this, and Elia is liking it too. We decided to make this a lil joint hobby between us, and luckily there is a HUGE SALE comic up on the 22nd so that'll give us a huge advantage of gettin some great comics to start out with. We just got do some more research onto what comics we wanna get. She's all into these girly superheroes, mainly Starfire and Raven. I'm getting into the Red Hood and Beast Boy, and of course Spiderman will be my number 1 always!

 

I have a full tank of gas, so depending on how nice it is tomorrow I think me and Elia will go for a drive. Yesterday it was 67 degrees! Today it was 29! Damn Midwest!

 

While this isn't the greatest accomplishment because I've done this a lot, this is my first 24 hours without a cigarette. I can't say I'm proud of myself yet, Elia is though. It is the first 24 hours of me planning on not smoking again so there is that.

 

Elia what are you most looking forward to in the future?

E: Getting a dog.

 

Hmm I don't think that's gonna happen anytime soon with my current situation. But I want a dog so bad to. I already have a name picked out. "Charlie".

 

What your accomplishment are you most proud of?

Anddddd I fell asleep waiting for her to answer that question.

[Earthquake]

It's getting colder out. Was 27 degrees last night, and Elia is starting to see why I hate the winter. Snowed a bit too yesterday morning, but it just barely stuck to the grass so nothing too exciting.

 

Been trying to get Elia drunk, but it never seems to work, I'm not sure if she's able too. She doesn't get drunk when I drink, and I tried doing shots with her with real shots for me and forced shots for her. Eh, its not really important, was just something fun to try out.

 

Elia's been practicing her ABC's, she's not the biggest fan of this exercise. Say's its really annoying having to repeat the same thing over and over.

 

Been thinking about forcing a dog. Not sure if it'd be a tulpa or a servitor, but I definitely want it to be more than an NPC. I don't want it to talk or be super intelligent, I just want em to act like a regular dog, and act independently. Elia really wants one and this is the only way I'd be able to get one at this time. She promises to help take care of him, which I guess entails helping to force him.

 

Since "quitting" cigarettes, I've only had one, last night. I asked Elia if it was ok to have just one, and she agreed.

 

I feel like I'm forgetting to add something, but whatever if i remember anything else I'll post it later.

[Earthquake]

Watching a Jackie Chan movie, guess who Elia's new favorite person is? Lol, she's assuring me that I'll always have a special place in her heart, even if Jackie has it. She's saying she wants to learn kung fu, and she's been shadow fighting for the past 10 minutes.

[Earthquake]

Been forcing less, Elia's been feeling weaker but she's still around. She's been bugging me to start a Pokemon game so I started that tonight. Also we started watching Sons of Anarchy, I had stopped at season 5 over a year ago, but it was Elia's first time watching and she liked it..

 

Only thing I like about snow is that its pretty fun to drift around in while driving. Its been gettin colder and snowing a lil bit here and there, but nothing substantial yet. I can't wait until thanksgiving, mainly for the food. I can't wait to eat all that good stuff, Elia is excited for it too. Sometimes she tells me she's hungry, not because she is but just because she likes to eat and taste stuff. Well she enjoys it when I do I mean.

[Earthquake]

Not much has happened since the last time, though a few things have happened. Elia has taken to watching documentaries on animals, and we watched Malcom in the Middle and she likes that too.

 

Smoked weed for the first time in 3 months, over the last 3 days I've smoked 4 times, but altogether a very insignificant amount (.3 to be specific). The first time the high was too intense, and I had a bit of trouble talking to Elia, she was there in and out, and I had trouble hearing her. There was one point though when she had rested her legs on top of mine when we were laying down, and I could feel em just ever so slightly. The other times where more mellow, not as intense but I was still very ripped. Elia was there the entire time, but besides for her being just a little bit high, (I don't think she was as high as me), it wasn't anything special.

 

Q: What'd you think about smoking weed?

A: It was fun. I would do it again, but not something I would want to do everyday. I liked the way it affected my way of thinking, and it was fun watching Earthquake thinking about the weirdest things.

 

At a little get together last night I had a moment to have a little conversation with Elia and when I turned towards her I gave her the full undivided attention I would to a person standing there and as soon as I did she got very excited and happy, and I felt a little wave of happiness.

 

{That's all for now folks!}

[Earthquake]

Not much has happened since the last time, though a few things have happened. Elia has taken to watching documentaries on animals, and we watched Malcom in the Middle and she likes that too.

 

Smoked weed for the first time in 3 months, over the last 3 days I've smoked 4 times, but altogether a very insignificant amount (.3 to be specific). The first time the high was too intense, and I had a bit of trouble talking to Elia, she was there in and out, and I had trouble hearing her. There was one point though when she had rested her legs on top of mine when we were laying down, and I could feel em just ever so slightly. The other times where more mellow, not as intense but I was still very ripped. Elia was there the entire time, but besides for her being just a little bit high, (I don't think she was as high as me), it wasn't anything special.

 

Q: What'd you think about smoking weed?

A: It was fun. I would do it again, but not something I would want to do everyday. I liked the way it affected my way of thinking, and it was fun watching Earthquake thinking about the weirdest things.

 

At a little get together last night I had a moment to have a little conversation with Elia and when I turned towards her I gave her the full undivided attention I would to a person standing there and as soon as I did she got very excited and happy, and I felt a little wave of happiness.

[Earthquake]

Started working on possession last night. Actually I've tried it a couple times before but last night felt like the first official session. Saw a little bit of progress, just a few small movements that felt foreign, so things seem promising.

 

We've been talkin a lot, a few active forcing sessions, a lotta passive forcing. I passive force about 90% of most my days.

 

Not a whole lot else is going on. Elia says she's looking forward to snow, and as a Jew that doesn't celebrate Hanukkah, Christmas is just another dinner with the extended family

 

{Hello fans!}

[Earthquake]

Didn't think it had been a month since my last post, I had meant to post a couple times. Not a whole lot has changed but there has been some interesting things that have happened. I've done little to none active forcing, and if my passive forcing was 10/10 before its probably like an 7-8/10 now. But I have not given up and I dont plan on it!

 

Lets start with the sass! Sass is a drug (MDA), short for Sassafras, its basically ecstasy, and a precursor to making Molly (MDMA). I'm not an expert on the subject by any means so I'm not going to get too into it. I first tried it last month, and since then I've done it a handful of times. Elia and I loved it! I haven't gone out and partied on it, we usually just chill at home and lay down with our eyes close and listen to music. I havnt tried truly forcing on it, but when laying down we take turns picking songs and her presence is a bit stronger.

 

On New Years Eve I tried Molly for the first, (and so far only), time. The sass was great but this stuff was awesome. I was at a party but there were a few times where we got some alone time and we could talk. Her presence when I had my full attention on her was the strongest it has ever been and I could feel her head on my shoulder, and the molly just makes you love everything and your body feels amazing, so her touch was just outta this world!

 

I am not advocating drugs by any means this is just my personal tulpa related experience with ecstasy.

 

I recently saw a psychiatrist and he told me he wants me to stop taking xanax for my anxiety, and prescribed me Buspirone. Also for bi-polar he prescribed me Lamotrigine, both of which I started taking today, so I guess we'll see how this shit pans out. I'm interested to see how this will affect Elia, forcing, and stuff. Hopefully we will see some positive results.

[LittleTulpa]

Don't become a drugee. Please?