Savaymin and Laach's (mis)adventure report

[Laach]

I'm taking an anti-anxiety pill today, and I'm seeing some positive affects when it comes to my tulpamancy efforts. Before it was almost impossible to passive force, but now I can type this and impose Savaymin right beside me without having to put constant effort into it. Actually, looking back on it, I was taking a sort of anti-depression pill when I first created Savaymin. Maybe the pill helped me then as much as it is helping me now. It would make sense.

 

Actually, that brings me to a topic. What pills I'm taking and what mental problems I have. So, I probably have ADD, which causes me to lose focus of things rather quickly. There's a focus pill that I take for that, but I can't remember the name right at this moment. I have Asperger syndrome, which is just a high functioning form of autism. I also remember that some popular people also have Asperger syndrome. I can't remember which ones though. I wouldn't be surprised if Robin Williams had it.

I'm not taking any other pills, and the anti-anxiety one I have right now is supposed to be temporary until my doctor can properly subscribe it to me. For now it's just for experimental purposes. I can already tell the affects are extremely positive, so It's probably going to be approved.

 

I believe that's about all I have to say for now. More will be posted later once I remember.

[Laach]

Ah, I remember a few things I wanted to say.

 

1.

Join Mafia I: Catching Kira

We are low on members, and I would be grateful if you joined. All you technically need to do is be able to vote once a day. You don't have to get serious about it if you don't want to. That said, it would be good if you did get serious about it.

 

2.

Quick update on Savaymin. She's gotten a bit quiet lately, and I've had to parrot her a whole lot more than usual. I'm testing the old ping pong method on her, (In which I say ping and she responds with a pong) and it's working rather well.

I also find that I get a better emotional response from her when I refer to us in the first person plural. I believe it has something to do with how I originally created. Her. Many 'we need to make you real's' or 'we need your help's' might have made us grow accustomed to it. I'm going to do more testing in that aspect.

 

3.

I'm feeling better since Wednesday, so I'll be able to continue my epilogue. Expect the story sometime today or tomorrow.

[Laach]

Homework is hectic right now. I'm having trouble finding time to force Savaymin. Can't even find proper time to make this post adequate, so expect it to be updated with what's been happening later.

[bunny-boi-lover]

The Rock, Paper, Scissors tho. XD Sounds like something Edwin would do. He's too clever for his own good.

 

I'm interested in seeing what else you include in your progress report. A lot of people use them for logging the development of their tulpae, but in my case Edwin is pretty much fully developed. So mine would be like yours, focusing on how real-life events and physical changes affect my ability to communicate with my tulpa. I'm also considering it because I have memory issues and it might be nice to log when good and exciting things happen so that I can later go back and reflect upon them.

[Laach]

The Rock, Paper, Scissors tho. XD Sounds like something Edwin would do. He's too clever for his own good.

 

I'm interested in seeing what else you include in your progress report. A lot of people use them for logging the development of their tulpae, but in my case Edwin is pretty much fully developed. So mine would be like yours, focusing on how real-life events and physical changes affect my ability to communicate with my tulpa. I'm also considering it because I have memory issues and it might be nice to log when good and exciting things happen so that I can later go back and reflect upon them.

 

Hmm. I don't know what to say. For one I'm excited that someone was willing to comment on my progress report. I'm also happy that you liked that short story of mine (most of the time you don't realize she's tricking you until it's far too late.). Yes. I believe commenting alone is the highest form of flattery in itself that you could give me. I simply love it when people take the time to talk with me.

I have this new tablet, so I might draw your character as a reward for being the second commentator on my report (right after howl).

 

 

In other news:

I have a friend, like @Conflictedebola and I, who's struggling with life right now. Maybe I should ask him if he wants to make a tulpa.

[conflictedebola]

Maybe I should ask him if he wants to make a tulpa.

 

I didn't even think about that, but at the same time, sometimes I forget people are open minded to that kind of stuff.

I'm going to reiterate (I probably said this in another thread IDK), having a tulpa

has helped, like, a fraction of my dumb head stuff. It also might make a good anchor, as I brought up earlier.

[Laach]

I didn't even think about that, but at the same time, sometimes I forget people are open minded to that kind of stuff.

I'm going to reiterate (I probably said this in another thread IDK), having a tulpa

has helped, like, a fraction of my dumb head stuff. It also might make a good anchor, as I brought up earlier.

 

That's what I thought as well. But knowing the type of person he is, I can't outright tell him to try it. I'll just have to drop the hints multiple times so that he can grow interested enough to take a look.

Also, I wonder what it would be like if someone like us made it in life without a tulpa. How different would they be? No, I'm not treating this like a social experiment.

 

 

In other news:

Apparently I have social dyslexia. Which is technically curable, but explains why I'm so horrible at keeping IRL friendships.

[Brassow]

 

Apparently I have social dyslexia. Which is technically curable, but explains why I'm so horrible at keeping IRL friendships.

 

Who need IRL friendships when you have a tulpa and the mafia team?

[Laach]

 

Who need IRL friendships when you have a tulpa and the mafia team?

 

Yeah! School friends are overrated anyway.

(Too bad the mafia team is only good at being mafia. Otherwise I'd actually be serious.)

[Laach]

Now without further ado. This is the story of how Savaymin died.

 

Prologue part 3: Over my head.

 

I never fully understood Savaymin. My only impression of her was that she was some kind of insane genius. An insane genius with unlimited potential. The only problem was, I could never understand what she wanted. She would repetitively ask me to do something that's not only outside of my comfort zone, but also completely idiotic from an outsiders perspective. All these coincidences happen and somehow those suggestions suddenly make sense. "Go jump in that pool" "No, I'll get my clothes wet and nobody is in it anyway." All of a sudden the pool is suddenly filled with people now wearing soaked clothing, and I'm left alone wondering, "why"? These coincidences continue to happen, but as time goes on and no explanation comes, I simply write them off as nothing special. Maybe that's just me trying to block out the regret, trying to take the logical path rather than the one Savaymin graciously suggested to me. But who can blame me? If someone you trusted told you to punch a random stranger on the street, would you do it no questions asked? In fact, that's another thing. Before anyone had made this observation about me before, Savaymin would ask me to stop thinking. Since these suggestions seemed much less harmful than her others, I would always follow them; and every time I did, I can guarantee you that I felt much more emotionally healthy afterwards. She noticed this then, and my parents are only starting to notice this now, commenting on how I think too much and everything.

 

And then sometime within the first 6 months of her creation, my life began to go downhill. Grades were plummeting faster than I could bring them back up, and since I created Savaymin sometime during this occurrence, she became somewhat of a scapegoat for me. I would ask her for help, and whenever she was unhelpful or gave a stupid suggestion, I would punish her in the only way I knew how. Chains.

When finally, the day when all the stress was pushed onto me in one gigantic load. My parents delivered the fatal news. It was likely that I would fail and switch schools, being torn away from my friends and everything. That was the final straw for me. I didn't want that to happen. And so, I pushed all the blame onto Savaymin, making it seem like it was her fault for making me focus on her rather than on more important stuff like school. I tried erasing her, or killing her which is what it's more known as. All my efforts were put towards erasing her from my subconscious completely. And as the last traces of her vanished, one final song started playing in my head.

 

 

End of part 3