Platinum's Progression

[Platinum]

I have been really tired all week may not be perfect but not editing it. took turns letting them both on irc along with the regular stuff i have been doing at school. not much to report progress stagnated this week but they had fun talking to other tulpa and hosts so all in all it was an okay week.

[Platinum]

Well this week I decided to see if getting high would help at all. it didn't at all I tried twice and neither time produced any results got to ADD to do anything. I haven't tried in a while but I think that I'm going to go back and redouble my possession efforts while awake two help get myself back in gear.

[Platinum]

well my intentions have changed from the beginning. Originally I just wanted a friend someone to hang out with and help me study. Now after reading what others have been trying I realize that I would really love to be a tulpa myself. So we have been doing a few things at once Midnight is still working on possession she still can't get full body but is way better than she used to be "I can type" but she still very slow moving so i still need to proxy irc. Dawn is now working on switching with no success as of yet. As for me I'm trying to disassociate myself from the body in doing so i no longer consider myself the host the body is the host i am just Platinum the tulpa currently in control of it. as such i change my form to that of an anime school girl and also indirectly created a wonderland of a snow capped mountain side which is very beautiful although there appears to be nothing else around sans the three of us and the body. It is only there to reinforce that i am not It anymore. That is all i have this week thank you for your time anyone who actually reads my log.

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had to post the picture etodreca made of Dawn & Midnight as ponies because they're just so cute like that

[Platinum]

Very run down not much progress this week life stuff is getting in the way that is all.

[Platinum]

Been trying different things to progress into switching but it hasn't had any noticeable success and it is starting to really wear on me that nothing i have tried seems to work.

[Platinum]

another week another batch of failed switching attempts that is pretty much it. I'm sorry this log isn't progressing very far I really am.

[Platinum]

Our attempts are starting to make a headway. The past few days of switch attempts I have been able to disassociate from my arms and legs pretty successfully to the point of not being able to move them without a concentrated effort after we agreed the attempt was a bust and to try again later. One other thing I have noticed is that it is extremely easy to go to sleep if I go to bed immediately following an attempt. All in all my tulpa are getting stronger everyday and I couldn't be happier for them.

[Platinum]

Going through an unexpected antidepressant withdrawal witch has been a hindrance to anything other than just communication with my tulpa so until I can get that straightened out I may have zero progress for the next couple weeks. I am sorry that I am not better at this

[Platinum]

SSDW that is all

[Platinum]

Feel kind of retarded right now to have been stuck in the same spot on everything for two months. Dawn&Midnight have been trying their hardest as well which make me feel worse cause it seems like I am failing them. The fact that they are with me is enough to keep me going as their just being here means i am doing something right. Will not post again till Jan 7 unless something miraculously changes