Earthquake January 7, 2015 Author January 7, 2015 Haha, well ok, I guess I can do that for you. I'm not trying to be on this stuff all the time, there's no doubt about it, thatd be horrible. Its just something that id like to enjoy occasionally. Thanks for your concern though!
Earthquake January 18, 2015 Author January 18, 2015 Presence is getting weaker, she's still there and talking, though not as much. Starting right after this post I'm gonna start putting more effort into forcing. Broke the head gasket in my car, wont be driving it too much. Shame because that was Elia and I's favorite things to do. Forgot to add that in December I got pretty drunk and ended up telling one of my good friends, who moved out if state, about Elia. It started out with, "Can you keep a secret? I have an imaginary friend...", and went from there. I showed him this site, my PR in particular. We didn't really get into that night but when I texted him about it the next day, it went really well. He said whatever I needed that helped me with my problems is a good thing. We kinda left it at that and haven't talked about it since. E}}} Earthquake is saying I have to write at least one paragraph for one reason or another. I just wanna go to bed. I really like Malcolm I'm the Middle, Earthquake showed it to me earlier this month. He said he smoked his last cigarette today and shook my hand on it so we'll see how long this lasts. My birthday is coming up in April, I'm pretty excited for that; I've been promised gifts. I want to stop here but he wont let me. I wanna ride a pony or a goat. I gotta lotta new music to listen to on his phone today. Technically he picked it out but I'm excited for new things. I'm done and refuse to write more. That took awhile to get her to say all that. I had to coax a lotta that outta her, wait for her reply's and what not. She didn't have much to say to begin with so I asked her some general questions like "What do you like." Aaand that's a good place to end.
Earthquake January 22, 2015 Author January 22, 2015 Having trouble imagining lately. I think its a combination of laziness, stress, and lack of focus. Elia's head seems to big for her body lately lol so we have been working on that somewhat. We have been watching a lot of tv together, I usually let her decide what to watch, whith her go to being Malcolm in the Middle as of late. She hasn't gotten to into Futurama too much' which I'm surprised at, given how that's one of my all time favorite shows and how much she likes the Simpsons. I have been able to completely give up smoking, but Elia is really good at making me feel bad about it, or taking advantage of the situation. I'll ask, "I know I'm not supposed to be smoking but you won't be mad if I have just one will you?" "No. I won't be mad at you at all... just extremely dissapointed." That's when I have to stop and think, and sometimes barter with her. I usually end up promising her extra forcing times and usually she wants some kinda special treat like ice cream or Chinese food...quitting cigarettes is not easy. Elia says she's Jewish but I'm not sure exactly if she knows what that entails beside eating kosher. Probablyy going to have to have a talk about that soon.
Earthquake January 23, 2015 Author January 23, 2015 Passed out while forcing last night. It was a decent session. I plan on getting some more sassafras tomorrow, I'm going to take some tomorrow with some friends and save some for a really intense forcing session on a later date, hopefully sometime around the middle of next week. We are almost done with Malcolm in the Middle, not sure what show we are going to watch next but we do gotta catch up on Arrow. After this post I'm going to force a little bit and then pass out.
Earthquake January 23, 2015 Author January 23, 2015 Just had a great meditation. For a fleeting second I felt like I was Elia, I thought about how I looked and then it passed. Will add more later.
Earthquake February 18, 2015 Author February 18, 2015 I started active forcing more often, I try to do 30 minutes when I wake up and 30 minutes before bed. I get lazy a lot and I have trouble focusing for too long so I don't always do ever session completely. Previously, I had felt like I had lost a little bit of progress with Elia and I wasn't hearing her as strong or feeling her presence as much, but this has definitely helped a lot. {It's easier to talk now.} For the past two weeks I have also been going to he gym. Elia enjoys it, she motivates me and is happy when I go. For a short while after working out, her presence is a bit stronger and she's a bit more talkative.
Earthquake February 27, 2015 Author February 27, 2015 OK. Well I've been working out and forcing a lot more and Elia's presence is a lot more prominent. I definitely think working out is helping out with the tulpamancy thing, and it has definitely improved our relationship and our progress a ton. She's been happier and while she wasn't, like, mean before or anything, she seems more pleasant and content. Shes been motivating me and helping me out a lot. For instance, at the gym she will say stuff like... {I love you but you're a bitch go harder!} {C'mon just a little bit more/farther!} {You're doing great keep it up!} {Don't be a bitch!} {You did great today I'm proud of you!} When I get lazy or I dont want to do something she knows how to talk me into doing it. I had a lucid dream a couple nights ago, completely on accident. It was pretty raw, and I was able to pull Elia into it, but she was only in it for a little while. I had thought she said it was boring and left in the dream but she's telling me that it was just hard to stay in there and it was really weird being in it. A couple weeks ago I told Elia I didnt think she was funny and she got a bit upset but not terribly. I then asked if she thought she was funny to try and make me laugh. Without missing a beat she said... {Why did the chicken get kicked out of the bar? Because he was really CLUCKED up!} Now I don't think the joke would be too funny to anyone else, but it actually made me laugh and whenever I think about it I smile and giggle and get a warm feeling inside, feels good. Not sure, but I think she might be working some tulpa mumbo jumbo and messing with my emotions when I think about it but is totally cool because it makes me cheese really hard. (Cheese means smile) I'm a pretty big hypocrite cause I'm not big a fan of the MLP fandom but I've somehow found myself emotionally invested in Twilight, lol. Me and Elia have watched them all and she likes it {almost} as much as me. I based her form off of Alice with quite a bit of differences but now she looks more like her, but at the same time recognizably different. Watching the movies and seeing the character she is based on has helped a bit with forcing as well. I've been smoking weed again quite often recently. I still get anxiety from it but after about like 20 minutes it will go away completely and I will be really mellowed out and Elia absolutely loves that time. Besides for the sass/MDMA this is the only other drug she really feels. She is adorable as all get out when she is high, she's completely chill and just wants to lay down and watch TV or movies. She isn't too talkative on it like I said she jus wants to relax but she does occasionally say funny stuff like... {You should probably go make some food.} We finished all of Arrow that we are able to watch and now we watch a lotta Case Closed, she likes that a lot, so we have that going on right now. Also almost done with Malcolm in the Middle, just a few random episodes we skipped here and there. She says Malcolm is her favorite show outta everything. All in all, Elia is the fucking shit, and I lover her, tulpamancy is the fucking shit, and I love it. Been getting better and better at developing out relationship and I don't plan on stopping.
Earthquake March 4, 2015 Author March 4, 2015 Not much too report. Decided to go to an Anime Convention in July, it will be my first, and Elia and I are very excited. My heart has been acting funny and hurting a bit, seeing a doctor on Friday. Elia's voice isn't very loud but its pretty clear, and her form is satisfactorily clear, for now at least. We don't use a wonderland much really anymore. I usually just see her for short bursts of expressions and stuff. Havn't smoked a cigarette (except 4 drags in a moment of drunken weakness) in over a month, both of us are pretty happy about that.
Earthquake March 8, 2015 Author March 8, 2015 Not much happening lately, just chilling with Elia and watching stuff and working out. Eating too much. We can't wait for the anime con in July, my friend is coming out from Texas, he isn't into this stuff too much but I convinced him to come along. I've been annoying Elia by listening to the same songs from a band I recently discovered over and over again. {I've heard them so much}. She's made me laugh a lot more recently, she has some pretty witty retorts. Heart is still all funky but my Dr. says its fine. All for now.
Earthquake March 10, 2015 Author March 10, 2015 Elia usually doesn't like vulgar music, but for some reason she really like this song: https://vimeo.com/53992498 This is the song I've been annoying Elia with the most: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=oQb6PyDLGjk Progress so far has been great but we seem to be at a standstill {:/}. Gonna read some guides and practice something new, maybe audible imposition that one has always seemed fun. {My skin's white like cocaine} She's in a pretty good mood.
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